i am not making any new resolution come new year, but it is going to be a start of a new journey for me to practise nursing. not so encouraging now after i got to know of my salary package, which i didn't expect it to be that miserable.

Even though, my student days have come to an end yesterday, i don't feel absolute relieve. Even now.. no feeling at all.... don't have the mood for any celebration... why..?

Added to the above misery .. bad news of our adik who had to re-do her attachment, given the reason that she was not up to it or not ready for it (to perform as staff nurse).. which some of us think that .. it was all bull shit. They are making use of students as free labour, that's what we think. And what nonsense.. they were telling us that ..it's ok to repeat cos it won't affect our future. They think we are small kids.. cannot think one meh..

So how to have that good "last day" kind of feeling?

When kev smsed me that we shall celebrate .. i don't know what are we celebrating ..
only when i got home and he told me that he cleared his maths exam paper which he had no confidence in passing it..
only then, i realised what the celebration is for..

but we didn't go anywhere cos we suddenly fell asleep after the delivery guys for our new fridge and washer, left. in my 10 years of marriage,this is our 4th washing machine. pple use their washer like for life time, don't know why for me, washing machine don't seem to last very long.

We decided to check out the hot spring outside one of the army camps in yishun,along gambas road.. not sure what you call that protected place.

I enjoyed the walk there from our house as it rained on and off.. and we ate old chang kee along the way..

our friend said that there's no need to bring any pail for soaking our feet as there were plenty. Not only pails that we saw, there were at least 3 bath tubs.. and one malay family seen soaking in them.

People say that by soaking our feet into that hot water improves blood circulation, other than that ..don't really know what good it can do to our body. There's a slight pungent smell , and steam coming from the drain.

The water is really hot. Quite thereupeutic actually.. sittingthere, soaking our feet, surrounded by trees.. like so kampung-like..

the sun suddenly decided to come out.. so.., sitting under the hot sun was no difference from sun tanning at Sentosa. Luckily i had my umbrella..

On our way back, saw some old folks walking towards that place..and one came with at least 4 pails to fill them up with the hot water .. to bring home, i guess. Wonder how long can the hot water last?

After that, we decide to go a real thereupeutc full body massage.. so we try one at novena square. Kevin's first full body massage- combo of asian oil and shiatsu, while me jus asian oil massage. I hope it could get rid of my headache.. but no leh.. still headache.

After that.. we had dinner at toa payoh. Fork and Spoon halal food court was recommended since Banquet at Toa payoh has closed down.

And it was fantastic.. finally kev got to eat his beef noodle..

Yesterday's weather was the best for outdoor activity. No sun.. clear blue sky.. cool and refreshing. The trees all look so fresh and green..

i think, it is the best time to go to places like Bird park or the Zoo, where u need to walk a lot under the sun. And also, after the rain... usually most of the birds and other animals will come out from their hiding places for fresh air and play..

just like people... whenever rain.. stay home.. No rain.. go out.. hmmm..

Rain, pls don't add on to her sadness.. pls go away

dear adik

how i wish we could switch places so that u don't hv to deal with the nasty people.
it must have been very tough for u
stressful and demoralising..

knowing that u tried so hard to please others and have been doing what is needed to be done..
i say, u have done a fantastic job.

we hope that there's someone there who sees u and could stand up for u ..
we hope that there's someone there not only watched u but also watching the ones who is being unfair to u..

please, don't let urself feel miserable,
don't show them that u are giving up

When in doubt,
don't be afraid to express
be urself,
have confidence ,
u can do it!

and...if u are troubled,
talk to someone..
u can always come to us
we do not want u to face it alone
we need to hear from u

remember,
we are gonna walk this journey together.. for the next 3yrs....

January planned activities

We were told to take 1mth break with no pay, and so we have limited spending money to enjoy our break. my frens have suggested 2 activities which requires minimal spending and they are excited for it already.. and they are:

Rest and Relax by the beach at Sentosa Island

In touch with Nature at Ubin or Chek Jawa

As for me.. additional activity:

Camping at home... hybernate myself while kev goes for his In-camp training for 3 weeks in January..

Never ending rain...

i want to play in the rain!!!!

No more that Sunday feeling

now i know how it feels like working on shifts.. i don't know what day it is now.. after working throughout the weekend.. i don't know when sunday gonna come again!!!

But it's alright.. since kev works on sundays.. i don't mind but i must have friday or saturday off to spend time with him.. else he will be going to Sentosa by himself.. like last Saturday.. .. while i was working from 1 to 9pm.. he was at Sentosa. That place has become his playground .. our playground.. wah deep inside, I also want to be there too!!

Nevermind la.. too much sun is no good for me..

Anyways i'll be getting fri and sat off this week, which incidentally coincide with Kev's off days... yeah! and we have made plans to watch movie and dinner with kev's family to celebrate Mama's birthday on the Friday.. and most likely again... to our playground on Saturday. And not to forget, to buy x'mas gifts for the ward x'mas gift exchange party on the 26th.

Looking forward to year end.. gonna go for my 3rd ultrarun and hope to do at least 6 laps this time round. And hope that my leg will not give any problem cos, i got to go to Juli's BBQ at her new condo and then for countdown at Sentosa after the run.

And after that... I got 1 mth break with no pay = cannot enjoy... and Kev had to go for ICT for 3 week = home alone.

The rain like i never seen before

the feeling so different.. if only i could upload the personal video kev took of me last nite.

the rain was so super heavy.. we could actually hear the sound of the strong wind,

along the corridor, i stood facing against the wind direction.. spread my arms wide open ..

and i let myself be free.. letting the wind to blow me away............. so happy.. so alive .. like an

idiotic girl .. moving up and down the corridor outside my house unit..

... giggling and laughing away.. like i never see rain before..

" keep on smilling, no matter how much it hurts.."

think that's what she was trying to tell me..


thank you.

wah.. i like this slide.com
so easy to use.. found it from one of my multiply contacts.. and since i am at home doing nothing.. got something new to try ..
but actually got a lot of clothes to fold and iron.. just too lazy right now.

oh yes.. i got my exam results last week and i passed. Don't need to mention about grades la..jus average.
now waiting for kevin's exam results.. hopefully, he clear his math paper

and .. i failed my driving test. it was raining cats and dogs during test time.. could not see anything at all.. why must it rain!! It wasn't raining when i was doing my warm up.. it went smoothly.. but why..why must it rain !!! ?!! Panic seh.. don't know how to use the wiper !! Just my luck!


My next TP test will be in March next yr.. such a long wait.. sian.. but i am going to call up to have it changed to earlier date. The counter girl say that i must call 72hrs before the actual test date for changes and they will allocate one earlier not later than the actual test date. I will resume my driving lesson in January..

Meow... meow..

I created a Slide Show! Check it out!

It's not over..

My first marathon.. & got a good feel of what full marathon is all about... and i want to do it again next year.

started without doing much warming up, which is very bad, i know..

i did what i normally would do..that is, to start slow.. afterall i got a long way to go. But Kev and me decided to pace with 2 guys (wearing blue saucony singlet), steady pacing and quite comfortable. But, not for long, entering Marina Centre, i needed to pee. So Kev continued with his run..

Sure need to pee one! so inconvenient! Everytime like that! the urge is always there in the begining of the run. The first portable toilet, was locked, ran another 150m, then got one ..

Continued running.. at my own pace.. and slowly build up and maintained my speed. My target was : as long as i reach 20km mark in less that 3hrs, i should be doing fine.
I just want to reach the finishing line before 1pm, cos i want to eat lunch!! That was all i aimed for.. well of cos.. i also want the medal and finisher's t shirt!

Caught up with kev somewhere after the 10km mark.. he was complaining of pain.. cramps on calf and thigh muscles. It was the same pain as the one he had when we ran to Orchard the week before. He had to stop to stretch before he could go on furher.. and the cramps were really bad cos he had to stop quite frequently. I ran ahead .. but waited for him at 15km mark, and later on at 21km.

As there were no fixed medical stations along the running route, I was quite worried for him. Hmmm.. and worried for myself too, if i got an asthma attack.. they are no where to be seen. The ambulances a located at road junctions.. and the first aiders were juniors from secondary schools- St. Johns Amb Brigade, standing near at each drink station. I bet they don't have emergency equipment with them. Also, they don't seem to have enough -the need to have item: deep heat rub or spray with them.
Or they don't have it with them at all.. on their small wooden table, I saw a packet of food and a roll of Oreo biscuits on top of it.. wah.. so hungry already that time (almost 4hrs), I asked a member if he could spare one or two pieces of OREO biscuit, but no... the boy said that he couldn't give me cos the biscuits was part of their lunch package.. so sad.. i got no choice but to eat that yucky salty powergel. The rasberry flavour tasted like cough syrup.. yucks! I tried to refrained for eating banana.. but i got no choice, so got to eat to tahan my hunger.. i hate bananas.. thinking of it makes me want to puke..

and yes, i managed to keep up with my target time: 3hrs exactly reached 20km mark. So i thought i jus maintain the same speed. Then it started to rain..

Reunite again at 21km, he tried to run but again he was hit with the cramps. So he told me to go on... so i continued running. We met again after the turning point at the lagoon, at his 25km mark. I was still running till i reached 30km, when i decided to walk and refuel with that yucky powergel.


I thought i could pick myself up to run the next 10km. But it was so difficult, and heavy on the thighs. So i ran a bit, walked a lot. And in the end, i power walk all the way to the end, leaving the rest 300m or so to run in style , cos i just remembered that there'll be photographer waiting... the timing i clocked unofficially was 6:45 hahaha... yahooo!!! .

Now aching all over the lower limbs,but still able to walk and do some housework the next morning. No pain no gain la..uh.. kevin said that he cried and laugh altogether .. suffering from the pain and the way he struggled to run. Truely, we enjoyed this run no matter how long we took, and no regrets at all.

Alhamdullillah., Thank God, nothing extraordinary happened.. no asthma attacks, no major injuries..and the weather was fantastic!

Kevin took MC for 1 day, and I was lucky to have 2 days off from work.

it's not too late to run..

We really got no disciiplne.. we really cannot manage our time.. too busy with other matters, that we couldn't even make time to pick up our running shoes to train or a least go for a jog .. to prepare for this Sunday's full marathon.

So, last week.. i decided that we better start seasoning our legs and heart..


About 0630hr, last saturday morning, we ran from home to Orchard. We reached Far East about 9am. Along the way, we stopped to get drinks at a Mobil Station located after Caldecott. I do not want to exert so much, so i ran very slowly and kev followed my pace. Maybe it was because the pace for him was too slow plus we cool down too long at that bus stop to hydrate and eat.. kev suffered painful muscle cramps on his right calf. Luckily i brought the muscle rub and paracetamol.. it really help to ease the pain and we were able to walk to Suntec to collect our Maration race pack.

The race pack collection was no fuss at all. Very organised.

After that, we went to Orchard Cinema- watch Andy Lau movie- Battle of the Wits... i think that's the title.. cannot remember.. i slept at the beginning, too tired.. and the movie .. a lot of talking.. but i managed to catch up from the mid-part of it till the end. Good movie.. i like it.

We reached back home at about 6:30pm that evening.. Wow.. we were out for 12 hrs.

Running

This morning, went to MacRitchie. A lot of pple- MR25 doing their progressive runs and Nike Runaholics.. something like that..

after 6km mark, i started to walk.. and jog .. by then it's 9am. started running at 815am. Wow cialat.. i took so long. Hv not been running ever since the AHM.

Anyway.. whether i exert myself or not, try to do it slowly cos later afternoon i am going to run with kev from marsiling mrt back home.., i am still too slow..
Another part of me was telling me since i didn't bring my inhaler, don't
exert too much , take my time..(bad experience from AHM).
how am i gonna make it for the full marathon in less than 1 mths' time!!!

Next Saturday, will be going to MacRitchie with some school friends. See how it goes.. hopefully i can keep up with them.

Exams over but that's not the end...

Will be at the hospitals till end of this year. 2 weeks attached to Geron ward, then PRCP at surgical ward for 4 to 5 weeks then, finally Emergency the last 1 or 2 weeks. By then, it's the end of the year.

Reflection time. The papers were not too difficult but didn't prepare well for it. Though i am not expecting any B's, just a pass..will be jus good enough. But i realized that i really need to buck up in some areas.. some procedures . Need to read more .. Need to know more things..need to widen my general knowledge.. etc

When in the hospital, got to be confident. and stay confident! Don't be intimidated by pple around me. Sometimes, i can't perform when pple are looking at me when i am doing some procedure. I have to get over this, and get to a stage where i should be able to perrform any task naturally.

Next, i must not panic. Must remember to sound Juliana's alarm " do not panic! do not panic". Take a step back, analyse and do it step by step. Must tell myself to stay calm. When in doubt, ask and learn from it.

Hari Raya Aidilfitri - Day 1

Almost everyone present, including my in-laws, at my mum's on first day of Hari Raya. In this picture, the one the like best was one took with my little nephew Idris resting on mum's bed. He is so adorable when it comes to taking photos. Here are more of his other photo previously taken with my ex-motorola and o2 mini.

Got a new handphone tdy and kev also got his w850i.. finally..:) He got the white colour cos the salesman said the black not nice and they also don't have stock. As for me.. i got this cool pink Z610... so pompuan... eeee.. but i like..........

So far.. let me see... hmmm... i have tried quite a few handphones already.. Our first was NOKIA 6110, and the rest as as follows








But so far.. the best has got to be O2 mini... i still like
that pocket pc. Traded-in for $480 to buy V3i.
V31 .. nice only but function no good at all.

My 2nd best would be Nokia 6230... best!!
sold cheap-cheap to a classmate .. to get the O2.

Now.. let's see if my new SE Z610 can fight N6230..

My classmates ND04/06 with Mrs Theresa Cheong.  

Exams on Hari Raya week....

Ha! Exams in a month time.. what i hate most is studying during fasting mth.. ! how to study?!? It jus makes me sleepy plus, with the hopsital attachments.. too tiring to open book..

But it's ok la... not the first time.

Today will be the 3rd day at A&E. Was assigned at the Observation Room for the past 2 days, and me and Shiken will be at the Triage.. should be interesting.. where we will get to interview walk-in patients to the A&E. According to what i was taught, we have to do the assessments and interviewing in 5 mins, then decide on priotization- Emergency, Urgent and Non-Urgent. Let's see how it goes today.

I kinda like A&E, but was told that the dept may not consider Accelerated students.. why ah? Some say we lack skills.. but funny thing is they recruit fresh 3yr dip. So what's the diff? But now.. i really don't give a damn anymore to where the HR wants to deploy us.. like it or not, we will be there for 3 years. If I can, I would like to work at CDC, A&E or Rehab. Fat hope or no hope...? Anywayz,work is still work.. stress will always be here to stay.. So, i have so-called trained my mind to tell myself to make good use of my time, be resourceful and learn as much, though i may not gain much experience in different discipline.

Ok.. now serious business first.. after saur this morning, i had all my notes sorted out to start revising for exam. As to when to start..got to see mood.. but most likely this sunday. Will have to fight for seats at Woodlands Library..so will have to join all those kiasu-s Q right infront of the entrance gate. Oh.. this reminds me of the Q at John Little Rush Sales at Sommerset, last Sunday morning. I was there early, well like 10mins early.. but i didn't expect that there would be any queue cos there was nothing to fight for.. the dept store is big and their stocks are plenty.... I can understand if there's any sale of items going at $1 but there isn't any.. REally don't understand these pple.. why can't they jus enjoy the sunday morning walking by the beach or something like that.. or take beauty sleep...

ok now i got to take a short nap, got to get up by 1030am- get ready for work.

Posting starts next week.. 1st stop: A&E

Need to send my nursing uniform of some minor adjustments... need to loosen it.. hehe, put on abit of weight lately.. but i didn't eat a lot leh.. nevermind .. a bit of fat is good. If i fall, i got body fat to protect my bones from breaking.. and anyway, i am no longer that young.. Classmates have been calling me "Geron" (elderly in medical term).

I can't wait to get back into the hospital.. 1st stop for 1 week will be A&E dept. I love places where is action! A place where u think fast and act.. cannot wait .. no time to analyse.. must have commonsense ( which i may or may not have) but most importantly.. " hello hello ... are u ok!" i hope when i am faced with real situation, i don't freak out, stood there do nothing.. freeze.. and whatnot... hmmm, guess i have to do a lot of revision on... drugs, stitches, defib.. before i step into that dept. Maybe i should work out an action plan for each common senarios eg: puncture wound, poisoning, burns...
But come to think of it.. where got time?
Next Monday.. starts ..
Today as in Now! i am struggling to complete nursing project essay due this Friday. But i aimed to finish it by tdy! Tmr the only school day left - so i want to submit it.. Thursday go to lecturer's house gathering .. friday .. activity day, visit parents and do some marketing to prepare for fasting...

This is the final hospital posting till end of yr. Next yr starts fresh after 2 weeks break .. of becoming a full- fledged nurse!

ok now.. back to writting my essay...

Running : Mizuno and RealRun '06

Mizuno WaveRun 2006
The route was jus as bad as 2 yrs back when i ran 10km for the
very first time. In '04, I took 1 and half hour but this year,
I finished at 1 hr 13min ++. My classmates did better.
HK and KK finished around 50 mins ++, not too sure but
they were good!


New Balance Real Run 2006
My first 6km road, 2.4km beach and 1.6km trail run.
It was very tough to run on beach and I ended up walking
most the time along the 3 beaches. Completed in about
1hr 20mins. KK finished at 1hr 10min and HK finished before 1hr.

She's so sweet!

 

Every Friday is Kevin's off day, and together with my girlfriends, we planned ahead what to do on Fridays. But so far, only 2 or 3 times, we managed to get together to play and most of the time, it's swimming. First it was at Safra Country Club, then Jurong Swimming Complex and the best was last friday's trip to Sentosa.

Since it was the school's weeks' break, "S" brought her 3 younger girl cousins. The 3 are sisters and they are so cute and we love, especially, Little Yaya. She is a brave 3yrs old. She's simply a girl any parent would love to have- didn't cry , no complaints , plays on her own and best of all, she is not afraid of water!

Everyone had fun on that day. Kev bought a big float and the tiny arm float thingy for little Yaya.. She is simply so adorable.. just look at the photo and u know what i mean :) 

I shall not dwell on it again...

The last time, we had a class gathering was ending of last semester, and i was not exactly totally involved in the committee as i was not able to attend any meeting because of clashed time-table with the meetings.

Majority of my classmates did not turn up, simply because most of us are not interest, had other personal plans, or just chose not to mingle with other class groups. And because of the poor head counts from my class, my leader and i, was "bluntly blamed" for not effectively organising the group to come. Was it totally my fault?

As the person said " i bluntly blamed siti and W", her face turned red and her words were shaken. Everyone else was shocked to hear and see her acted in that manner. She also mentioned about offering apology.

On the other hand, she didn't know what was happening and how difficult i have to apologise to our mentor, on behalf of my group. And there she went, blaming me!
Eh.. after u have realised that i was not at fault after i gave the class an explanation and well accepted by all, where's the apology for bluntly blaming me openly in class?

Last thursday, i was picked to get things organised for a farewell gathering to be held on the last day of this final semester, together with another classmate,J.

I wanted to say this in class, " i think i am not fit to be the one to organise the gathering.. cos do not want to be bluntly blamed again if i fail to get pple to come."

In other words, let the one who had bluntly blamed me, be the one to organise the gathering, since she thinks that she can do the job better or more efficiently... At that momont, i just felt like wanting to get even with her for the last time! hahaha .really.. sincerely, i wanted to do that..but my i got no heart to do so la...don't want to ruin the good thursday morning... nevermind la.. let her win..Make her happy .. no sweat, small matter.. let it go...

i thought u know who i am

dear friend,

How can i make u understand that at times i do certain thing for a reason. My behaviour or action may not be acceptable to others but i did not expect it coming from you too. Thought u know me so well to understand why i choose to be caught in such a situation. I bear no grudges against you but if u feel that u want to keep your distance to reflect, i respect your decision.. But the time u took to reflect has passed over due till we no longer speak and mingle like before.

And i am still not sure by what u mean by me not being sincere to others? If i wasn't as sincere as you thought i should be, i would not be the first to confront you. You have seen me do "insincere" things or things which I hate to do, but my actions, be it good or bad.. It has always been for the best interest of others, or a win-win situation. But if you view it differently, then I have nothing to say. Guess, I do not know you well enough too.

Now, whenever I do or say things, no matter how sincere I want it to be, it no longer matter to you. My sincerity is being questioned.

Knowing and being close to you has never been a mistake though, because i know that i can get along well working with you. To me, what has happened here are mere misunderstanding. I had said my apology and now I don't know what to do.

Yours sincerely..

This afternoon, went to collect MILK Run goodie pack and my number tag is 10071. I thought it's $15 i had to pay for instead of $20. I should not complaint la hor.. since it's for charity fund- "to keep the kids in school and out of trouble!" .. make sure ah!

Yesterday, i accompanied kev's mum and granny to KKH for granny's hearing checkup. As usual, waited almost 1hr before we were called into the dr's room. So meantime, did nothing but read newpapers and observed how stupid some parents can be when handling their babies and toddlers..

And so, granny's name was called and 3 of us went in. Spending like 10 secs standing in front of the doc, he like never noticed me! He kept talking ..on and on. in mandarin to my inlaws.. i actually called him.. "hi doctor.. so what ..is all about?" But he chose to ignored me! OMG.. it was like deja vu.. didn't believe that it was happening again. He might have thought that i am their maid!

Then suddenly, all got up and ready to leave the room.. before the nurse asst shut the door, i turned around and told her that, i would appreciate if the doc can talk to me.. cos i need to know what's happening or what not.. pertaining to my granny's hearing problem.. and i am no one else, but their in-law! Do u think i was their maid! She was shocked and apologised.


Think i really look like a filipina maid.. especially right now that i am very tanned after swimming and sun bathing at sentosa last weekend.. and whatmore, i dressed very casually, t-shirt and jeans.. carrying extra bags for my in-laws..very like maid like that.

Long time ago, i was already been mistaken for being a maid, and i actually didn't really mind cos, those people like sales persons, taxi drivers, aunties .. did not ignore me.. however, this time round, i am totally pissed by how professionals .. nurses, doctor and bank officers, didn't even care to acknowledge me, they were like looked down on me.. or should i say .. foreign maids..

this morning went to settle some banking stuff with my in-laws.. but somethings wasn't right so we had to approach the officer for some clarification. Since i am like representing my in-law, i spoke to the officer on their behalf la .. but what did i get from the officer... she didn't entertain me..!

The officer may have thought that i was their filipino maid! Ok, never mind that.. i understood what she said in mandarin and i further reinforced what she had mentioned so that it would not be misunderstood.. and each time she mentioned something to my in law, i paraphrased it.. . yet she did not acknowledge me by looking at me.. there wasn't any eye contact to me and not to mention a return smile with a "you're welcome" after i thanked her with a smile. First i said "thank you", she ignored me.. then just before we left, i turned back and said "thanks" .. jus to test her again ,to see if she return me with,at least a smile ... But hell NO!.. what is this...? this polite "filipino maid" was showing some appreciation though not whole-heartedly after how she excluded me.. but where's the courtesy..? Racist or what! I am only human!!! I got "huiling" (feeling) leh...

Dear lady bank officer, I know i am not the account holder to query and u can speak whatever language u want to.. but don't u know that some pple can speak and understand the language. If it is so confidential, then tell me to get out of that counter.. but no, i was sitting right in front of u, i spoke to u, u looked at me from the corner of ur eyes ..u just do not acknowledge me.. it felt as if i wasn't there! u are damn rude, sister. I may be sensitive..but sure felt that i was not important there. And.. didn't it occur to u that i have a account in yr bank and that i am ur customer too..leh...

play , eat ... sleep!

Me and friends into playing ping pong.. thanks to the people at IMH who make all us to pick up ping pong or what u called the table tennis. If there's nothing better to do but only table tennis... the patients can become very good players.. it reminds me of Forest Gump. Play whole day.. no one to play with.. can still keep on playing against the wall!

Ping pong came into my life when me and kev were having vacation at Bintan Lagoon many years back about +/-5yrs?? We were there during the monsoon season i guess, and it was raining practically every single day~ very heavy rain with strong wind, thinking back it was like tsunami like that.. cos coconut trees went slanted and the giant umbrellas where blown away...

Luckily the resort had some indoor games.. like arcade gaming, snooker and table tennis. So all we did for that 3 days 3 nights was playing table tennis.. At that time, pool or snooker was not a trend yet for both of us. Don't really know how to hold the stick at all, very awkward for me..don't know how to hold long stick to hit small balls .. So table tennis was our only entertainment and we got hooked on it.. Got back home, bought ourselves a set of bats and played for sometime at SRC.

Pingpong is nothing new for kev..Nong nong time ago..he played almost everyday (during his poly years, before i knew him.. ).. but at that time, the movie, Forest Gump, not out yet..

Last Friday... after jogging at MacRitchie with Kev, we joined some friends for pingpong.. Kev said my pingpong skill has improved! Oh..that one must thank the people at IMH..! Kev showed me some tricks too.. while my friends left to play badminton.

And Saturday, we were at Sentosa with his frens.. another fun day under the sun.. but it rained right after we left the beach. Is Coffee Bean food halal? But we ate the salmon stuff.. i see many of their food chains, employ malays as team managers and staff.. so it make me wonder .. Wah.. so tired after out playing whole day.. slept very shiok that night.. best!

Sunday morning.. at my mum's place.. eat! Return home at 3pm.. slept the whole afternoon, got up met up with Kev at CWP.. to eat!


Today, supposed to go play ping pong.. but i got things to do.. Right now, they are all in school to play play play- Gym, ping pong then, badminton, then go eat, eat,eat!

Tonight got driving .. assessment time!

End of hospital posting for Sem 3

The best part of this semester's posting..will the 2 weeks at Institute of Mental Health. It felts similar like the time when i was attached at the Children KK hospital, i felt pity for the unfortunate babies/children where if possible, i would like to bring them home and care for them.. likewise, i felt the same for some of theses mentally illed patients, whom i think some of them may not be mentally ill at all, they have insight of what's happening to them.. It could be due to stress and lack of family support and for some other reasons, bad life experience.. made them to be in such a state.. in the end, some of them were rejected by their very own family members.. & with no savings, no relatives who wants to reach out to help them, and insufficient medisave money.. they got no where to go.. some were on waiting list to be placed at halfway homes/ rehabs. If I have a very big house with garden or what not, i will employ one or two to be my gardener or do my housework.

For those who have home to go back to, not sure how they pass they time. During my stay there, noticed that some came back to IMH, either they re-admit themselves, or just loiter around the hospital. Can't blame them for doing so, as they had no where to go. It's difficult to getback and blend with the society.. so sad.. Maybe, the hospital should make a "club" for them to hang out.. Once they got themselves admitted, problems solved.. there's free food, shelter and lonely no more. And best of all, high chances, they get to meet up with some familiar faces in the same ward. It's like bonding time!

At first i was so afraid of every one of them.. they all looked like crooks .. but as days gone by, i got to know and understand each of them better... I see them as a person, not one with an illness... Well of cos, some of them, i need to be careful in case of sudden behavioural outburst as they can be very violent too. We were told not to be a hero.. save ourselves first.. run away and inform the nurse, should anything about to occur.

Really miss some of them jus like how i missed those poor newborns at KKH. HOpe they are all safe and well cared for.

Driving made fun...

Right now.. i'm at stage 3. i'm done with the s-course, vertical parking, up the ramp, U-turn .. and tomorrow it will be parrallel parking.. very exciting..! Booked my pracs for the whole of this week, daily and next week too, and should be able to complete all practical lessons by next week.. and after that, will be going through all the test routes. No repeated practical lesson.. i progress from one lesson/subject to another.. total number of practical days i gone through to-date: 16 (completed 24lessons/subjects). I am left with 3 lessons/subject for stage 3. Basically i will be done by then.. Finally, stage 4 are left for test routes assessments.

My only problem now is that I have not cleared my Final Theory Test.
Done trial test last Sunday, scored 47/50.. phew! never attended a single theory class which Kev already paid for me for the package.. So relieved..I immediately register for the FTT. The earliest test date is on the 11 Jul at 1630hrs. I have not gotten my next semester's time table.. if there's a lesson on that same date and time.. i'm afraid that i have to "ponteng" (skip) class for this very important theory test.. I got a feeling that i am going to "sangkut" (stuck) on the theory.. oh pls no! This one i Die-Die must pass!

So far, I am very happy with all the driving instructors.. among all, CAR #75,80, 86 ..best of the best! If i want relaxing, cool driving and talk only when necessary - choose #86, if i need constant reminders and hints on driving test routes, rules and regulations.. choose #75, but if i want mixed of what i need from 86 and 75, i will go for 80!

Yep.. I did thought of having a fixed instructor.. but then, it might get a bit boring too.. every time see the same person. i have not encountered any nasty instructor and so far, they gave me good impression.. i feel safe on the road.. I don't feel stressed at all..Maybe cos it's auto car .. easier than manual.. feel at ease while driving and able to chit-chat somemore. Instructions were made clear and simple.. and above all, patience they have.. All of them have made my driving fun.

After doing some challenging task like directional change and parking.. how i wish i could just stepped out of the car each time i complete the task successfully.. to jump for joy! But I can't do that ya.. so in the car...all i did was clapped my hands.. "yeah!" .. BIG Smile! Thumbs Up..

My excited mood will not end till i get to tell Kevin how my driving practical for that day went.. Thank you .. i am enjouying it and u are loveD.. hehe

one of my classmate who is a couple of yrs senior than me, said that he was admitted for GI bleeding sometime during the exam week .. all becos of drinking too much coffee.

better cut down on drinking coffee.. but no coffee no shiok leh...

Tomorrow, i am going for my 2nd driving lesson.. so looking forward to it. On my first day, Kevin accompanied me to the driving centre and he helped me find the car. He waited till the instructor came.

It was like my first day at kindergarten. My hands were cold and I actually cried when walking towards the carpark to get to the car. I wish Kevin could sit in the car with me. I didn't want to be alone with the instructor. I was afraid that i would do stupid things that would make the instructor angry. Afraid that i would be labelled as one.. and it would jus be a bad experience for me and would not want to come again...

Kevin kept telling me not to worry... it's simple and easy.. and my friends also said the same thing.. somemore can say "close eyes also can drive.. "

in the end, it was fun.. I learn how to turn.. and drove round and round, make sure i keep to my lane.. ah .. easy la.. no problem.. feels like Initial D liao.. drive round and round non-stop. Well of cos la.. easy.. I chose to learn to drive Automatic car!

Won't be having anything special after driving lesson since Kevin will be having his evening class. But, he had it all planned out, to celebrate this Saturday evening.

Let's jus see where my feet will take me ............

Thank u for the Cheeze Cake

Good friends, Isabel and Shiken, planned an advance birthday lunch treat at Magic Wok this afternoon before work. Thank you, thank u.. very touched... and the Starbuck's cheese cake (forgotten the name.. it has blueberries on top) Very yummy!

The first thing when we met .. there was this sigh of relieve...especially the look on Shiken's face.. foohyuuh... let's eat and be merry...! We did some reflection.. and i finally told them why i was unable to join any one of them to study during the study/exam week.. Yes, it was tough though but.. do u remember, we did discussed exam topics over the phone on the night before the exam, and telling each other how much more topics had not been covered and having to fall sick during that period..been slacking and what not. After knowing how much u guys suffer too, I believed that i was not that worst off la..it somehow gave me some kind of comfort that i was not all alone, struggling for the exam..and i thank both of u for that.

I made it through Sem 3.. ,

didn't take that short nap.. watched tv to pass the time and finally.. i got my results.

the subject i feared of failing, behavior modification + abnornal psychology , it turned out to be a D. Phew! The rest was average. What's not expected was Mental Health, which i did not expect it to turn out to be a B. And as for Bio, got a B. Very happy with the results.. Alhamdullillah.

this semester's paper, although tips were generously given , with the marking standards increased.. personally i would say that it's quite a challenge, for I actually did not spent that much time studying as compared to those times i used to prepare for past exams.

Well..., if not for the tips, i may not have done this well too. I may have flopped. So here, i thank my tutors for that and of cos, thank god for keeping me healthy and focused. i thank my friends for being there for me in times when i need to let go my frustrations and all.. and thanks to all those who sms-ed me " good luck" on every morning before i sat for my exams. Thanks for all the blessings.

to "A"- u deserve that grade for Reseach Method.. u are the key person who did all that presentations.. and i want to thank u for that. I am glad that our group had sort out of differences and understood each other so well.. i don't see any problem in our coming projects for next semester. We can prove to all that we are not the losing team. We can make it one.. jus wait and see! The return for Grp 2. Muahahaha!

to my study partner, L : thank u for the company. we know when to eat, talk and study and we helped each other alot in many ways .... we shall keep it that way.. and let JE library be our fix study hangout.. thanks for everything.. u are a great study companion.

to "J" .. i think i nag alot and u treated me like big sister but .. actually i feel old.. But it's ok bro... so long as i did my part to help u along during the exams.

Congratulations to all my friends..!

and to "C" : There's no regrets or watsoever,.. we are glad to be of help to you, in getting about ur daily activities.. we may not be that professional (thank u for having trust in us), but we definitely learn something here. We are able to keep our minds focused and having no signs of stress what-so-ever, able to cope and juggle 2 very important tasks together at the same time.

This semester has something for me to remember always. Peace!

Exam results

Sem 3 exams results will be released by midnight later.. Everyone is so excited about it. A few days ago, i smsed theresa to know if any one has to sit for supp paper. And her reply was "Yes". Oh dear.. i think i am one of the few. I hate MCQs.. and the paper which i have no confidence at all is the combined paper for Abnormal Psychology and Behaviour Modification. Though i started revising far too early for these two subjucts, I did not feel good about the paper. There were rumours that everyone cleared Bioscience and Mental Health. Med Surg sure everyone pass one.. So what is left unsure is Psychology. So confirm... I sure fail one, and so i thought..

However, this afternoon, A smsed to say that there's no supp for psycho but, instead it's Bio! Cannot be ba...! If, this is really true.. then i can relax liao.

Tried my luck logged in to the student e-services .. to view results.
Instead, supplementary paper subjects and time-table was already out.. and so it's confirmed.. Bio supp... which means i may have passed my psycho, unless there's some changes.. and alter later.. I hope not.. please.. NO supp of me and all my friends.

I am tired and sleepy... though i didn't do anything much today except for the short run fr fullerton to stadium, jogging with the BIg Walkers.. and after that.. an afternoon eca . Wow.. ok.. a lot of energy used liao.. ZZzzzzzzzzzzZzzz

Can Make it One!

 



Preparation for the coming is ongoing so-so... started too early till the mood to study gone liao... Somemore, me and L, agreed to undertake a project to "baby sit" someone who "cannot make it"... hehehe... No stress.. very glad to help out . Kept saying that he is disabled ... Me and L, believe that "this- able" someone "can make it"! Cia yo.. Speedy Recovery ... !!

New thing to me but not to others i guess ...Japanese Animae- "Bleach"!! Me and Kev was at one the comic cum gaming shop at AMK, and saw this animae.. i told him about it.. and guess what.. hahahaha... he had it all in just 2 nights.. Wah..my sayang .. can make it one!!!

I am going to watch it right after Exams! I have seen the intro, part 1, 2 and I'm loving it already... especially the songs... "so motivating.."

Last night Kev can't sleep.. but i was damn tired..my eyes cannot open.. too tired from reading my bio notes.. and hahaha.. for the very first time, i talk in my sleep. It used to be him but this time round it's me.. And he can entertained me somemore.. by asking questions but by that time, i was half conscious.. hehe. In my sleep, Kev said that i mentioned something about preparing a report. What report i wonder... hmmm.. had it got to do with hospital/ ward reports?

Was studying at JE library since 10 am till 7pm tdy, supposed to study till 8, but Kev decided to go out after doing his assignment! Yeah.. i am going out.. very happy!! What else ...midnight movie at our fav, Orchard Cineleisure.. 

 

That's J , my clinical instructor.. she's a natural. All of us really like her. She made our stay at the ward meaningful. Thank you.. We can never forget u... U are the Best!

Don't know what to start off with .. after so long have not been logging in.

I will be finishing my course soon.. and by next year this time, i will be a registered nurse, taking the role of staff nurse. I must decide what discipline i want to pursue .. this 3 weeks' attachment, i was assigned to ortho ward.. and i kinda enjoying it.. very interesting.. not too routine as compared to medical ward. Learn a lot in this ward.. thanks to the clinical instructor, J. She's been with the hospital for 13 years and still serving bond.. her speciality- surgical/ortho. She's great.. should have been around during our very first attachment.. J expressed that she never regret being a nurse but slightly disappointed with the management.. well i can understand why.. but everywhere could be the same too.. got to adjust ourselves to the environment since we can't change it.

Exam week starts from next friday and throughout the following week. Started revision already but don't seemed to remember what I have studied. So much to digest.. i hope i can cope with my revision given such limited time.

Kevin's back to do 12hr shift.. and this month- night shift. I am alone again...
Hate coming home to find no one at home. But, of cos.. i got my cats to welcome me..but it's not the same. Kev will return home tomorrow morning, then i will leave for work, then he leaves in the evening.. and we'll see each other again the following morning... feels so miserable.. :(
Just now at 9pm, supposed to sign off from work.. i don't feel the urgency to go home.. I left 15 mins later.. walked slowly.. no rush... send sms to Kev telling him that i'm heading home. Kept checking my mobile for his replies.. but nope.. don't have.. he must be busy..

I hope he does not have to work shift for long..

I can't put myself to sleep.. it's almost 2am now.. the TV was on since the time i stepped into the house.. lights too .. grabbed my laptop from the living room and since then, I did not leave my bedroom ...have not got a sip of drink since i stepped into the house. I am not me at all.. too quiet, didn't open my mouth, except for the long awaited phonecall from Kev at 11pm earlier.. spoke for less than 4mins after that.. my mouth is shut and this could be the reason why i decided to blog my heart out.