the clock strikes midnight... as the dream slips through your head... this is no dress rehearsal... there is no second chance...

Monday, October 03, 2005

End-of-Begining of Life

Today i feel so down and lost. Been wondering what's been happening to our community. Some pple jus find an easy way out to a solution, when others are finding it very difficult and stressful to get to where those pple are at.

When i heard and best still read cases where some women successfully gave birth to a healthy newborn at their late 30s or even at 40s, especially 1st child after trying for at least 10 years.. it brings on a smile and hope..

This morning and for the rest of this week, I'll be stationed in a "better" class ward-with "better-imaged" patients. They all looked so educated,holding good jobs and have supportive partners by their bedsides, but yet.. what a disappointment..:(

For whatever reason bro.."if u dare to do it,then be responsible" .. these words kept playing in my mind. But, i guess it all boils down to "face".

If i am a mother of a girl-teenager or in her early 20s, i might agree to "it". But if i have a son who did wrong to the girl, I have to face it and be responsible for it..i will not want the "girlfriend" to go through the pain for what my son has done. (But of cos, that depends on the girl's decision to keep or not to keep).

Wow! really tough leh.. but of cos i hope none of this would happen in my lifetime.

So..how..

I ever said that if i ever have a child i want it to be a "boy". if he is naughty, it's still ok.. cos he is a boy. boys can be naughty but not girls..
but when it comes to undesireable situation, i would rather have a girl cos' i would then have the "say" to my daughter's life.

Ah.. so difficult...

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