i am not making any new resolution come new year, but it is going to be a start of a new journey for me to practise nursing. not so encouraging now after i got to know of my salary package, which i didn't expect it to be that miserable.

Even though, my student days have come to an end yesterday, i don't feel absolute relieve. Even now.. no feeling at all.... don't have the mood for any celebration... why..?

Added to the above misery .. bad news of our adik who had to re-do her attachment, given the reason that she was not up to it or not ready for it (to perform as staff nurse).. which some of us think that .. it was all bull shit. They are making use of students as free labour, that's what we think. And what nonsense.. they were telling us that ..it's ok to repeat cos it won't affect our future. They think we are small kids.. cannot think one meh..

So how to have that good "last day" kind of feeling?

When kev smsed me that we shall celebrate .. i don't know what are we celebrating ..
only when i got home and he told me that he cleared his maths exam paper which he had no confidence in passing it..
only then, i realised what the celebration is for..

but we didn't go anywhere cos we suddenly fell asleep after the delivery guys for our new fridge and washer, left. in my 10 years of marriage,this is our 4th washing machine. pple use their washer like for life time, don't know why for me, washing machine don't seem to last very long.

We decided to check out the hot spring outside one of the army camps in yishun,along gambas road.. not sure what you call that protected place.

I enjoyed the walk there from our house as it rained on and off.. and we ate old chang kee along the way..

our friend said that there's no need to bring any pail for soaking our feet as there were plenty. Not only pails that we saw, there were at least 3 bath tubs.. and one malay family seen soaking in them.

People say that by soaking our feet into that hot water improves blood circulation, other than that ..don't really know what good it can do to our body. There's a slight pungent smell , and steam coming from the drain.

The water is really hot. Quite thereupeutic actually.. sittingthere, soaking our feet, surrounded by trees.. like so kampung-like..

the sun suddenly decided to come out.. so.., sitting under the hot sun was no difference from sun tanning at Sentosa. Luckily i had my umbrella..

On our way back, saw some old folks walking towards that place..and one came with at least 4 pails to fill them up with the hot water .. to bring home, i guess. Wonder how long can the hot water last?

After that, we decide to go a real thereupeutc full body massage.. so we try one at novena square. Kevin's first full body massage- combo of asian oil and shiatsu, while me jus asian oil massage. I hope it could get rid of my headache.. but no leh.. still headache.

After that.. we had dinner at toa payoh. Fork and Spoon halal food court was recommended since Banquet at Toa payoh has closed down.

And it was fantastic.. finally kev got to eat his beef noodle..

Yesterday's weather was the best for outdoor activity. No sun.. clear blue sky.. cool and refreshing. The trees all look so fresh and green..

i think, it is the best time to go to places like Bird park or the Zoo, where u need to walk a lot under the sun. And also, after the rain... usually most of the birds and other animals will come out from their hiding places for fresh air and play..

just like people... whenever rain.. stay home.. No rain.. go out.. hmmm..

Rain, pls don't add on to her sadness.. pls go away

dear adik

how i wish we could switch places so that u don't hv to deal with the nasty people.
it must have been very tough for u
stressful and demoralising..

knowing that u tried so hard to please others and have been doing what is needed to be done..
i say, u have done a fantastic job.

we hope that there's someone there who sees u and could stand up for u ..
we hope that there's someone there not only watched u but also watching the ones who is being unfair to u..

please, don't let urself feel miserable,
don't show them that u are giving up

When in doubt,
don't be afraid to express
be urself,
have confidence ,
u can do it!

and...if u are troubled,
talk to someone..
u can always come to us
we do not want u to face it alone
we need to hear from u

remember,
we are gonna walk this journey together.. for the next 3yrs....

January planned activities

We were told to take 1mth break with no pay, and so we have limited spending money to enjoy our break. my frens have suggested 2 activities which requires minimal spending and they are excited for it already.. and they are:

Rest and Relax by the beach at Sentosa Island

In touch with Nature at Ubin or Chek Jawa

As for me.. additional activity:

Camping at home... hybernate myself while kev goes for his In-camp training for 3 weeks in January..

Never ending rain...

i want to play in the rain!!!!

No more that Sunday feeling

now i know how it feels like working on shifts.. i don't know what day it is now.. after working throughout the weekend.. i don't know when sunday gonna come again!!!

But it's alright.. since kev works on sundays.. i don't mind but i must have friday or saturday off to spend time with him.. else he will be going to Sentosa by himself.. like last Saturday.. .. while i was working from 1 to 9pm.. he was at Sentosa. That place has become his playground .. our playground.. wah deep inside, I also want to be there too!!

Nevermind la.. too much sun is no good for me..

Anyways i'll be getting fri and sat off this week, which incidentally coincide with Kev's off days... yeah! and we have made plans to watch movie and dinner with kev's family to celebrate Mama's birthday on the Friday.. and most likely again... to our playground on Saturday. And not to forget, to buy x'mas gifts for the ward x'mas gift exchange party on the 26th.

Looking forward to year end.. gonna go for my 3rd ultrarun and hope to do at least 6 laps this time round. And hope that my leg will not give any problem cos, i got to go to Juli's BBQ at her new condo and then for countdown at Sentosa after the run.

And after that... I got 1 mth break with no pay = cannot enjoy... and Kev had to go for ICT for 3 week = home alone.

The rain like i never seen before

the feeling so different.. if only i could upload the personal video kev took of me last nite.

the rain was so super heavy.. we could actually hear the sound of the strong wind,

along the corridor, i stood facing against the wind direction.. spread my arms wide open ..

and i let myself be free.. letting the wind to blow me away............. so happy.. so alive .. like an

idiotic girl .. moving up and down the corridor outside my house unit..

... giggling and laughing away.. like i never see rain before..

" keep on smilling, no matter how much it hurts.."

think that's what she was trying to tell me..


thank you.

wah.. i like this slide.com
so easy to use.. found it from one of my multiply contacts.. and since i am at home doing nothing.. got something new to try ..
but actually got a lot of clothes to fold and iron.. just too lazy right now.

oh yes.. i got my exam results last week and i passed. Don't need to mention about grades la..jus average.
now waiting for kevin's exam results.. hopefully, he clear his math paper

and .. i failed my driving test. it was raining cats and dogs during test time.. could not see anything at all.. why must it rain!! It wasn't raining when i was doing my warm up.. it went smoothly.. but why..why must it rain !!! ?!! Panic seh.. don't know how to use the wiper !! Just my luck!


My next TP test will be in March next yr.. such a long wait.. sian.. but i am going to call up to have it changed to earlier date. The counter girl say that i must call 72hrs before the actual test date for changes and they will allocate one earlier not later than the actual test date. I will resume my driving lesson in January..

Meow... meow..

I created a Slide Show! Check it out!

It's not over..

My first marathon.. & got a good feel of what full marathon is all about... and i want to do it again next year.

started without doing much warming up, which is very bad, i know..

i did what i normally would do..that is, to start slow.. afterall i got a long way to go. But Kev and me decided to pace with 2 guys (wearing blue saucony singlet), steady pacing and quite comfortable. But, not for long, entering Marina Centre, i needed to pee. So Kev continued with his run..

Sure need to pee one! so inconvenient! Everytime like that! the urge is always there in the begining of the run. The first portable toilet, was locked, ran another 150m, then got one ..

Continued running.. at my own pace.. and slowly build up and maintained my speed. My target was : as long as i reach 20km mark in less that 3hrs, i should be doing fine.
I just want to reach the finishing line before 1pm, cos i want to eat lunch!! That was all i aimed for.. well of cos.. i also want the medal and finisher's t shirt!

Caught up with kev somewhere after the 10km mark.. he was complaining of pain.. cramps on calf and thigh muscles. It was the same pain as the one he had when we ran to Orchard the week before. He had to stop to stretch before he could go on furher.. and the cramps were really bad cos he had to stop quite frequently. I ran ahead .. but waited for him at 15km mark, and later on at 21km.

As there were no fixed medical stations along the running route, I was quite worried for him. Hmmm.. and worried for myself too, if i got an asthma attack.. they are no where to be seen. The ambulances a located at road junctions.. and the first aiders were juniors from secondary schools- St. Johns Amb Brigade, standing near at each drink station. I bet they don't have emergency equipment with them. Also, they don't seem to have enough -the need to have item: deep heat rub or spray with them.
Or they don't have it with them at all.. on their small wooden table, I saw a packet of food and a roll of Oreo biscuits on top of it.. wah.. so hungry already that time (almost 4hrs), I asked a member if he could spare one or two pieces of OREO biscuit, but no... the boy said that he couldn't give me cos the biscuits was part of their lunch package.. so sad.. i got no choice but to eat that yucky salty powergel. The rasberry flavour tasted like cough syrup.. yucks! I tried to refrained for eating banana.. but i got no choice, so got to eat to tahan my hunger.. i hate bananas.. thinking of it makes me want to puke..

and yes, i managed to keep up with my target time: 3hrs exactly reached 20km mark. So i thought i jus maintain the same speed. Then it started to rain..

Reunite again at 21km, he tried to run but again he was hit with the cramps. So he told me to go on... so i continued running. We met again after the turning point at the lagoon, at his 25km mark. I was still running till i reached 30km, when i decided to walk and refuel with that yucky powergel.


I thought i could pick myself up to run the next 10km. But it was so difficult, and heavy on the thighs. So i ran a bit, walked a lot. And in the end, i power walk all the way to the end, leaving the rest 300m or so to run in style , cos i just remembered that there'll be photographer waiting... the timing i clocked unofficially was 6:45 hahaha... yahooo!!! .

Now aching all over the lower limbs,but still able to walk and do some housework the next morning. No pain no gain la..uh.. kevin said that he cried and laugh altogether .. suffering from the pain and the way he struggled to run. Truely, we enjoyed this run no matter how long we took, and no regrets at all.

Alhamdullillah., Thank God, nothing extraordinary happened.. no asthma attacks, no major injuries..and the weather was fantastic!

Kevin took MC for 1 day, and I was lucky to have 2 days off from work.