A quick Update

Just handed in 2 written assignments which were all done at the very last minute... I am so exhausted.. i feel so lost and don't know what to do...

Met up with my mentor this afternoon.. i was told that i got the "love letter" due to my absent records. But.. phew! it was not me... another Siti. She looked at me and asked how i have been. "tired ah", i answered. My mentor, then advised me to cut down or stop my extra activities. Then she said" what happened to the vibrant Siti?"
( and yesterday, my friends said that i looked pale and green.... (green?? hmmmm)

ACitivities!!!! what activities do i have??? Only running ! but i have not been running since the KLIM. I am not in the mood for anything... Studying is so tough for me now. Whatever i study, didn't seem to register. Read, read and read again and again just to understand. Maybe it's the age factor.. but there are others who are older mah... and they are doing well , infact very well... but really... i can't cope.. :"(

I don't know where I am at right now as in what have i learnt? From day one to now.. i don't know anything like that!!! What happened ah?

Maybe i should keep on running and do stuff i usually do. Maybe by doing so, I will not be so lethargic and get my sympathetic system up and going... maybe ah hmmm... let's see how.

Everyday, rush to school.. for lecture and tut.. do assignments and presentations .. no time for self study.. no time to go see movies.. too tired to run.. not eating well.. face looks pale.. at times, have the fear of going for skills or tut classes ... carry heavy bag but nothing in the brain.. think too much & worry for nothing.. reached home do a bit of hse work.. home food is still the best, so cook simple dishes..must talk and play with catz, but always forget to call parents..prepare for the next day..sleep latest at 2am and lastly, make kevin happy... ahhhhhhhhhh...

I miss my Sayang...


Everyone has their own style of studying. But I don't know what's mine. My study partner is Shiken and she is still full of energy and enthusiasm. This afternoon in the library, while she was revising.. typing notes on her new laptop, I dozed off..
Study with Isabel also best! Today she was at Mac Cafe @ Lido, to study but she left the place early too.. said very tired.

So I went home, bought cat food and took a very short nap ... still feeling drowsy.. but..
have to study for my Bio prac test. This friday morning at 9. I have to pass, die die must pass.. ( i failed in the previous theory test).

got to stay up so ... where my coffee?

KLIM '05 pictures

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KLIM - Half Marathon

My very first half marathon and it was just for fun. My official time clocked at
02:54:05 -offical time
02:53:47 -net time
01:11:43 at 10km

For results, click here!

Almost wanted to give up at 7km as I felt that I won't be able to make it. But at that moment, I was somewhere running on a highway. But then again, I had only two ringgit with me after I gave my 10ringgit to The Lonely Runner early that morning. So I kept on running.

Didn't do much training and preparation for this run. My aim was to finish in 3hrs, that all. Not even thinking of getting the medal for completing within the qualifying time, which I didn't even bother to find out, in the first place. Overall, I am very happy with my 10km, clocking at that timing. The last time I ran 10km (Mizuno WaveRun) , I took one and a half hour to complete.

The only thing I like about this event is that I have Kevin and friends cheering for me at the finishing line. Two things I hate were 1) the official attire, an oversized 'ah pek' like singlet and 2)there were no mobile toilets for ladies at the refreshments points.

I have to get an early rest now. Tomorrow back to normal, stress....struggling with loadz of assignments and preparing for this Thursday's bioscience test.

pictures... kiv

I GOT C FOR MY COMPETENCY TEST...

THANKS TO MY THERMOMETER... i charted the code wrongly for the temp and pulse!
i am so tensed... clumsy.. knocked against the trolley and bed... dropped the thermometer.. and worst case was touching the sheath of the thermometer... i've contaminated it...
terribly done... greatest disappointment... *sigh* must learn to be calmed and relaxed.

Now leaving for KL.. KTM train leaves at 10pm.

Bye now!

Will be back by Sunday night...

Relax CT!

Slept at 2am last night and can't really sleep. Just closing eyes.. then was awaken by a burning smell. Got up to check the stove and other electrical appliances and switches. Everything was fine. Back to bed.. but i think i did get some sleep cos' i dreamt that i was tested on mobility and position of patient. Called Isabel the first thing to check if she'll be at e-plaza. Knowing her as being very ON one... but aiyah.. she decide to be on " own time own target" .. not sure what time to leave ...

Anyways, I jus have to learn to be independent in school. The truth is I'm still not used to moving around the school alone. I know I will get lost.

Yesterday Christina reminded me of the 5102 -CBL case study tutorial tomorrow. I won't be around and it doesn't mean that I can escape. I hope my finding on the case study is relevant.

ok got to leave.. all the best to myself, keep calm, relax ... Steady!

Ready to Go

I just realised today that we will be leaving for KL tomorrow night. I am a bit kan-chiong right now .. not for the running but packing.. I need to prepare the things i need to bring.. travel light. Bring my Bio book- A MUST! how about laptop? if bored with bio, can write my Communication essay or Soci's presentation. See how..

What to wear to run ah? I don't look good in shorts so I'll settle for long pants..feel like wearing my Stephanie Sun's singlet but it's black. oh yeah.. very important- Sun Block. But the most important thing on my mind right now is tomorrow's Competency Clinical Test. Stress! Hope that I stay calm and relax so that I can focus on my interventions.

But am ready for the run? I think so. I think the run will not bore me cos the route, the place, the surrounding are unfamiliar ..I am eager to see what's ahead of me. So I will keep on running... Explore the city of Kuala Lumpur! Ada motivation... I hope I won't take so long to complete. I don't want to keep Kevin and the rest waiting for me at the finishing, in case, they want to go for a last minute shopping. Opps! did i jus say ..shopping!! Another motivation factor to consider but shopping is not part of my itinenary.

Ok next .. what song motivates me to run..? Hmmmmm...must download latest by tomorrow 7pm.

And another thing... I am looking forward to meet blogger runners from Malaysia. Too bad, cannot meet Wendy ( see tagboard).

Tonight will pack a few stuff and to complete the rest tomorrow after school. Will be taking the night train at 10pm and reach KL very early morning. Leaving together with TLR and his family. Fd will be leaving on Friday afternoon by bus. We'll all be staying at Swiss Inn till Sunday.

Excited???

U mean right now? Not really.. actually.. Got a lot of other things i worry, in my mind.

Uniform

On early week of the semester, all of us had to queue for uniform measurement.I was one of the last few in the queue. And today, we collected it and guess what? The tailor gave me "M" size- STandard "M" size. What a waste of time. Shouldn't have queued at all.

When tried on this afternoon, it was a bit loose. My friends were telling me that the waist and hips area were too loose, all because i do not have buttock, like any other minahs. And on top of that, I lost a fair bit of weight. So the aunty suggested to trim/alter 1-inch. Then, she said that I may want to consider the things i'm putting into my front pocket.. hmmm she may be right. So after testing putting Isable's ah lian style long wallet and handphone, the dress fits me jus fine though still abit loose around my hips. As long as the bottom don't look like a ken-ken skirt, can already.. and above all, i mustn't look like a goondo.

Oh yah.. this i must say! I used to fit into jeans of size 30 at max, but last week, went to get a pair of jeans at bosini and my waist has shrunk to fit into jeans of size 26.. Amazing! It must be all because of running. My weight upon admission was 56kg and now it's 53. To all those who wants to shed some weight.. just run or do any form of exercise. Diet? Nah.. eat still .. but in moderation.

Homesick

Totally forgotten to document this: My cat Harry is back with us! or should i say.. he's back to be with his brother, Todd.
We took him back last Wednesday. The new owner expressed that Harry was vomiting and feeling homesick. They said that he pushes his head against the door, trying to escape. I guess he missed Todd. And during his absence, Todd was not himself too. He followed me everywhere, whinning and making a lot of noise, especially at night. Maybe he was wondering where could Harry be and he badly needed his brother to play boxing. I guess we really can't separate the two siblings. So now they are happily re-united.

Busy me

Been busy lately with all the assignments, presentations, test and all. Let me jus summarisewhat i did for the past week..
1- last sunday, was busy finishing an assignment for presentation the following day so, didn't go to Sentosa to support my sayang participated in the NUS Biathlon relay with TLR. They came in 15th position and i am very proud of them. They must be very happy with the results too, and i know that they had fun that day. :)

2- Monday- presentation on adolescent and we did quite badly, i think. I expectat a 'C' on this particular assignment cos' everybody except one, did not give their 110%. anyway.. we or some of us never did try to give their 100%.

3- Tuesday- Studied for clinical test. Took Micheal's advise that the test will not be that difficult and mostly common sense. Did not prepare earlier for the test cos' most of the time was used to prepare for earlier assignment/presentations. no excuse.. manage yr time,ct..

4- Wednesday- Sat for the clinical test at 9am. Very excited and true, the test was made easy but slightly tricky. Must read carefully, and you can't go wrong.

5- Thursday- Started on the essay : Reflection after completing Nursing Process -Case Study. it's all about how u prepare ur case study .. not about leadership , personality or whatnot! u have to put aside ur ego if u r trying to write this essay.

6- Friday- Went to Polyclinic for HEP B jab as early as 0830hrs but... what a waste of time, didn't get to have the needle cos, i didn't bring the ltr fr the doctor! Have to come back on Saturday. MY CLINICAL TEST RESULT: B-. and I think HS5102 case study-nursing process is B- too, based on Ms Low's comment as "good" and we tried to read the marks behind her blanco, & Anderson said it looks like 14/20..Ok lah..Thank God. How i wish i spent less time on presentation.

7- Saturday - went to the Polyclinic again with the ltr of cos. Was there at 0830hrs and only called for the jab almost at 11am.

Today, I was the the library fr noon to 8pm. I finished the essay on Reflection and it has been a very long time I ever wrote anything serious academically . I am not comfortable with it. I hope i won't disappoint my group.
This coming Thursday, there's Nursing Competentcy test. And Thursay nite, leaving for KL, and yet, I have not been running. Oh my god.... how, man?
Coming back from KL, Bio-Test awaits for me on Thursday and 2 assignments to prepare due on week 13 and 14.. I am so lost in my own world. The blood vessels in my head are going to burst!!! God, pls give me strength.

Sleepy...

Fine tuned HS 5102 Nursing Diagnosis and Interventions Presentation, today. What's left to do is to have it printed on tranparencies. And, the photos of the dummy with IV line on it, to be printed in colour on transparency. Later will have to try to print the pic onto the tranparency with my Canon MPC190S. If cannot, then no choice la.. normal photo print and pass it around the class to show what's an IV is. The presentation will be at 2pm, this Friday.

Next, is to work on HS 5103- on Child Assessment:Adolescent - another grp presentation due on this coming Monday at 4pm. I think our topic is going to put the audience to sleep. I don't even know what we are doing, 1st of all, and I don't think I have contributed much for this assignment. For this presentation, we need a laptop, which none of us have one. We have video clips to show the class. So how? Just show the lecturer, personally, what we caught on my hp N6230. But i still have to burn the videos and pictures, jus in case, there's this kind soul would bring her laptop to school so that we can use it. Hey, I know it's heavy.. but i don't mind carrying it for u , if i get to use it, the whole day. Really, serious. .. please bring..

And lately, I have not been feeling good. Almost every night,coughed and have breathing difficulty in the morning. Also been feeling sad whenever think of Harry. Now.. i am tired and will take a nap.. waking up later to try print pic on transparency, burn the pics and video on cd.. and etc..

You are going to be missed badly..., Harry.

Yesterday, I received a sms from Kakak Kamaria.. telling me that she has arranged for her cat to be neutralised this Wednesday and requesting if she can take Harry this Sunday. Immediately, I felt so sad and actually cried in the lecture hall. I miss him already. Feeling terrible.. really cannot control myself...*sob* *sob*

I used to have a total of 6 cats. Their names are Tabbie, the mummy to Todd,Harry, Tinnie (adopted by Zanna),Kathy and Cookie (adopted by Serene,which passed away last year) and Allie, the stray-cat. Now 5 cats are living happily with me. We adopted Tabbie from one of the animal hospital 8yrs ago, and she ran away for a few days.But Kevin found her one morning, and caught her in the act and that was how we have that many cats. While Tabbie went missing, I picked up a stray kitten, and that's Allie, Kevin's favourite.

Zanna adopted Tinnie, 2 years ago. She felt that her female cat, Baby, needs a friend. Initally, I was afraid that both cats will fight when they were to meet eye to eye. And was afraid and sad for Tinnie. He had to cope and adjust to a different environment. It was sad to see him in the pet carrier, meowing or more like crying , as if he knew that we were going to leave him with someone else. But I thank god, both cats did not fight and got along very well from the begining. No problems at all. Baby really needed a friend, I guess.

Tinnie has always been the friendly and socialable male cat. He is the type that will sit on ur lap and purr and you will feel bad if u were to move away. He is so adorable and I am thankful to Zanna for keeping,caring and loving him. I miss him.

And now, as I write, Harry is lying next to the keyboard. I can't hold back my tears.. I am going to miss him real bad too. Harry is extra-ordinary. He will accompany me throughout the night, sitting beside me (and next to him, he has his brother, Todd), he then, would occasionally look up, meow and stretch out his paw to touch me, on my shoulder or face. That's how he calls out to us.
And I can never forget the way he massage on my tummy using his big paw while i lay down. While he's doing that, he's nose will get wet and the watery mucous will start to drip but he will try to lick it before it drip onto my tummy. He is such a unigue cat! He is going to his new home this Sunday night. My friend stays at Yishun and she welcomes me to visit Harry whenever I miss him. So sad..

Now.. who wants to adopt Kathy?

Run and swim..

Next Sunday, 20 Feb is the NUS Biathlon 2005 & Kevin will be participating. He will be swimming and the big boy, running. Swim 800m & run 5km.

This morning, we went to Sentosa together with TLR and FD.

TLR timed Kevin's swimming before he began running from Tanjong to Siloso and back. Running is not a problem for TLR, definately.. but it's Kevin's first time taking part in this sort of event, especially having to swim in sea water.. eeeuuu .. salty,and Kevin just started to brush up his swimming skill. But I think, he's alright la... he can do it. After today's 800m trial, hmmm very good leh..

It's not easy to swim in the open water with no line to guide u to swim straight. Looking at him swimming at Tanjong beach.. like heart pain like that...swim alone. If running, at least you can have someone next to you, can talk or listen to MP3.. but swimming.. wah cialat.. cannot have friend next to you.,,if have also, cannot talk, and no music!! If it's me~ swimming, I think I'll drown of loneliness.

On that day, be prepared for the crowd of swimmers splashing all over the place.. sure will kena kick one! I will be there with him as early as possible. Registration at 9am. Hope FD and family will be coming to support the super~men! and i kinda miss her mum's nasi lemak and the sambal .. shiok!

Talking about nasi lemak.. hey FD! Thanks for buying the Nasi Lemak ,and Sukaimi for driving us to Funan.

As for me, I jogged from Tanjong to Siloso and back, i followed the train trail route. I think it's about 4 km but less than 5km. Went off earlier than TLR.. cos he will definately cut me somewhere.. and yes, he did.. on my way back from Siloso. Seeing him run.. wah like nothing like that! Foohyuuh (is that how u spell it,TLR?) !!

Last evening, I ran , started from home, ran around the park to Safra, took abt 15mins, stopped at Safra to see Kevin at the pool. Then, continued running from Safra out to main road, to NorthPoint and back to Safra. I took 20mins. Calculated the jogging route, estimated to be abt 5.5km in all. Rested awhile by the pool before joining Kevin.

Just read Carine's blog, she and her running friends frequent Yishun stadium and recently they ran from Yishun to Admiralty. Maybe, one day i might bump into her. And one day, I really have to try to run from home to NYP. Calculated using Street Directory, it is estimated to be about 7km. There's one thing I may and will hate about running that way up to NYP is the long stretch of Lentor Avenue.. it's like never ending. But still, I hope to try one day.

2nd Day of Lunar New Year

Supposed to have Steamboat kind of style .. souppy and all.. but the DoDo's stall at Cold Storage was closed and so decided on grilling the marinated chicken, beef and prawns.. I like to see Sukaimi eat.. like very shiok like that. Why not?? Chicken is his favourite! Oh yah.. I forgotten to get Chicken Sausages. FD told us, while we were at East Coast during the charity run, he loves sausages, like small boy. Besides, eating chicken.. he also whack the Van Houten chocolates, cookies.. . and FD kept munching on the Swenson's chocolate cookies..and only then, I realised that the cookie is belly nice!!! I don't really like it at first or maybe, got no friend to eat with, so it doesn't taste or look nice.

Just look at my messy kitchen!!! Aiyoyoh... paiseh......

After makan, as usual...boys will be boys..

Before leaving to Alex's house, we took this photo using self timer.. took a few times jus to make sure everybody looked good.. **SMILE**

Very interesting evening at Alex's house, which was not planned. Sukaimi got an invitation via sms, and he asked if we would like to come along. So we did... *sibuk-sibuk*. Moktar and Zul was there earlier and they, especially Moktar, had lots of ghost stories to share and all other stuff. Funny people. We left Alex's house after the American Idol. Thanks Alex and Xin Nian Kuai Le!

Happy Lunar New Year!

This afternoon Kevin's family came over for reunion dinner. This year, we had it much earlier at 4pm because both Kevin's sisters had to leave early to have another reunion dinner with their in-laws, their 1st reunion dinner. Afraid that I may not have enough time to prepare and tidy up the house, I skipped the last lecture at noon.

On my way home, I sms-ed Chinese New Year greetings which was in Chinese..to my chinese friends.. here were some replies i got :)

Elliote: "Thanx!Happy new year 2 u too! Wah,ur chinese improve leaps+bounds,can read so many characters already:) Happy cooking!"

Joanne(ST): "wa.. you can read chinese ar.. thanks for the greetings anyway!happy holidays to you too!"

Irene(ST- my ex-EO):"tk u 4 the greetings. By the way,so many words u understand or not!"
CT replied: Haha... what u think! tdy skipped lecture to cook 4 the reunion late lunch..la..
Irene: Not a good student but definately a good wife who can cook though the food may not b nice hor...



As usual, I cooked for the family, which I really enjoy doing so. But this year's dinner was very simple, no "lo hei". I prepared Watercres Chicken soup, Steamed fish in Tom Yam Sauce, Stir-fried Veg with beef, more veg and buttered prawn with garlic. So how was it? Nice?... hmmmm I really don't know la, but my brother-in-law took second serving of my soup.. and said that he wants to attach his wife to me for OTJ- cooking lesson. Told her my secret recipe.. instant!.. hahaha not a secret anymore...

Normally, on chinese new year's eve, we will stay up till after midnight.. got meaning one, but not sure what was it.. but usually it has got to do with good luck or something like that. But as of right now, at this time, my sayang is sound asleep... he must be very tired...

Wishing all chinese friends a Happy Lunar New Year and to the rest..enjoy the 2-days break!

Run.. run .. everybody run.. 5,4,3,2,1.. let's Run!

Entering this post from the campus' e-plaza while Kevin is having his knees checked by final year student nurse-Physiotherapist.

Last Wednesday evening, Shiken and Isable came over to my place for a jog. Shiken had not been running for a long time but she managed to cover at least 500m and started walking. I told Isabel to go ahead & to meet us later at Safra. I showed her the route and it should cover close to 3km. (Isabel usually jogs around the track non-stop for 17 rounds, so I guess this 3km is chicken feat) As for me, I stopped at 1km, ran back to Shiken and joined her walking. As we power-walked, we talked about cars, keeping fit and swimming. We met up with Isabel abt 20mins later.

Last night, I ran my usual route around Yishun estate - approx 5km. It was a good run and the night was breezy. I took close to 35mins.

Somehow some lecture-mates got to know that I ran.. and they invited me to join them..of cos, I accepted it.. I roughly told them my running schdule and some are interested to join me.. wah..I didn't know there are people in the accelerated very "ON" into running too... "heng hao, heng hao"

So later this evening, Drago aka Kock Leong, Yoke-sun and some others, will be joining me running around the campus. wooahhh very excited.. I thought I have no running kakis in school.... but then.. now i worry about pace. Sekali, I cannot tahan how... cialat la.. paiseh.. lets see how..

Got to go for my clinical lab now... Today's topic: Body Mechanics...

Part 1: Running plan for next 2 weeks

My running plan to prepare myself for the KLIM on 6 March 2005.

31.01.05 (Mon) - ran estimated 2.5km (around nyp campus) + 4 laps x 400m

02.02.05(Wed)- 2.5km x2 + 4 laps x 400m

04.02.05 (Friday) - 2.5km x 2 + 5lapsx400m

05.02.05 (Sat) - fr home to yishun stadium + 6laps x400m (with Kevin)

07.02.05 (Mon) - 2.5km x 3 + 5laps x 400m

rest 3days CNY

11.02.05 (Friday) - fr campus to home, estimated abt 7km.


This is just plan... i don't know whether i am planning it right...Let's just see if i can really tahan what i planned to do.
currently i don't want to time how long i would take. But having said that... I'm hoping to be able to run the 21km within 3hrs max, if god willing..

Lagi not expecting it to be an A-

Today, we got our grades for the grp presentation which we did last Monday, the one that i worry so much... And it turned out to be good leh... an A-. Very happy. Thanks to everyone in the group, KL,Anderson, Yen and J. The better and smarter group scored A+ and it belonged to Isabel's group. Congrats!

Our presentations was not too wordy, very clear and simple, eventhough the theory which we picked, which was, the Orem's Self Care Deficit, was quite a complex one. Our lecturer was happy with the 2 examples on applications, presented by Kock Leong, good and relevant. Cheers to Kock Leong!!!! Well done, brother!

At first, I thought that we were going to get a C, and I will settle for that, cos our slides were too simple. But I guess, that was what the lecturer was looking for . Simple to understand and done in an informal way. Avoid using bombastic words. He was also looking for participation from the audience which was lacking..hmmm ok.. sir, that we will keep in mind & will have that in our next presentation. But how much can we do in 15-20 mins at max. ?

Having said that ....

That's my lady lecturer's favourite line... "having said that.... blah blah blah....
She is such a health freak... not that she would check on the quality of the food or assessing health factors or risks in relation to the food she's about to consume, she would actually SMELL THE PLATE, first!!! Having said that, while she was in India..she went on a diet.

Smell Urine!

Gosh! The boys were made to hold their bladder this morning till 1pm, so that we could have a sustantial amt of urine samples for the class to smell and to carry out some testing.

I volunteered to be the one to smell first while it was still fresh.. OMG, it's like fear factor..

After inhaling 2 different coloured urine, one is concentrated with bubbles and the other was as clear as water (it was J's) ... i ran to the basin to wash my hands and thereafter... u know la... i wanted to throw out! It was not disgusting actually.. the urine is supposed to be sterile. But I just couldn't take it... .

Guess what's next for testing? Don't need to think further....

Unexpected..

I screwed up in yesterday's group presentation!!! It was at 10am and the room so bloody cold. I think we are going to get low a C. And why was that?
I was so stiff.. everybody was quite suprised. I didn't sound confident , no eye contact, didn't project my voice.. totally nervous ah.. simply cannot relek ..and the slides did not sync with my speech.... and the next thing on my mind was... sure kena question one! And true enuf!! kena tekan by the lecturer! Ask me a simple question which i did answered, but my sentencing was so bad!! I looked at Christina, and she had her eye brow crumpled and eyes was trying to tell me to speak up... and realised then, how obviously kancong i was. Of all the people in my group, why me?!

Tdy in lecture... also kena tekan! Wah liau.. he thinks i know so much things ah!!! Better be fully equipped in future.. put on my helmet, armour, sword and what not...when attending his lecture and tutorials. Ok set! My new resolution! It's ok if i don't get the answers right ... will be embarassing but i will learn from it. Will start my new resolution next week... this week cannot, busy with an essay, survey and other grp presentations to prepare... after that will hit the books!