Unexpected..

I screwed up in yesterday's group presentation!!! It was at 10am and the room so bloody cold. I think we are going to get low a C. And why was that?
I was so stiff.. everybody was quite suprised. I didn't sound confident , no eye contact, didn't project my voice.. totally nervous ah.. simply cannot relek ..and the slides did not sync with my speech.... and the next thing on my mind was... sure kena question one! And true enuf!! kena tekan by the lecturer! Ask me a simple question which i did answered, but my sentencing was so bad!! I looked at Christina, and she had her eye brow crumpled and eyes was trying to tell me to speak up... and realised then, how obviously kancong i was. Of all the people in my group, why me?!

Tdy in lecture... also kena tekan! Wah liau.. he thinks i know so much things ah!!! Better be fully equipped in future.. put on my helmet, armour, sword and what not...when attending his lecture and tutorials. Ok set! My new resolution! It's ok if i don't get the answers right ... will be embarassing but i will learn from it. Will start my new resolution next week... this week cannot, busy with an essay, survey and other grp presentations to prepare... after that will hit the books!

I can't sleep

did not do much yesterday and i am still not in bed...
i have to be in school at 8am tdy.
will be having my 1st group presentation at 10am for 15mins only and yet my slides not siew yet.

Kevin on night shift and will get to see him on Wednesday afternoon, unless
i return straight home from school and catch him before he leaves at 7.15pm.

The hse is in a big mess!!!

Thanks to ...

I want to thank the wonderful and supportive family of FD's and Sukaimi's. Thanks for being there and of course, the nice food. :) and not forgetting Md Irfan!!!!

They all joined TLR at almost the ending part. They charged into the pavement , ran ... laughed and cheered for TLR. So... Happy... especially the children.....!!!!

TLR !! THANK U FOR RUNNING TO RAISE FUNDS FOR THE TSUNAMI VICTIMS!

Stayed overnight at East Coast Park last Friday night to support our friend, The Lonely Runner, who has a big heart, to run 24hrs to raise funds for the Tsunami victims. The moneys collected will be given to our S'pore Red Cross Society. To-date, I do not know how much was the donation amount. But there were so many people at East Coast and the DJ has done a good job by announcing the event for the good cause, I hope it reached more than $10k.
The run started at 9pm on Friday,21 Jan. Ran halfway with TLR and the volunteers,stopped to hang the banner. I did the banner in the afternoon and some part of the paint was still wet. By the time we finished hanging it up, he was running back and we, Kevin, Fd, FD's sis and Fatima cheered and followed running behind the group of runners. Me and Kevin ran while the rest cycled.

It was a meaningful event and was happy that quite a number of runners came to run with him. The wonderful people whom I know came to support were Carin, Tahan, Phillip, Pear, Peter, Chris and a couple few people from whom I met at MR Ultra. I also got to know who Chew and Husnah is.

We went home in the morning and return at abt noon. At that time, he was getting ready for his 11th lap. My leg itched to run but I worry abt my right calf. But when I saw there was only 1 guy to accompany him, I decided to run and dragged Kevin along. Then, Chris came along. I did a full 10k and after 12th lap I gave up at 7km. Then, after that a bit here and there. At some point, I shouted and clapped to get the public to cheer for TLR.

I was afraid that I was too slow for the guys so, I ran ahead a bit. I was glad to have ran at least 1 lap. Another man to thank was Peter! He accompanied TLR most of the time, throughout! There was this veteran chinese lady too... she accompanied in the middle of the night for a couple of laps. Carin too. At that moment, Kevin and I was busy bbq-ing. There were a few who came on Friday night, left but returned the following day to run the last lap to finish the run with TLR. They are all so wonderful. I bet some don't even know TLR but was there to support him. Oh yes, we have the other supporter, the JJC students did their part by performing a mass dance. They really keep the event going too.

At the end of the run, loads of people congratulated him for his excellent iob. He finished hisrun abt 15mins to 9pm, with total dist of 150km. Thank u for running that far. Even if he did not run that many laps, it's ok.. It's running 24hrs! Not checking on the no of laps.

Now, what matters most is the amount of funds collected.

Busy week ... and ahead

Registered online for KL- Half Marathon last Sunday. The marathon will be on 06 Mar '05. It's week 10, and I think I have one group assignment to be handed by week 9 and another on week 10. Cialat.. Between week 4 to week 16, practically every week got thing to submit one!

Must start training. Some of my classmates have decided to jog tomorrow. May join them, then after that, go swimming with another group of friends. But before that, must complete the Orem's Model for this Monday's presentation.
Looking forward to this Friday's Run For Help! Emailed to my group mates and one of them, Chay Lee, will be coming on Saturday morning. She said that she goes to East Coast every weekend for her morning run. Superb! Thank u for supporting, Chay Lee!
Nice lady and super fit for her age. Salute to u, sister!

I'm thinking of roller blade -ing besides running ... so that I can accompany TLR most of the hours. And I can't possibly run at his speed. Hmmmm, guess not.. so that's why i want to skate.
So how.... ? Also, since it's 24 hrs, I planned to bring the camping stuff and BBQ food stuff and all. Got to plan.

And...It just came to my mind that Kevin better not run cos he hurt his knees after completing the 10km Swift run last Sunday. Oh no! Then what is he going to do? Then what? No need to go? No way lah... must GO to SUPPORT TLR. Maybe can do some volunteering work. Must check with TLR or Zul and Kevin too.

I want to make a banner.. maybe tomorrow go look for the material & buy black colour spray paint or just paint. The last time I did a banner was for Sembawang Rangers and that was so very long time ago, like more than 8years. Don't know whether I still have the skill to draw and paint. Let's see....

Got to go kitchen now.. cook beef porridge. The food at NYP, not nice. Today I had Egg Mac Muffin for breakfast and one piece of roti prata kosong for lunch. Bought 2 pc but eat one piece only. Simply got no appetite. I'm Hungry now!!!

End of week 2 of yr2005

1st bio lab practical class... very exciting! Learnt what is osmosis and diffusion.

Looking at the reactions on 3 drops of blood after mixing isotonic,hypotonic and hypertonic solution into each drop. Actually, I don't really know how to use the microscope. I couldn't really see clearly.. always has this "black shadows" blocking my view. Then I realised that the black shadowy thingy was my long eye lashes. I placed my eyes too near to the lenses. Silly me!

The following day, i think it was Thursday, Kevin followed me to school and attended my Bio lecture, then he recce the campus on his own while I sat for another 1hr lecture. He seemed to be enjoying himself! Anyway.. very natural and understandable, if u know what i mean.

Thanks to J who volunteered to strip so that Michael, our lecturer and tutor, can show us where the pulse sites are. First time touch other man's body... hehehee. We were told to touch his hands and legs, to feel the parts where it felt warm and cold..,suddenly the class was quiet and there was a short pause...everyone was so shy to come forward, even the other guys didn't want to step up. How to become nurse like that! So, I started off first. But before that, I said to J, " Hi, J.. I am going to touch u.. ok?" and he replied, "ok". It was a bit awkward but I had to ask cos I don't know how he felt. Then, after that we were thought how to use the stethoscope. We all got the chance to to listen to the sound of our friend's stomach and lung. The following day, we learn how to measure weight and height and work out our BMI , and also counting our pulse. I'm 163cm, weigh 53kg, therefore my BMI is 21. My pulse is 106 beats per min. So what does it tell me?

Took Luqman to MR to show him the 10km route, he'll be participating tomorrow~ AGT Swift Run. Thank God, Kevin was with us that day. Actually on that day, he was supposed to have an appointment with TLR to be somewhere else to discuss abt the Tsunami run stuff, but it was cancelled. We started too late and had to walk our way through the "jungle" in the dark. Thank God... Kevin's handphone equipped with a torch light. It was really very dark and eerie.... . The trail seemed endless...

Abt the Tsunami ~ Running for Help... pls visit TLR's blog. Kevin and I will be there to support him and hope that all who know him and those who has read and heard about his run to raise funds for the Tsunami victims ... Come on down to East Coast from 9pm onward on the 21 to 22 Jan,9pm .. bring ur running shoes and $$$.

Go! TLR, Go! We will be running behind u!

And all the best to Kevin, Luqman, Pear and of course, TLR, for tomorrow's 10km A.G.T Swift Northern Route Challenge at MacRitchie.

I want to run.... but better not. But then, again see how ...

This morning, I was introduced to CK by Debb. He's amazing. He used to be a journalist so he reads extensively and he said knowing too much things and having it all up in the head ..also no good. CK and Debb are in the same tutorial class and both in same assignment grp. I think he is so damn good.. cos he and his group has somewhat completed their qrp presentation due on week 4 and now moving into doing grp assignment which are due by week 6. I wouldn't say that they are very "on". They are just very fast in their work. His advise was just go straight to the point and choose the easiest question. And, since it's an accelerated course, there's no time to waste. Agree.

Then in the afternoon, while I was at the library, he was there too. Guess what?! He is planning to start doing the individual essay for psychology which is due on week 16.. OMG!!!!

Do within my limits.

I lost my clinical coursebook last Friday and had to meet up with Deb yesterday to zap a few pages of that book for this coming Monday class. I had a good talk with her and I realised that I envy her sub-group. I had a slight breakdown while relating to her my fear of might not able to cope with my peers. She advised me " ct, just do what u can"

Tutorial Group 2 may look so united but it may not necessary mean that we can work thing together in harmony. Everyone had different past experiences , behavourial style and dynamics. It's too early to identify any one of them just yet. But I think most should already know what kind of person I am. They see me as systematic and organised. Actually, I am not so that organised at all. I just have to be, else everything will fall apart and the group will not be able to function as a team. I believe in teamwork and sharing, "give and take" and understanding one another. As this age and stage, I do not have much time to waste, I want to do things in an efficient way, in a manner where it will not only be beneficial to me but to all in my group too. And definately would like to see results, good effective results. I have played too much throughout all my life and it's time to be serious but of course, still having some fun.

I have learnt from reading this motivational book " Fish ", I have chose the attitude I bring to the workplace, for my case it will be school, and it does work. It makes MY DAY and I hope I make everybody's day too. To PLAY is recommended, that is having fun while at work but still take work seriously! Yes, I am having fun and am taking pride of what I do. Next is to be PRESENT, that is to be in focus, to be present in mind, to listen .. do not multitask and do not take things for granted. Simply be present and this may not be an easy task. There are always noises in my head. A lot of things to think about, never-ending.

I am very excited too get to know how my sub-group work. I am so eager to start on my group assignments. I don't know what's their style of getting things done, how much they want to achieve, what's their expectation and so on...

I think I am thinking to much and it seems that I am going to be the problem. I am going to be called the kiasu one, the very "on" one .. but if i am like that... i shouldn't be spending my time blogging right now.... sigh....

My goodfriend who is basically of the same traits as me.. said to me that I have to learnt to manage my expectations. We used to work together and we were damn good! We are results orientated and we were never tired of thinking of getting ideas and ensure that we produce the best. Our expectations are pretty high..and We were seen as Perfectionist! But, in reality we are not perfectionist at all! Our homes are in a big mess! Our personal stuff were and still are unmanaged! We are strange. We make sure that our husbands had their things arranged in order but ours are like "whatever" . Don't know what to call ourselves.. but basically we realised that we don't mind doing things for others. hmmmm...

So I think my goodfriend has lightened up a bit. And since we are not getting any younger and not as energetic as before, she told me to manage my expectations. Just do what I can. Share the load as best you can. Others may need to learn limits as well. I am not sure of this but I think God also never give us more than what we can handle.

I am not in a smiley mood now.

Role of a Nurse

1. What do u think Nurses do?
2. Do u think tertiary level education is necessary?
3. Do u see nurses as professionals?
4. Do u think the role of the female and male nurse are the same?
5. What would u like to see in a nurse today?
6. Do u see nurses as a bridge to other healthcare professionals?

Very exhausted...

It's only the 3rd day and feeling so exhausted but I'm enjoying it.

So far I am so happy to be in Class Group 2. The youngest is 23 and the oldest.. oops! cannot say the word "old" very sensitive... the very mature student is 38,I heard. And WE got along very well. So far no disputes within sub-groups, unlike in the other ClassGrps, i heard. I even heard that some wish that they could be in Class Group2, that's MY Class! There are at least 20 students in a group. And mine is siew-siew 20. So we have 5students in each sub-group for group work.

Pity the one, I heard,who can't get along in class. Come on lah, darling.. we are going to be together for the next 2yrs, be cool, tolerate a bit and get along. It's plainly the choice of attitude u bring to school and the way u behave towards ur group. Others response to ur attitude, u know. Just think.. you wouldn't want to have a mate with an ugly and unacceptable attitude/ character in ur group, right? And what would your response be? "Buat bodoh sama dia! Tell that fellow to sit one corner"... this was what i heard!

It's only the 3rd day... better start to be nice, say nice things and watch what u say!

All the best to you!

My last day to "shake Leg"

Today will be my last day to do whatever I want before starting school tomorrow. Infact, I don't have anywhere to go except to the bookstores to get some stationeries. I have a list of "to-do" things at home to be done so that I have less housework to do when I start to get busy with school work.

My Things to do List:

• laundry
• iron clothes
• tidy kitchen
• wash toilet
• tidy up the service balcony

But it has been raining non-stop since morning. Was at MR to get the T-shirts for the 16Jan run but not available yet till 10th Jan. Met up with Pear and passed the presents to TLR. They were there with 2 ladies JJ and I-ka and some gentlemen - ang mo's sitting at the cafeteria after their morning runs. Don't need to talk abt the men la...it's the women, and they are not young leh.. yet so active and very very ON! After MR, went to Bugis. Thanks TLR for the lift and Pear Ta-ke, nice talking to you. I will think about talking part in biathalon @ Sentosa if only my swimming improves.

Now I better start doing my chores. But oh, my leg still hurts, too much walking this morning at Bugis, I think. Hmmmm.. so i guess, I better rest first.

My Life in Yr 2004 - Flashback

I don't remember setting any goals or resolution for yr 2004. But I have done things which I don't believe that I can do, like running long distance in the Ultra Marathon. That was something which I can never forget and some say it was the great way to end the year. Started the running fever in April, when Kevin and I participated the JP Morgan-Chase Corporate Challenge. Eversince then, jogged whenever I can. Even during fasting month. Never done that in my entire life. Took every chance to participate in any race there was, like, Terry Fox Run@ Sentosa, Sheares Bridge Run, the New Paper Big Walk and Mizuno Waverun. The Unforgetable one will definately be the MR 25 Ultra Marathon!

Went to 2 concerts in YR 2004, they were Linkin' Park @ the Padang , and Hoobastank @ Sentosa with some good friends. And lately, JiuJian Live @ Esplanade Studio with Kevin's family, aunts & uncles.

Happy Family moments would be seeing both my sis-in-laws , Christine & Serene got married this year.

Didn't travel much in 2004 due to the terrorist unrest everywhere in the world. But we did took a break, went to Laguna Resorts at Redang Island with Kevin's good colleagues in May. In October, I went to Bangkok for a Union Retreat with SingTel/SingPost Union officials.

Unforgetable events shared with friends were going to the Moscow Circus, watching the fireworks from the top of the Clifford Pier Building, a few surprises on my birthday, got ticket to National Stadium for NDP ,trekking from Mac Ritchie to Bt Timah. Also, not forgetting the Midnight Cycling from West to East Coast.

Met up with old secondary school friends and we tend to keep intouch. Still waiting when the Gathering going to be!

I completed my Basic Chinese course . Here, I'm happy to have met a few international friends.

Sad stuff includes :
-Leaving my good friends at SingTel in August,
-My sis losing her sight due to post- operation which she underwent 2yrs ago,
- My dad not well eversince he retired,
- Lost our family cat, Cookie in October.
- My good ex-colleague, Irene is down with cancer.

The worst ever tregedy so close in Asia is the Tsunami Disaster on 26 Dec 2004. It tells me that anything can happen anywhere at anytime without warning! And makes me wonder what would be the best thing to do if we are in such a devastating situation...

Oh yeah... thanks to Bloggers! Meeting up & knowing some good people like Fd and Sukaimi.. Phillip & Pear.

Now 2004 over , I welcome 2005 & set some goals, I hope to achieve:

1- to be one of the better student in Nursing!
2- to run 5km in less than 30mins
3- to run the full Singapore Marathon in less than 5 hrs
4- to run the UltraMarathon again with hopes of doing it at least 6laps.

And last but not least, to be a better person and a good wife to Kevin.