the clock strikes midnight... as the dream slips through your head... this is no dress rehearsal... there is no second chance...

Monday, June 20, 2005

World Harmony Run


How come there were no publicity on the World Harmony Run? It should make it known .. like the Racial Harmony Day.. well ... the public need not have to join in for the run but at least knew of the occasion, so when the elite runners ran pass them, while carrying the torch , they can applaud and give support... Posted by Hello But not bad... got pple fr KL came down ah... thanks to TLR blog.. i think his name was Max , came down supposedly for Kylie's concert but was cancelled, read TLR's blog and registered for the run...

Kevin ran with me throughout the 1st 4.8km at MacRitchie. I started too fast , and found myself gasping for air in the middle of the run. I had difficulty in breathing, i think my sp 02 level could be lower then 95%. Slow down and took deep breaths. Didn't bring my inhaler that day.

Rested a while at the carpark, while at the meantime. the elite runner continued with rest of the 30km, stopping over at temples, salvation army, mosque and all... I wanted so much to participate, to run together with the elite but I know that I am not up to it.. but still i want to try.. so asked the official for the programme sheet.

We took the bus to Ceylon Sports Club and waited for the runners, and we joined them after that. We did not plan for this extended running .. cos we had plans in the afternoon. But since it's a once a yr thing, why not? Kevin was supportive but i know he was quite worried that i might not be able cope with the runners whose pace was so super duper fast, and mine was like... hai.. super duper silow to the max...

Anyway, i enjoyed the run. Ran short distances, as for the last 10 km, i didn't manage to, gave up at Nicoll Highway. Kevin continued.

Besided Max, got to know a few people. One of them, the only girl runner- 28yr old, Ms Shyuan. Also at MR, made friend with Ms Jelene.. a frequent MR runner.

I am just glad to have done this with Kevin, cos most of the running events are held on Sundays, and he won't be able to make it. Looking forward to next run with Kevin, the Olympic Run, 3.8km, and it will be held on Saturday, 2 July.

The following day, will be the Milk Run.

Then the following day- 4th July, start of new semester!

Father's Day cum Happy Birthday Bapak


Yesterday was Father's Day. After seeing Kevin off for work at the door, I went back to sleep. Wanted to catch up with some beauty sleep and rest after the World Harmony Run the day before... but before I could do that, my dad phoned me up and wanted me to get ready by noon.. going to Sembawang Satay Club to collect the 400 stick of satay he ordered last week.. Hai seh, bapak! I thought the collection time is 1330hr, why so early go? I really need this moment to sleep.... So, we were at the Sembawang Satay Club at 1220hr, obviously the satay were not ready.. as well as most of the stalls were not ready too , even the drink stall not ready.. when i ordered for coffee, they say "air belum masak".. apa saja .... Posted by Hello

That's my 2nd brother with our dad. His birthday was on the 15th June, born in yr 1933. Almost every year, eversince he retired, he will invite all for makan-makan at his place. Can't remember what we ate for last year, but i remembered that I bought him a Swenson's ice-cream cake. But, it was all the grandchildren, plus me... who whack the whole cake! He was happy, alright.. and still is..

Monday, June 13, 2005

today i had malay mixed rice + coke for brunch.
malay-mixed rice + red bull for dinner @ 4.30pm.
then, i had macoroni chicken soup + soya bean drink @ 6.30pm.
now don't know what to eat... have jus smsed kev to buy bread.

trying my best to put on weight. let's see how much i weigh by this friday.

Saturday will go for the 4.8km run.. and that will shed some weight again
but not to worry, Sunday's my dad's birthday cum father's day celebrate.. so there's
food and i 'll fill up my tummy ! He told me that he had ordered 400 sticks of satay and fried rice from the satay club.
OMG.. bapak.. why so many sticks of satay! Our family - about less than 25 people.. how to finish all the satay!!!
Cancelled running plans yesterday because I got a terrible back ache the night before. I had this for quite sometime- think it's been 5yrs.. it happens only if i sneezed too hard or having a terrible asthmatic cough. It pulled my back and really hurts so bad- cannot bend down. The pain was quite unbearable on Saturday, when i sat down, i could feel my pelvic area palpitated.

but then, being me.. restless, i went to IKEA yesterday to get a clothes rod hanger, and dropped by Queensway Shopping Centre ... and got a Adidas fuel belt- ceh.. like macam bagus seh..cheap at $19, .. But need do some alteration to the belt.. very loose for my waist- I badly need to gain some more weight!!! I have no waist! no butt! A whole lot gonna be missing!

At max, i used to weigh at 56kg (before the running fever). Then i am happy at 53kg. Now.. i am at a miserable 50kg..

Last week i ordered Longtong and Nasi Campur for lunch! My friends said i am going crazy! Yes, i finished my food. Then i had snacks, mashed potato from 7-11, drink coke at times. But the thing is, i am too tired for dinner. Will cook dinner but eat very little.

This week, Mon to Wed, will be working fr 1pm to 9pm, and the rest of the week, 7am to 3pm. And that will be the end of the semester. Break for 2 weeks, then back to school and all the stress will comeback again.

Need to gain more weight

my nursing uniform looks like a maternity dress. all my pants are loose. seriously not looking good. Need to eat more!!

Sunday, June 12, 2005

wrong of u to write this... very childish too.

Received an email kassy kassy ...
don't know who this fella is...
really upset me.. and certainly felt demoralised.



kassy kassy wrote :
This is an email to all of you in the jan cohort. I am disgusted at how some
of our classmates behave in class and during attachment etc. They can act as
though they are angels while scolding the patients behind their back. It's
such a disgusing act by them. Do you all think that its right of them to do
so. Just can't stand them.

Each tutoiral group from ND0405 to ND0407, there are people behaving like
that, some claim to be very nobel in their nursing attachment, while some
who have already reach a certain age yet still act inoncent and act cute,
while the young ones are like idiots, don't know why these people act cute,
act innoncent for what.

Some of you just like to kick up a big fuss for not getting A in project
work and blame each other for the mistakes etc, while some of you think that
you have been working a lot for the project and that the others are nott
doing much, can you all please be fair or not!!! This is a group work, don't
claim credit for yourself only. I am totally disgusted by the way some of
you all behave. Yucks!!!!!

Dear all, nursing is a profession that requires a heart that is willing to
care and sacrifice. If some of you all are doing it for the sake of money or
trying to show off your nobelness then i think you have come to to the wrong
profession. Please, dear classmates, i wish to see our class get united up
and don't be like what we did in semester where we ended up in unhappy
quarrel again. I hope that we can be friends again and no more sabotage
please.

Regards
Sad Nursing student


Dear Kassy,

I don't know why i bother to reply to u. U leave us with no name. U, anyhow say.. and we are clueless as to who are u and exactly at whom are u targeting.. But the way it was written upsetted me and many others too. I wonder if u ever had any working experience or ever worked with people before. What u saw is nothing at all, it happens everywhere. Very normal and common too. But people just choose to ignore as there's nothing which can be done to change one's attitude.

I hope u are not one of my many friends i know at nyp.

What were u thinking before u mass email? U think there's no consequences meh? We can talk and discuss.. or is it u don't have anyone to talk to?

It seemed that u are having problems with ur own group... hey,u are not the only one. there are a few of us still having problems with their own grp dynamics. On this matter, I feel for u cos I, myself did faced problems within my own sub-groups in the last semester, but we had sort things out and will try to work it out for the next sem. Have to put our differences aside. I hope u can sort things out with ur dear classmates.

Before joining the nursing course, alot of things need to be considered as I have to forgo half of my salary. It's not abt money at all.. and so far, when interviewed, i gathered that we joined nursing with different reasons like, to learn new skill, to help the helpless, to contribute to the healthcare industry, to use the skill for missionary work and to become a nursing volunteer and some wanted to go overseas with the skill... and none of it concern money. Why u think the otherwise..?

I think i am the sad one now...

Thursday, June 09, 2005

tired and sleepy ... after running abt 10km this afternoon from yishun to woodlands mrt, then continue part 2- ran with kev colleaques at sembawang area. realised i can't run in a group- simply can't keep up with their pace. so i may not want to take part in the 30km World Harmony Run next Saturday.

Eyes really cannot tahan... closing already.. but i need to finish up with my case study -draft copy only but really man.. eyes cannot open.. BUT!!! I want to watch LOST on 5.. how ah.. Eyes closing - want to watch tv but then, need to do sch work - now cannot think.

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

See Kevin off this morning, went back to bed but can't sleep. Got case study to do but don't have much material to start with. Now i am wondering... what to do? it's almost 8.30am. I am thinking whether i should get ready and visit my parents at Chua Chu Kang- since i have lots of spare time. Leave CCK by 11.30am to report to TTSH by 1pm. Or should i should i go to school library to do some research on my case study? Let's just see how ...

Plan to run at MR again this Sunday, maybe will make it as my routine stuff every Sunday. There'll be a x-ctry event this coming sunday and TLR participating. So most likely, will see him there. Guess, there will be quite a crowd. Hmmmm... Or should i go to Marina Promenade/ Esplanade to run instead ? Take train to City Hall, and start from there, run to to the end of the park and back to the Esplanade- the JP Morgan route. Hmmm.. will think about it.

Oh yeah... I must try to eat more... i shrinking...

Next is, should i register for the World Harmony Run? 4.8km or try the 30km... if cannot tahan, stop along the way..? Have no confidence running in a group of elite runners.. feel very small like that..

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Every morning....

Got out of bed to see kevin off to work. Kisses on cheeks, cos have not brust teeth yet- and huggs at the doorstep.. "goodbye sayang.." - before leaving.. Looked and smiled at him, and gosh..he looked so good in his dark blue jersey, jeans and his hair is just perfect, plus the glasses.. very cool. He looked different this morning.. Kept telling him that he's looking "handsome leh today" .. his replies as usual, " I am what.." - ceh! Next time, don't want compliment already.. wait head swell! But no-no.. must say.. i must be the 1st to say.. before anyone can. Eh, can see u smiled and blushed a bit leh... happy ah..

Been listening to F.I.R. and got some of the lyrics in pinyin.. best!

Besides movies, i look forward to joining Kev's and his friends for karaoke! Yah.. they all sing chinese song, mostly.. and i am very ok with that.. that's why i need to have the lyrics in pinyin- so that i can sing too! It seems that i want to be part of anything and everything he does and have.. hehehe.. if not then, how? What about me? Anywayz-I think i got the whole collection of the dvd + cd + vcd for FIR's " I wanna fly". They came in different sort of interesting packages. One thing abt chinese cds.. they are all very worth buying.. stylo-milo packed in a box and got a lot of thing to read one.. but too bad i can't read and understand.. hehehe.

Monday, June 06, 2005

monday blues.. forever

never-liked monday.. bet i am not the only one. If it rains on early monday morning, everything goes slow-mo.. and sure to be late, and common case, see doc for mc. Can never be early on mondays -anyway- be it,rain or shine. another thing is if don't get enuf sleep, or had an unsettled misunderstanding the night before.. really add on to the moody monday blues.. don't like to talk too much on mondays.. but in this line of work- nursing- got no choice.

today, 1st day at orthopedic/surgical ward. to be attached for this 2 weeks. got to submit 1 case study. have identified 1 case of patient diagnosed of peptic ulcer disease (PUD). Will start on it soon. Got to submit by next mid-week, i guess.

Got to know a 1st yr 3-yr dip student, a ceylonese. her father is a gurkha. she hates the place where she is staying- all her life,she grew up there. There's curfew for everyone. the gate will close at 11pm. there's no privacy as there are numbers of cctv fixed. Very unfair i feel.


Saw a banner at MR last sunday - WORLD HARMONY RUN, and tempted to take part. Then, TLR, forwarded the link for info. he will be running 30km. i feel like participating. and quess what?!!! it's on a SATURDAY- which means, Kevin can take part too. now.. how to apply ah?

Sunday, June 05, 2005

Reached MR at 0740hr, and hoped to see someone familiar to run with- but don't have. Well, it's ok .. shouldn't complaint- stay home if want to complaint. Anywayz, it felt good to be alone at times- allows me to reflect. But , no point having to think too much about whatever is in this head.. Hai..... actually don't know what to make out of it.... lots of questions going through my mind.. jus don't understand why or what i have done..

No matter what-
i have been there,
i have seen it
there's simply no way and no where to hide..
will continue to do my part..
everything will be alright.. :)