Another week passed and I don't know what have I been doing.. Besides revising for my coming pharmacology and clinical test next week. Have yet to prepare for the ethical and law in nursing presentation this coming Thursday. Got so much to do, too little time. However, thank god that my grp members agreed to split the work and everyone take one tutorial presentation. What a relieve!

At one point, I was not really happy with my grps' working style or say, attitude.. well maybe they also don't like mine.. when I reflect back, maybe I was the only one who has been too sensitive and been the odd one out. I might have caused so much inconvenience to all.. and now at this point, i think i blame everything to myself.

Yes.. at times, i can be very so insensitive and would do or say things on purpose, jus to wake them up and want them to have a good look who and what's around them. Not everyone is as fortunate or clever or what not. But then, who am I to them? But that was in the past...

This semester, I see the different side of every single one of my classmates. I can't tell if i have changed too but i see some changes in all of them and that's wonderful. The class is livelier than before.

As for my subgrp, oh.. think we are numb to one anothers' attitude. Previously, we really can't get along and one of us, quit and joined other subgrp. Somehow, this semester, after the last grp discussion..,it feels so much better .. don't know why.. maybe because everyone is showing interest and seriously putting in effort ,appreciating each other's work. I believe that we can do better and outshine the rest.. all we need now is to strengthen our grp dynamics which we have lost it from day one. And i really want that to happen.

No problem sleeping for the past 2 days. Been feeling so tired after the long day in school. Got a lot of things going on in my mind . Got a lot of reading to do to help with my weekly tutorials and presentations. Tests in 2 weeks time and the written assignment due in 3 weeks'. The coming weeks or so will be very tough for me and as well as for Kev too. His exams starts this late September, i think. As for me, after all the test , will be going for hospital attachment - end Sept for 6weeks, followed by 1 week study break to prepare for the 2nd Sem exam sometime before or during the Hari Raya week. Ahhh head ache.. better start planning my stuff now..

The next thing on my mind is fitness. I have not register for the Singapore Marathon. I want to take part. Don't say training.. i have not been taking the running issue seriously at all. I am definitely, not fit for this. But this morning, I saw a quite a mature male student with a 2004 Marathon T-shirt on. So i was thinking.. if he really ran for it, so can I. But on the other hand, i have something else to consider..running = losing weight. Kev wouldn't like it.

While i was sleeping...

Evernight before turning in, i take 1 or 2 puffs of seretide.. Usually 1 puff is enough to make me sleep comfortably. But lately, my nights have been interrupted, woke up gasping for air. It feels something like when u are holding ur breath in the water till u can't take it, & u have to quickly swim up for air. And, I have to coughout only then, I can breathe again. Breathing is very difficult. Shallow and breathing thro' my mouth. It also feels like as if I have stopped breathing while sleeping. Have I forgotten to breathe while sleeping?

This episodes of breathlessness i have been experiencing it for quite sometime but i dismissed the symptoms as I thought it was jus a typical asthmatic symptoms. Since it has been happening quite frequent now, i am a little bit afaid. See if it recur again tonight.

Or is it because i am tired, too active in the day.. and causes my musles to relax? Nope.. not really.. I have not been that hyperactive as compared to last semester.

Yesterday, I complained to my friends that I felt a deep pain at the lower part of my sternum. And today I felt a sharp pain on the right side of my chest. I do not have breathing problems in school,though i felt a bit sleepy because of the interrupted sleep.

How ah... ? Intended to take my blood pressure this afternoon during my clinical lab session but got no chance to do.

Decided to find out something about sleeping disorders and came across "Sleep Apnea". It says:

"In sleep apnea, your breathing stops or gets very shallow while you are sleeping. Each pause typically lasts 10-20 seconds or more. These pauses can occur 20 to 30 times or more an hour.

The most common type of sleep apnea is obstructive sleep apnea. During sleep, enough air cannot flow into your lungs through your mouth and nose even though you try to breathe. When this happens, the amount of oxygen in your blood may drop. Normal breaths then start again with a loud snort or choking sound.

Your sleep is not restful because:
1-These brief episodes of increased airway resistance (and breathing pauses) occur many times
2-You may have many brief drops in your oxygen levels of the blood.
3-You move out of deep sleep and into light sleep several times during the night, resulting in poor sleep quality.

When your sleep is upset throughout the night, you can be very sleepy during the day. "

Oh yes.. i am always complaining of sleepiness while at school..
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"#1: People with sleep apnea often have loud snoring. However, not everyone who snores has sleep apnea. Some people with sleep apnea don't know they snore.

#2: Sleep apnea happens more often in people who are overweight, but even thin people can have it.

#3: Most people don't know they have sleep apnea. They don't know that they are having problems breathing while they are sleeping.
A family member and/or bed partner may notice the signs of sleep apnea first. "
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- #1: I do not snore
- #2: i am not overweight and i am not thin either.. infact, i have gain a bit of weight.
- #3: No complains from Kev.
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some of the many other features associated with Sleep Apnea are:
Associated features may include:

morning headaches
a dry mouth upon awakening
high blood pressure
irritability
change in personality
depression
heartburn
frequent nocturnal urination (nocturia)
nocturnal snorting, gasping, choking (may wake self up)

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Meantime now.. I just have to monitor my nites daily ..but sometime after waking up the next morning, i cannot remember what happened the night before ~
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Good nite..

Happy B'day, Shiken!

Today is Shiken's birthday. I wish her well and hope that all her wishes come true. Celebrated her b'day last Friday..cos Friday is the only free day for all of us to get together.. Got her a small piece of Cookies and Cream Cake for Gelare and a lunch treat at Magic Wok. We makan, talk and go (me out with kev for movie, Isabel got to go service and Viv had to go home sleep first, then prepare her steamboat for her housewarming ).. that was all we do.. well, of cos got take photo.. but we know that shiken enjoyed this day. Though we didn't get her anything , I made her a b'day card with all our photos in it and we signed our names and pasted some cute-cute stickers- thanks Viv for the stickers!

Eh.. Actually I have already given her an advance b'day present last April.. a 128MB thumb drive.. the day she bought her Acer laptop at Funan. Me now remember..

Lately.. went to see the fireworks like never before.. went to catch it at the Merlion Park first, then for the countdown with my inlaws at a secret park.. not many pple know where it is and so i don't want to say where.. then on N'day at Yishun .. and yesterday at the Esplanade.. a spectacular display! But the Best! was very long time ago about 10 yrs ago. The N'day celebration was held at Marina Promenade. Me and Kev stood right beneath the fireworks display.. and we could smell the smoke and could actually felt the ashes/dust falling from the sky. Simply cannot forget that moment.. it felt special..you know.. I think i might have the picture.. will try to find and scan..  

Also went to the carnival at the Marina South last Saturday, tried that wall climbing thingy but didn't reach the top..no strength and very difficult.. cannot stretch my legs in tight jeans. We have not been to Marina South for so very long time..and the place has changed. I can still remember those times when me and kev, when we were dating.. fly big kite over at the open field. Happy times!

It is not that i don't want to update my blog.. in fact i have it drafted and saved.. it just that by the time i want to post it, it was like too late and very old already.. so forget it la.. anyways..

School's the same..reach school as early as 8am ,spend some quite time alone to do some reading before lesson start at 9 or 10 am. This semester, I am cool.. i gave up being the class leader.. people find me a little bit quiet, less active... not the same CT..and .. some asked why i'm not as cheerful as before.. i jus smiled, i didn't realise that i have changed .. yes a bit quiet..maybe because i was tired..not enuf sleep.. got things in my mind.. maybe..

I have not been running a very long time too! The last long distance i ran was when i recce the running route for the MilkRun which i signed up but didn't turn up cos' i didn't feel well. Will pick up running again when i am ready.. anytime soon..to prepare for the Singapore Marathon. Meantime.. I need to eat more.. i need the energy.