a friend told me that we can't possibly understand how others feel if we are not there to experience it..............and ............ we never thought that we will be paid that miserably and we were being over-worked, with only 1 rest day per week.

and............ it is not that we got to rest on the 7th day after 6 days of hard work.. on bad situations, we struggled 8 days then, scheduled for rest on 9th day.

morning shifts starts at 7. another friend of mine stayed somewhere far in the west.. has to get up as early as 0500hrs i think so that she can reach work by 0645hrs. She didn't usually have to do this.. but because lately, her car which she used to drive to work daily, which she parked at her usual Staff car park, was being clamped. Reason being that she is just a Staff Nurse. Staff Nurses not entitled for a lot. She was told not to drive to work since there's no lots for SNs.. by the security officers.

these are some of the things i hate about my work and workplace
1- unpredictable Off-days
2- miserable pay for the amount of work we do
3- no parking lots for SNs
4- only 2 set of scrubs given.. wear 2-3 times then wash.. where's the infection control..?
5- difficult to take leave

more to list down..

always looking for off days.. or whenever there's opportunity to play ..
but it seems so hard to comeby

work schedule is killing me..
something is not rite with the system..
or really shortage of staff..

can't stop pple from coming to the A&E
but sometimes.. these pple come for no reason
especially on mondays .. my fren told me..
they came...
complaining of chest pain ..
headache..
gastric pain
muscle spasm.. etc

things that are not to be taken lightly..
so .. got themselves admitted to be observed for a day or 2,
then discharge with mc for a couple more days..

already we got shortage of beds and space..

exhausting our resources...

why like that..

whatever we say, they, not related to us.. would listen
but whenever we tell it to our own family member, half of the time, they prefer to listen to others...
why is that so?

it's so difficult to be in this line ..
anything good done.. oh..no comment.. no suprise
but should anything go wrong... there'll be lots of queries.. pple start to talk..
why is that so too?

not getting involved would also mean .. like.. knowing it but ignoring , neglecting..
getting involved .. is the same as .. add-on commitment ..stress..

so how.. want to help but time so limited..

stress... time.. are just excuses..

so how now..

caring for the caregiver..

am getting tired ... too much to handle at work..
am not complaining , not that i am not competent ...
and pls don't tell me about time management...

still new in this line of work .. the past 2 yrs attachments did not exactly
prepare me or any of us for this...
taking on multiple roles at a time... can be very risky..
as everyone chipped in to help one another... it may help or even make things worst

i am lost..
no proper guidance on the work process , jus directions given to me..
jus following instructions .. learn day by day as I moved on...
don't tell me to open up the the work processes to read on it...
cos half of the pcs and cows..(cows on wheels) not functioning..
and no time in my hands to spare for such...

most of the time.. i nurse the papers than the patient..
only see them while serving medicines.. and at the same time do some inspection and PR ..
half of the time.. rushing to do things for each patient
whatever little portion of time i have left are to make calls.. and i hate finding telephone numbers from that one and only black folder.. and i don't know who i am calling for..
and in the end, i have very little or no time to hydrate,
constantly on my feet...
exhausted..
..past few days have not been eating well.. or not eating at all.. jus a bit of curry puff from polar,

one fainted ..
some already taking sick leave

at the end of the day... i take deep breath and stood in the center of the ward,
paused awhile.. relieved.. but i know nothing of what i have done after such hectic day..


staff strength stretched to the limit..
at times, there's a need to call back those on leave or having their off day

off days are precious as we work 6 days week.
so don't expect us to turn on our mobile and being called in

one said.. think for the patient is our priority.. got to care for patient first..
that's where she's wrong..
if only i could say this to her...
" care for the "care-giver"..." and that's us, " so that we can care for others"

with very few of us running the show..
and me .. being new ...
am trying very hard to cope..
doing my best,

hope not to get sick.. and that matters most ..

now.. i am exhausted..