results..

supposed to get the test results today, but the website doesn't seemed to be working. no emails too. so, jus have to wait for the results in my letter-box. whatever the result be, it doesn't matter anymore. pass or fail.. i still have to sit for similar but slightly tougher paper next month.

i really want this .. i do not want to waste much time... age is catching up..
thankful to have one good friend who is doing this with me...
glad to have met her.. never knew that we'd be best friends... (i think we are best friends now, are we?)

and knowing kev is and has always been by my side, loving me and caring for me.. given me all the attention i always wanted.. all the time..all these while..
i really want to make him happy .. very happy +++ ...
i have to make this happen.. just for us.
got to build back what i have destroyed..
the love, the happiness, the sunshine, the joy, the laughters...
God, pls help me achieve this.

i must say that i am still very sad, i regret,
there wouldn't be a second chance.. but u given me
.. the tears have not run dry.. and will never run dry for me..
it will never end..
and if i can't make things as good as before
as fun as before
as beautiful as before
.. then i see the end of me..

Island Getaway: Part 1

Drove up to Changi Village one sunday morning with none other than my one and only girlfriend, who loves the sun, the sea and the sand, Yf.

The day before that, we sat for the "test" , but only to find out, sadly that we had registered and therefore sat for the wrong paper! It was the most expensive mistake we made. How can we be so careless?!!! How to "make it" like this?? There was nothing we can do now, but only to pay $$$ again for the next correct test, and of course, enjoy the rest of our off days which we had planned for.

After the written test, we joined kev at sento.

then, the following day, went to changi village. actually, we wanted to go to Pulau Ubin but decide to wait for kev, to go with.

then, the following that day, after we sat for our oral/speech test, we went to sento again. Reached sento and it rained so heavily. Again nothing much we can do about it, so we played under the rain. We ignored the Red Flag, and got whistled away by the lifeguards, to stay out of the water.

And the next morning , Kev's day off and the 3 of us went for a short island getaway.. to Pulau Ubin, of course. Part 2 for pictures taken from Yf's digicam. We were not able to cover the whole island on that day, cos yf had to work nite that day. So, part 3 .. anytime soon.

So basically, nothing much was done over that weekend but just fun! fun! fun! And I love it!!! Well... except for having that thought of paying $$$ to re-do the test!

Sunrise at Desaru

The morning was cool and breezy, with the high waves crashing to its golden sandy beach. We were at the beach as early as 0630hrs.. took some photos by the beach while waiting for the sun to come out. The sun, eventually made its appearance from behind the clouds and gave that beautiful picture- perfect sun rays instead. Awesome.

Think we were the only guests at that resort. We had the beach all to ourselves.

After preparing the food stuff for the evening bbq, we quickly got changed and eager to hit the beach. Before crossing over a small wooden bridge, stood a red flag with a signboard stating that the beach is closed as it is not safe for swimming. But we chose to ignore it.

We held hands and ran straight towards the sea, and were ready to be swept away by the strong and high waves back to the shore.. Had great fun playing with great company of friends who loves the sun, the sea, and nature.

With the help of GPS, think we can safely visit Desaru again in the near future. And maybe, the next time, Kev will allow me to drive on Malaysia road.

nOise in my tummy..

blogging while my junoir sent one of my patient for an MRI brain/MRA, and while the other 2 either playing games or glued to you tube. not everytime i get to relax and do this.. most of the time, i would struggle with IVs around this time.. but not tonight. Tonight i can breathe eventhough, there's 4 new cases to attend to, still waiting for the 1 to be admitted.

Can't open my eyes .. so dead tired today. The 2 episodes of vomiting earlier this afternoon, is making me feel so weak and drowsy. Looking pale when stepped into the ward, noticed by some here. And if only i have not answered that phone call, maybe i would not be kept awake and having this abdominal discomfort and vomitted. Arrgh,.. i can hear my tummy juices churning...

Lots of food in the ward.. ordered pizza.. and a colleague brought some donuts, but just couldn't make myself enjoy eating it. Oh... there goes the sound in my tummy again! Am I hungry or what? But i am afraid to eat, afraid that i might jus throw up again.

Since the ward's a little less hectic, i think i better take a short nap. Been standing, in this utility room using the phlebo's laptop updating my long time never updated blog. Better get out before i faint in here..

Actually, my colleague, Shikin asking.. on my updates ,the previous night. Well girl, here it is.

Well actually, there's so much going on in my life.. all the past events, good and bad, happy and sad.. memories of it all, etched in my head.. everyday when i am alone, on a bus or mrt journey to/from work/home, for instance, i think about my life, my wrong doings, my ugly behaviour, what more can i do to improve on myself, thinking of some of the things i should focus on, people i love and must care for, ...and so on, which have it all reflected and probably blogged in my head instead :)