my ugly toe

really.. been lazy to pick up that running shoe.. no motivation.
things going slow-mo for myself, well apart from having fun...
for myself.. what do i want to achieve this yr..
well of cos.. i want to pass that paper and get myself out..
day in and day out, no feeling for work..
jus waiting for that day to come..
financial backing.. me and yf lacking .. if only we had that, we long gone liao.
hoping to leave during JCI time.,.. hehehe i think our sisters in green will scream at us!!
but then, u think we give a damn!

ok.. that's our main aim for the year.

now .. about everyday things.. what to do with me?
with kevin set as "Away" 3 out of 7 days.., got to load him with lots of vitamins and supplements so that he will not fall sick easily.
those 3 nites of classes, i wish to work on pm shift.
he's always been busy with work, day and nite.. phone call non-stop.. as times.. interrupts our sleep.. and our eca..
and on top of that, on every other days...
he has to entertain me! me and my friends, family and cats!
my husband wanted by everyone.

think, will go back to running again.. which i have not been doing for some time.
will start after i recover from this sore throat,
i lost my voice on the 3rd day of CNY.. been eating and talking too much..
Hah! more reason to start running... i feel heavy ..

but.. i also got problem with my toe nail. my right 4th toe-nail is coming off. i wanted to pull it out, but painful. Underneath that nail, there's a fresh new nail, soft and feels like flesh. So i decided to leave the outer older nail as it is, and let it come off naturally.
then the left 2nd super long toe of mine, blue black! no feeling. waiting for it to rot! haha.. i know underneath that black toe nail, lies a new nail. this happens all the time. each time i ran for some event, each toe takes its turn to turn blue black. Actually it was bleeding from within, and the nail did not get it's nutrients from the toe.. and it's called hematoma, not necrotic. i kinda get used to it. so ugly. as kev puts it as " fugly" heheehe

aiyah.. i made up my mind liao.. no matter wat
running it shall be.. starting.... i don't know when..