Don't know what to start off with .. after so long have not been logging in.

I will be finishing my course soon.. and by next year this time, i will be a registered nurse, taking the role of staff nurse. I must decide what discipline i want to pursue .. this 3 weeks' attachment, i was assigned to ortho ward.. and i kinda enjoying it.. very interesting.. not too routine as compared to medical ward. Learn a lot in this ward.. thanks to the clinical instructor, J. She's been with the hospital for 13 years and still serving bond.. her speciality- surgical/ortho. She's great.. should have been around during our very first attachment.. J expressed that she never regret being a nurse but slightly disappointed with the management.. well i can understand why.. but everywhere could be the same too.. got to adjust ourselves to the environment since we can't change it.

Exam week starts from next friday and throughout the following week. Started revision already but don't seemed to remember what I have studied. So much to digest.. i hope i can cope with my revision given such limited time.

Kevin's back to do 12hr shift.. and this month- night shift. I am alone again...
Hate coming home to find no one at home. But, of cos.. i got my cats to welcome me..but it's not the same. Kev will return home tomorrow morning, then i will leave for work, then he leaves in the evening.. and we'll see each other again the following morning... feels so miserable.. :(
Just now at 9pm, supposed to sign off from work.. i don't feel the urgency to go home.. I left 15 mins later.. walked slowly.. no rush... send sms to Kev telling him that i'm heading home. Kept checking my mobile for his replies.. but nope.. don't have.. he must be busy..

I hope he does not have to work shift for long..

I can't put myself to sleep.. it's almost 2am now.. the TV was on since the time i stepped into the house.. lights too .. grabbed my laptop from the living room and since then, I did not leave my bedroom ...have not got a sip of drink since i stepped into the house. I am not me at all.. too quiet, didn't open my mouth, except for the long awaited phonecall from Kev at 11pm earlier.. spoke for less than 4mins after that.. my mouth is shut and this could be the reason why i decided to blog my heart out.