Together we finish this..

All i wanted from this year's marathon was to finish the run with Kevin and have our photo taken side-by-side, towards the finishing line.

Of course, we did worst than last year!

No preparation what-so-ever , just whack. Oh.. the only prep we did was, that we went for a neck-shoulder massage and foot reflexology on the night before the run.

Kevin was down with flu for the past few days and still not well till today. It's the weather, these days.
Very bad of me .. made him run the full marathon.

As for me, I was recovering from lower back strain. Was on medical leave for 7 days prior to the marathon day. My back does not cause much pain at all while running or walking. It hurts only when trying to sit and getting up from a sitting or lying position. So i don't really care much about my back pain while running.

We were running at a very comfortable pace, until we reached 21km mark, Kev started to have his cramps. And that was it. At 30km, my turn to have aches and cramps. We jogged, walked, stopped for stretching.. applied muscle rubs, took pain killers..

... oh yes.. we were very hungry too. ..

The cramps kept coming very 2 to 3 minutes, so we decided to power walk the rest of the 10km or so, till we reached the end.. finally..

Satisfied that I get to have this photo taken in this year's run. We may not be doing this together next year, so this could be ours, one and only.

the way to "i want out"

step 1: register -------> step 2: results -----------> step 3: submit

Shhhh.. Do not disturb!!

That's what's written on the back of our jacket which we need to put on during medication rounds, expecting no one to disturb us while dispensing medicines to prevent errors. But does it work?

Patients, patient's relatives and doctors still walk up or call us from faraway .. disrupting our medication rounds. Worst still if it's our very own nursing officers or clinicians. They are the ones who wants us to put on the jackets , and yet, they are the ones who would come interrupt with our work flow.

Maybe they can't see that we are wearing the jacket. Well it used to be lighter blue, close to our blue scrub.. that could be the reason that the jacket is now changed to dark maroon, so that people can notice it better..

but what's the use if these people kept coming to us. So who needs to change? the people around us or the jacket?

there's actually no need for any jacket to be worn since no one reads the message behind my back.. and most of the time, we are facing the patients , so how can we expect them to know what's written behind my back. Well of cos, they will be able to read it once i turn around.. but then we won't have the same patient everyday. Somemore, most of the patients cannot read English!! No matter how big the sign is, it won't help!

I don't blame my patients or their relatives. they are not part of the system. whenever they come to us during medication rounds, we would not turn them down. and at the same time, we will explain about the use of the jacket on us.

but to those who are in the system, who created this system for donkey years.. They have no excuse..

Anyway, still i feel there's no need to put on the jacket, since we can't stop these people from coming to us. Super blind they must be.. isn't the medicine trolley big enough to indicate that we are serving medicine?!

Magic leave

Already applied leave on this day, 02 Dec, still pending for approval, but if not granted.. no choice la... have to take "magic" leave.

Sometimes, in some cases.. the leave not granted.. report for work.. then, u find out that one of ur colleague called up during ur shift to report sick!!!
That happened to me once before.. and i hate it... heart pain!

almost 1 yr in this service, and i still hate this place. me and yf been saying it, showing it but still we are here, while half of whom we know have already left !!! Felt stupid actually.. talked and showed so much anger and frustration but still we're surviving..!! Well, it's ok la.. it's not that we hate nursing .. we love our job. I think, the more me and yf talked abt our love hate relationship with our work and stuff.. it has actually kept us going.. until the day we actually leave for good.. only God knows when..

Why are our polar bears green in colour?

oh.. i enjoy driving now.. been driving to work for the past week or so, fun..
i am loving it. But then, i have to learn to relax while driving with kev next to me.

Drove to the zoo yesterday.. wasn't sure if it's per entry charge or not ..
it only states something like this on the gantry.. " FRee Parking? Join the Zoo Friend ... "

but u know, the park so big.. surely take time to walk.. anyway.. it's a once a lifetime visit.., so it's ok. Cannot be too calculative hor..already got free admission .. so I paid $3.90 for parking.. get to see the white tiger, polar bear, lion, giraffe, pig!.. except the sun bear! every time, cannot find the sun bear... and the map size getting smaller.. don;t have to open map big big..

like yesterday.. but better..

no matter how busy.. we still get to do what was already been planned.

Ran for that 15km New Balance Real Run last weekend, after 2 nights of super back2back heavy metal concert.. Megadeth and Black Sabbath .. at Fort Canning Park,was great. Bigger turnout for the latter. Bought their latest CDs .. and Megadeth T-shirt.

did not train for the run.. in fact i never been serious.. jus whack. though i went for the trial run on 14th Oct, i did not complete the 15km, skipped the beach and trail. The thought of facing the hot sun, running that stretch of the runway.. was a real torture!



But i finally made it.. and of cos, kevin is so proud of me even though i took 2hrs.
the results and photos not out yet.. hopefully the photographers got take snaps of me! i want to see how tired i look.. must be ugly-looking!

next, will be full marathon on 3 Dec.

time to train? if i have the energy, i will..

after work, usually too tired to do anything.. except for movies and eat.
most times, i slept in the movies too..
what a waste of money!

tried a couple of times, running from work to home, but never get to reach home..
called kevin to rescue me or continue with MRT.

to leave or, to stay..

some nursing friends have already resigned. how i wish i am in their shoes.
for breaking the bond might cost me 17k to 20k, equivalent to about 10mths of pay..
been thinking .. work hard next 10mths,with higher pay to pay off the bond and then, back to normal..and seek for other opportunities.

.. or suffer for the next 26 months, handling as many as 10 to max 20 cases?

we were asked: why the high MC rate?
for "she" who have worked for over 20yrs.. doesn't she know the answer?

"tired" was the only answer we can think of.. but it was considered as just an excuse. But the 1 day rest is and can never be enough. We're encouraged to clear our annual leave.. but there's no slot for clearance.. so how? encashment? i want my break.. long break.. if possible..
i got abt 13 days to clear ... of which, can only bring forward four days over to 2008 AL. so how?

2007 Army Half Marathon

This yr's run not as stressful.. straight road, the longest route was the along East Coast park. Kevin ran with me.. till almost towards the end, we parted. After 15km, he started to feel the pain again on his knees. Ran slowly and a few times, we caught up with each other again.

Last yr kevin accompanied me up till the Fort Road and waited for me at the finish. Towards the end, i got asthma attack. rested 15 mins.. and continued running.. finished at 3:05 somewhere there.. This yr.. thank God, no attacks, but i finished at 3:01. No diff at all. But i did not walk that much..in fact kevin was bedide me motivating me tto keep on running.. not to stop. Hmm... nevermind la.. felt like wanting to give up this running altogether.. but last monday, i registered for the 15km Real Run, paid 30 bucks for that!! waliau.. it's not getting any cheaper!! hopefully the goodie pack is worth the fee.

anyway.. still have to keep on running .. as i have already registered for this yr's full marathon.

Think those are the only 2 remaining runs i'll be looking forward to.

@Work.. too much politics in the ward itself, worst than in any big organisations. Did not report to work yesterday eventhough i had my day off the day before, after been working for 7 days.. ( where got work 6 days week one!! liar..) i am tired and may just get sick. No breaks again at work .. Feeling frustrated with how things are.. with everything... and everybody... .. watever.

Went to sentosa on my off day. And went for short run yesterday.. thinking that i would feel better.. but nah.. i got sick..runny nose.. teary eyes.. sneeze non-stop.. so decided to laze at home.. reported mc for yesterday. Basically .. i need more rest, that's all i want!!! I want a 6 day work week .. not 7 or 8 day work week!!!

12 Aug: Wedding cum Birthday celebration..

Congratulations to... TLR and Fd!





Happy Birthday... Fd!

suppose to go for blood test tdy after work but i totally forgotten. jus like what i wanted..once done.. game over. left the ward almost immediately.

tmr must make sure to go to the clinic to have my blood taken.

work was smooth.. but somehow.. pple still want to double check my work.. don;t believe me is it? go ahead.. question me.. double check my work .. i can wait.

so tired..................

morning shift almost everyday till saturday. morning shift the toughest.

but i must make sure not to make any mistakes.. medication error, documentation and so on. don;t let anyone bully me.

work fast but must be thorough.. alert and consistent. make sure to manage my time well. make sure my juniors got to get to for their breaks.

i don't eat also never mind. i will not complaint. finish work nice nice..
pass over and go home.

peace.

i do not have my mobile in my pockets while at work, so the first thing i do whenever i go for my break is to reach for my mobile to check for messages.

this morning i rec'd 2 smses, one said sorry to hear abt my pt's passing on.. and the second was "my dear,how's the tension at work ? tell me later when u're free " it almost made me cry.. quietly and quickly left the ward, for my break at the kopitiam instead of ta-pau-ing it up. spend some quiet time at the corner with my music and new paper. really need a break from the ward. not that i hate the pple i am working with today. it's just that i don't like the way they talk to me. i know that i might have done something wrong or they just don't like the way i am.. i don;t know..
we can always talk nicely.. there's no need to shout and throw things, showing temper in front of patients. at times, i felt that i was being bullied..no respect, and i felt very "small" , i felt there's generation gap among us (majority 10yrs my jr).. but it's alright. i shall stay calm and not fight back.. something which i don't do in public. and it's not my style. sometimes, keeping quiet would do some good. And so, i did just that this morning at work. Kept to myself most of time, talk when necessary ..

(they actually looked for me.. during my break. wondering where i've been... )

i did not reply to the sms till we met later in the evening, and by then, i totally forgotten all about the tension i had with the pple around me. never in past working experience, had anyone shouted at me. totally shocked.
the sms did mean a lot to me at that moment. though i do confide with my other colleagues.. but i can't show them how depressed i was. their words did hurt a little but i can't cry. i felt disappointed and angry at the same time too. told myself that i must be strong. i had to.

i felt better knowing he cares, .. and it's all because of him that i am able to be strong and face the challenges (but mostly, shit) .. emotionally and mentally. i am not alone.

Finally, i finished with that incident report, submitted and now jus have to wait for pple up there to discuss and feedback. surely kena marked liao.

then after work, decided to go break free .. went to PartyWorld at Yishun Safra, happy hours with Marichelle.

then kev came.

went to watch Bourne Ultimatum.
RAte: 4/5 ( would have been 5/5, but i slept during some exciting parts)

last friday, watched Rush Hour 3.
RAte: 4/5 (didn't sleep, funny but not so exciting, same kind of fighting.. but the jokes, best!)

But the best movie so far i've watched this mth, was FlashPoint. Rate: 5/5 ( never blink eyes .. mouth open big big.. handsome actors.. fighting, best!)

the patient died..

on my last night, about 2am, my colleague came to me .. said that the patient requested to speak to his son. cos he said that he's dying.. i said ok .. let's call him up but most of my colleagues were against my decision. it was too late to call the family.. and anyway, the patient always request for the same thing almost everyday. so we all chose to ignore.

the patient, was planned to be discharged today, saturday .. either back home or hospice. i was looking forward to see him after my 2 days off, but only to find out that he had passed away.

maybe, he knew that there's no one at home waiting for him since his wife is currently lying at SGH. and he knew that he's condition couldn't take him any further.

this is the same patient, i made that medication error. the one that i had to write up the incident report, which till now.. i have yet to complete. I hope my error did not contribute to his death.

i regret not calling his son on the night he requested for it. i should have just gone with my gut feelings.. and not listen to my colleagues. :(

so i decided to pack my stuff.. dumped my bag in the locker and ran 2 rounds around yishun park. and now i am sleepy... kev on his way home from SIM, will be home anytime now.

Oh, i have a new neighbour. chinese. with 1 kid. a granny. a dog.
met up with the couple, eric and evan, but never the dog. the dog's sharp and loud bark simply irritates me. somehow, the owner knew and apologise. told them i got cats and apparently they knew too. but don;t think they know how many i have, hehehe..

today i finally get to see their pet doggy.. .. it appeared at their front door balcony gate..barking at me.. then someone say shhhhh!! and then shut the door.
ha!
It is smaller that a standard small sized cute sort of doggy ..
but one thing very certain.. my cats are bigger .. and also, my cats fiercer ... my cats' paws more solid. think i better get a pet insurance, just in case .. my cats attack poor doggy.

Actually, I don't mind dogs.. bigger better.. small ones very irritating..they too hyper... run here.. run there.. not direction one. bark here and there.. don;t know what they want .. noisy! i hope i will not accidently kick it ..

kevin's back.. gonna sleep early..

oh... i jus realised that kevin got class tonight :(
now i really don;t know what to do.. i thot that would be seeing him like right now..
but NO!!!! he'll be back at 11.

guess.. i eat alone, don;t have to open mouth today..no one to talk to..
self talk with blogger .. sianzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
but don;t think i can stay quiet very long with my lappy.........

hmmm... let's see.. maybe now i go get towel.. take a stroll through the parks to go safra.. then dip dip.. then chomp chomp.. then walk walk again..

ok set... got my music to accompany me...and nice weather.. BEST ..!

(sometimes.. it feels great to be all alone once a while (kev's alone time always spent at sentosa on his off days while i at work )... but then.. being alone.. too much self talk and think too much, flashbacks of some good old happy sad bitter sweet sour tasteless.. memories.. .. some make me smile , some can make me cry.. , i like actually.. to have that a little time to be all by myself)

arghhhh... i overslept!!!! not that i have anything to do or have i missed anything.. the whole afternoon almost gone.. and i do nothing, but sleep, which i actually need but don't want. my mind telling me go out .. do something, but my body wants to rest.. but my stomach complaining of hunger....

at safra this morning, when i registered the 12km fun run for kevin, the recept lady asked whyi looking so sad and tired..
sad..? yeah.. there are so many reason why i was and still feeling sad about..

tired.. ? cos i walked around looking for provision shop selling towels!!!

told her that i want towel.. !!! she said go to provision shop outside the club.. cheap cheap one.. i said to her i already did that .. but shops not open yet.. i was hoping that she could spare me one towel.. compliments from the club.. from their gym or got sell... some thing like that.. as long as i can go play water!!!

now waiting for kevin to come home.. yeah!!!

hungry..

i don't care. i left the ward without telling her. She wanted me to stay behind after my night duty to finish up with that e-hor ( occurance report) aka incident report. i really don't care... i am tired. i have been not leaving on the dot for the past 2 days .. i am tired. tired of everything and everyone.

yesterday.. i left the ward at 10am .. trying to finish up with that stupid report, but still not completed.. more to do still..but i had to stop cos my eyes couldn't take it anymore. tired and hungry..

was so tired that i missed my stop. boarded the train.. closed eyes.. open eyes.. i saw AMK Hub.. close eyes again cos till got 2 more stations to go.. jus when i opened my eyes again.. ting tong..doors closing.. I missed my stop.. sigh* closed eyes again cos the next stop quite far... then... "ting tong.. doors closing.." oh shit!! not again!!! got up ..stood by the exit door.. alight at next station, waited for another train across the platform .. this time.. making sure that my eyes open big big. if i were to.. open close , open close eyes..again and missed my stop and kept crossing platforms .. like pin ball, i'll never get home.., i might as well just sit and sleep in the train..

that was yesterday..

the day before.. also left the ward at 10plus.. but not that too tired. went to eat breakfast at Northpoint, went straight home.. but couldn't really sleep much.. but jus enough .. 4 hrs.
no wonder.. yesterday .. a bit stoned.

i thought today, since i left earlier.. i could go for a dip dip at safra swim pool. initially the weather was jus perfect.. no sun.. i like.. cannot get dark.. so happy .. but then, something struck me... i've forgotten to bring my bath towel!!! Ala.... wat a waste of time!!! Aiyah... why?!!! brought everything but towel!!! walk shiok shiok ... along the reservior , up the park .. with music and the nice weather.. how come... i can forget my towel!!! Fated to go home .. sad.. don't like to be home alone.. hate to sleep.. it's simply a waste of time.

Anyway.. on my way home.. ... dark clouds took over the sky.. and it started to drizzle and it got heavy... wah.. lagi happy!!! play in the rain ... shiok!!!! walk slowly .. enjoy.. the rain , my music .. very cold... but shiok. Best!! ... yoohoo!!!

maybe later see how.. if weather good.. either go run or swim...

as for now.. i find food .. then sleep.

28 July : Overnite BBQ at Aloha Changi

Post-bbq.. Faris and me were discussing.. while clearing up the mess and till last nite before i left for night duty that, we should make another party and the next time...there will be lesser food but more playtime.. and we are thinking of Sentosa. No bbq, but catered food instead.

First of all, Alhamdullilah, the weather was very kind to us. The heavy rain stopped when we reached there at 1430hrs, drizzling only, unload some stuff and Kev had to leave to fetch our 2nd load of stuff from his parents. And after that, he left again.. back home to get the DVD- Karaoke player with subwoofer and speakers (but somehow the system does not sound as good as it is at home). I can't remember how many trips he made to and fro .. as I was busy with the final preparation.. Fried Bihun, sting ray wraps, prawn wraps, kebak sticks and baked potatoes. . almost had panic attack.. so litte time .. so many things had to be done..

About 6pm, the first 2 guests came.. Theresa and Jerene.. Kev's colleague. . At that time.. paiseh still in my shorts. Quickly got changed before many other guests arrived and mistaken me for a maid. Soon after.. streams of people came.. mostly Kevin's colleagues and friends whom some were unfamiliar to him. But we welcomed them anyway.. really felt good when word of mouth reaches to those who heard and turned up unexpectedly. Very greatful and many heartfelt thank you to all who came and to those who tried to come but cannot make it.

There were many cars pulling up at the entrance, and we had to lookout to see who just arrived. If it's chinese.. then it's Kevin's side.. and if it's non-chinese.. then, it was like a guessing game.. " Who's guest? When he asked me.. i said i don't know. Then i had to asked those around .. I can't recognise and don't know who..

invited some old secondary school friends.. posted my invitation at the forum.. so some of those who came .. either i don't know them at all... or i can't recognised them cos they have all changed.

I was worried that i was not able to entertain my guests .. Running, Skipping and rolling from unit A to unit C, wanting to make sure that everyone's ok and comfortable, had their food and drinks.. and having a wonderful time, jus as much as i enjoyed every minute of it. ME tired .. not at all..

It was really an overnite BBQ .. still having pple to eat in-between games after midnight onwards. Some of Kevin's friends were looking forward for some mahjong and card games.. but can't do much of that cos the food takes time to be cooked and we actually started the fire a little too late but it was alright... everything went well .. and everybody enjoyed the food..

We started clearing up when everyone asleep . That was all.. we left the place at 10am.

As we reached Yishun, it began to rain. Unload the leftovers and stuff.. and now the house is in a big mess. Not tidying it up cos.. too tired, got to sleep.. to prepare to stay up again .. night shift for the next 3 days.

Jus returned from nite duty today and i am still feeling fresh..

22 July:Mizuno Run 2007

This is the 3rd time i took part in Mizuno Run and i think this will be the last. First of all, the goodie bag is getting lighter. Used to have food samples, drinks, etc.. but now.. nothing but only the running T with the shoe bag. I remembered the very first time I look part in 2004, there were more than just a goodie bag. There was personalised certificate with photo (no time stamping though but it was worth it.. ) And the registration fee was $15. This time, it's $20. Secondly.. the running route. For the past years, it used to be at Kovan Hub (hougang) -Old Tampines Road and back to Kovan Hub. I hated that route.. demoralising. Very dry and boring.. and told myself no more Mizuno Run .. But this yr, since they changed the route to Bedok Reservoir, we decided to give another go for it. So there.., we went to sign up at our own will and ran at our own risk.. bottle necks here and there..constructions areas.. if not for the morning the heavy rain.. think runners will not be hoping here and there to avoid the mud and puddles of water.. As for me.. i just splashed on it.. as i am so used to running at Mac Ritchie.. similar running ground. I don't care about my new Nike Free.. can't be avoided. I really hated the run.. crowded at the beginning and even had to walk.. congested. I started fast.. as i wanted to get away from the crowd.. what more.. Drowning Pool was playing in my ears.. couldn't help it.. but to run fast.. then... what happened next.. ? I got tired too fast and slowed down. And when i saw Kevin passed by.. i wanted to give up already. I called him to tell him that. He waited twice after 5km and 6km. Ran together.. but i couldn't keep up. My breathing not so good too. Took a few puffs during my run.. i fear that i might have asthma attack along the way.. and i didn't see any medical station. I really hated the run.. well, there were some other reasons for wanting to quit . The day before the run, I went to see Dr for my UTI (urinary tract infection) and i constantly got the urge to pee. So when i ran.. i held my bladder.. then, causing me to have that back pain. And I still had that leftover headache from the day before and plus.. I got my "girlfriend" .. so uncomfortable... simply put.. no mood la for this run. But .. the weather was good.. after the rain effect.. cooling and breezy. So why not..try to enjoy the run. We reached late.. started running at about 10 mind to 8am. Finished at 9am.

After that, we went to Changi Village to try the famous nasi lemak. Hmmm, wonder what's so nice about it. Nothing special .. little serving of rice..which i think it's good. But again.. nothing special la..

Next, we tried kayaking.. $15 for one hour. Double kayak. Fun.. relaxing..and all wet..

Then washed car.. played with water!!! Ended the day at about 2 plus.. Kevin helped with washing our dirty shoes while i clean up our messy house. Then it rained again.. we slept throughout the evening .. woke up at around after midnight.. get back to sleep again at 3am.

15, 16 July : Trip to Kukup

Drove up to Kukup last weekend with Kevin's colleagues. An experience to live in a house just above waters. But it was low tide or no tide at all during the day.. so we get to see living creatures like crabs, snakes, snails and mud skipper. It looked dirty actually beneath, on the sea bed.. or should i say.. swamp.. cos the house is near to the mangrove. U can find dead animals.. but mostly dead fish. And all the junk and litters. I saw the residents just simply threw their litters out from their window. Low tides.. or no tide.. allows the monkeys to come out to play on land and also .. get to see rats.. big rats.. running, finding food. Occasionally u will hear the sound of water pouring down from underneath the house.. ah,.. that water.. are dirty water from the toilets.. no sewage facility. All natural.. Big and small business done all drop from under the house.. quite unsightly but that's still part of life over there. That is the only thing that reminded me of the trip.. besides the floating kelong. I love nature .. so i don't mind. But somehow, i need to be accompanied by Kevin in the toilet to bathe. I was afraid that anything from underneath the toilet bowl, something might just climb up to surprise me..eeeeioww.. scared!

Lost..

 

Morning run on a Sunday feels different from any other day.. the sun seems brighter.. the sky so blue and the people seemed friendlier.. So this morning.. i decided to go beyond Lower Seletar Reservoir, thinking that it will led me to Yio Chu Kang.. somewhere along Lentor. But nope... I found myself running along the Seletar runway.. after the Seletar Country Club. I've never been to this place before.. i simply followed some cyclist .. surely it will bring me to somewhere.. so there's nothing to worry about. The stretch of road was like endless .. , 2-lanes traffic and no safe pavement to run. I didn't know where i was really till i saw some road names and directions. No other souls along the road, except for the oncoming cars, lorries and motorist were travelling at fast speed. Felt a little frightened and lost. But i carried on running..
Finally i ended up at the entrance of Seletar Camp .. where i saw the familiar TransIsland bus no 858.
I could take the bus home.. but then.. i decided to continue .. ran towards Jalan Kayu, got myself 100 plus and continued..till I reached Yio Chu Kang Road- AMK industrial area..
I ended up at Yio Chu Kang Mrt, took train home. Enjoyed my Sunday morning run.. i hope to do it again..with Kevin. Don't want to venture alone.

The ward's full house and the night went smoothly except for the occassional call bells asking for bed pan. The men had their urinals by their bed side.. and there's this one patient whom we hate to attend, a 25yr old Mr Bed 57. He was admitted for tibia fracture after playing football, and ORIF done to his right tibia 2 days ago. Other body parts, especially his 2 upper limbs are fine and functional.. but strangely, whenever he wanted to pee, he would require our assistance to hold his penis into the urinal bottle!! So each time, he pressed the call bell ..our first guess was that he wanted us for that reason, and none of us wanted to go to him. But we got no choice and not let the call bell ring for very long.

Another call bell queen would be Aunty Bed 32, on diapers and constantly peeing every hour to 2 hours .. so we changed her at least 3 times.

The best patient for the night would be 60+ year old New Zealander MR Bed 48 who stayed up with us, playing somekind of strategic game on his laptop. Then, about 5am, found him already changed to clean pyjamas and reading his book.

I was not tired at all, had my meal with the rest of my colleagues. The SNs even managed to take half to one hr nap, but i didn't. Not tired or sleepy at all, surfed the internet.. drank lots of water, 2 cups of coffee and 1 cup of chocolate cereal drink.

Thought that i could go for a swim after work.. but while waiting for the doctor to see Kev for his URTI, my eyes cannot open .. dozed off.. wah.. sleepy to the max.

Reached home about 1030hrs, quickly bathed and zzzzzzzzzz

Phone call woke me up and and could not get back to zzzzz again.
Felt hungry. Got up, do some laundry and cooked myojo.

Lower Seletar Reservoir

jus returned from morning run... and the morning has been kind.. breezy and not too hot.

Set out after kev left for work.. did some stretching at the void deck, time checked 0745hrs .., and with Alannah Myles' Bad For You playing .. off i went. Ran the usual route towards Yishun Park. Instead of heading towards Safra Country Club, i decided to go left and head to Orchid Country Club and continue my way up to Lower Seletar.
The morning traffic wasn't busy at all, cool weather and quite breezy . Saw only 1 jogger and 2 walkers.. along the stretch of the OCC road.

Time checked: 0825hrs..i reached the reservior. No joggers seen but young boys fishing. Many cars and lorries passing by .. and got police patrolling the area too, and there's the road cleaners.. so i think it's safe to come here again..

I'm not too sure how far i have ran. I am jus glad that i reached somewhere. Satisfied.

While running, i took note of some songs which are good for running. Some songs from White Zombie, Drowning Pool, Alannah Myles, Angel Dust, Cinderalla, Alter Bridge, Creed and Taiwan's ShiN.. kept me going...

Took some time to appreciate my surroundings ... took some pics.. and jogged home.

Cinderalla's Coming Home gave a perfect ending to today's run. Best!!

starting night duty from tomorrow onwards for three nights.. then sleepday, PH and off day.. Yeah.. can play!!! But then, kev is not feeling well. His face was red when i met him this evening. He picked me up from YT Mrt to visit my parents. They returned from Umrah this afternoon.

Over at my parents', he had an episode of SOB.. thank god i got my ventolin in the car. After dinner and the puff, think he felt better and after our little nephews and niece with their parents left, Kevin fell asleep on my lap while watching the tv. My poor husband.. been working very hard for the past few weeks and mths . And not having enough sleep too. Whenever i had to got to work in the morning, he too had to wake up early .. as early as 0545hrs, to send me to work. Sometimes, i wanted to leave the house while he's sleeping. So tonight, sleep more.. no pc for u.. I love you. Pls get better, so that i won't worry abt u when i am at work. You know, I always need to be with you whenever u're not well.
Gave him muscle relaxant tabs.. hopefully he'll be able to sleep well and be ok tmr when he wakes up. ( i better finish this up to join him in bed)

it's audit day today and my ward failed again. not going to talk abt it cos i don't care and i don't give a damn.

been wanting to cut my hair.. and so i did today after work. still kept the length but had it layered... my head's so light now.. that i feel like going for a run...

so, run ... it will be..for me, tomorrow morning , to somewhere .. not too sure yet..

I want out..

Last week was one of the worst weeks i ever had at work. I almost broke down into tears while working on that very day.. after i told off the Nurse Clinician that she can extend my probation as long as she wants if she thinks i still need improvement or incompetent. My probation period supposed to end this month.. and,I actually told her that i am not looking forward to my confirmation day. I really don't care...

No point complaining so much abt work to these group of people who checks on our clinical skills.. it won't change anything.. they expects too much from us when they given us lousy training..

Last week, i was assessed on resuscitation. I failed to meet a few criteria.. they are: name the things i can find in the e-trolley.. drawer by drawer.. and the common drugs. The rest of it.. preparing/ assisting with ETT , bagging and AED - passed.

AED.. Automated External Defibrillator .. I am not trained to use this equipment at all. Even if not trained , we are expected to know it's functions and able to function it. No problem.. i can do.. i can answer to all the questions asked.. but there's no need for you people to say something like " oh.. u're the SMCP batch" and give me that look as if my batch cannot make it. At the end of it.. she added on and said " well u're ok but still need to be prompted".

Obviously i failed in that stupid assessment, and i had to face my ward clinician for another round of re-assessment. How to pass?? Nothing was given to us to read. U expect us to go to Route21 or the E-learning .. where got time? She told me that she was a bit disappointed with my performance.. that i was doing well as a student but now has slackened.. ..
She suggestted that i should stay back after work to go through the processess.. HELLO!! u pple been single all ur life.. and not having any life outside... think that i got a lot of time ,is it?!!! That was the day when I really wanted to give up !! The day when i told her that she can extend my probation as long as she like.. it doesn't really matter..
So what if i am confirmed? No extra pay .. still have to face the same shit every day.

On that same day.. the Pain Team was doing their round and questioning me patient's condition..and their pain medicine..all this questioning ..while i was serving medication and at that same time.. the doctors were haunting me for missing case files!!!! It was worst than a fish market!! They made me confused.. too much noise in my head!!! and the Inpatient Medical Records where so messy.. which caused me to make 1 medication error. I placed the wrong medicine to a wrong patient and worst part was that the Pain Team saw it and pointed it out to me.. kena from her left right centre.. in front of patient..and doctors.. make me name all the medication in that medicine cup which i had dispensed. I was so damn confused.. deep inside, i was crying for help.. These people should know better that I should not be disturbed while serving medicines..!!!! That morning, i took the longest time to finish with serving medicine. I went without food and drink on that day.. finish work at 4.30pm instead of the official 3pm. Thanks to all the health care professionals who took away my precious break time.

I don;t know what to feel after what had happened. I don;t really mind the work.. but it is the way how things are going at work, which i hate. Told my bestfriend abt it.. and the more she tried to comfort me..made me cry.. we both experienced the similar situation.. or even worst in her case.. we are very sad to be trapped in this organisation.. Not feeling that too well emotionally.. i skipped work the following day.

Movie cum Pool Day

Jus signed up for this yr's Mizuno Wave Run today. It will be held on 22 July, and no longer at Kovan Hub. This year's run will be starting from Tampines Polytechinic Sports Stadium - Bedok Reservoir Loop - North along TP Main Road - and ends at TP Sports Stadium. I would like to recce the route one day if i have the time to do so, but meantime.., i'll jus run around my usual neighbouring area. With the new 10-km route, I hope to do better than last yr's 1hr 13mins.

It's Movie Day today organised by Kevin's company, at discounted price.. we watched Fantastic 4.. better than Pirates of the Caribbean. But, Ocean 13 is better.

After movie, we headed to Marina Square.. where i registered for the run and the guys played a few rounds of pool. I did too but i wasn't good at all.. i don't even know how to hold the stick. Maybe it's not my kind of game, but i would love to learn..

Drove the guys home.. and washed our dirty car at the end of the day. Did a quick wash so that we can rest early tonight.. as we both got to work tomorrow morning..

So far, today has been good. Good movie, good food, and good pool session - as what kevin said. It would have been almost a "fantastic" day, if not for the constant phonecalls kevin received from his boss and colleaques, asking him about work!!

i honestly love you

Maybe i hang around here
A little more than i should
We both know i got somewhere else to go
But i got something to tell you
That i never thought i would
But i believe you really ought to know

I love you
I honestly love you

You don't have to answer
I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
This is pure and simple
And you should realize
That it's coming from my heart and not my head

I love you
I honestly love you

I'm not trying to make you feel uncomfortable
I'm not trying to make you anything at all
But this feeling doesn't come along everyday
And you shouldn't blow the chance
When you've got the chance to say

I love you
I honestly love you

If we both were born
In another place and time
This moment might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours
And here i am with mine
So i guess we'll just be leaving it at this

I love you
I honestly love you

I honestly love you
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Artist: Olivia Newton-john
Album: If You Love Me Let Me Know
Title: I Honestly Love You

A Good Morning.. and still is

This morning i decided to go for a short run after i was been told to rise and shine.. It was about 1115hr and the weather was good and windy.. but later on, the sun was just above my head and i could not take the heat.. but overall, it was a good late morning run..

After returning home from the run, had quick bite, shower and off for work.

Best part of today.. No Monday blues... I did not feel tired at work and even till now.. i am fully awake.
At work, everything went smoothly .. no hiccups.. Plus, i got to take my dinner .. and drank lots of water and able to go toilet, which i don't really get to do for the past few days/weeks..

And my colleaque, B.. who assists me.. came to me and said.. " I love U" for whatever reasons.. i replied to her, that i love her too, and we hugged. Awwww... Love is in the air..

Oh dear.. i don't know how am i going to cope tomorrow morning at work. I should be sleeping right now.. Kevin already sleeping.. while my eyes still wide open.. just like this morning..

Set my alarm at 0520hrs.. .. looking forward for Tuesday.. hopefully it will be jus as good as today..

Plans for tmr: Movie at GV plaza @ 8pm.

a friend told me that we can't possibly understand how others feel if we are not there to experience it..............and ............ we never thought that we will be paid that miserably and we were being over-worked, with only 1 rest day per week.

and............ it is not that we got to rest on the 7th day after 6 days of hard work.. on bad situations, we struggled 8 days then, scheduled for rest on 9th day.

morning shifts starts at 7. another friend of mine stayed somewhere far in the west.. has to get up as early as 0500hrs i think so that she can reach work by 0645hrs. She didn't usually have to do this.. but because lately, her car which she used to drive to work daily, which she parked at her usual Staff car park, was being clamped. Reason being that she is just a Staff Nurse. Staff Nurses not entitled for a lot. She was told not to drive to work since there's no lots for SNs.. by the security officers.

these are some of the things i hate about my work and workplace
1- unpredictable Off-days
2- miserable pay for the amount of work we do
3- no parking lots for SNs
4- only 2 set of scrubs given.. wear 2-3 times then wash.. where's the infection control..?
5- difficult to take leave

more to list down..

always looking for off days.. or whenever there's opportunity to play ..
but it seems so hard to comeby

work schedule is killing me..
something is not rite with the system..
or really shortage of staff..

can't stop pple from coming to the A&E
but sometimes.. these pple come for no reason
especially on mondays .. my fren told me..
they came...
complaining of chest pain ..
headache..
gastric pain
muscle spasm.. etc

things that are not to be taken lightly..
so .. got themselves admitted to be observed for a day or 2,
then discharge with mc for a couple more days..

already we got shortage of beds and space..

exhausting our resources...

why like that..

whatever we say, they, not related to us.. would listen
but whenever we tell it to our own family member, half of the time, they prefer to listen to others...
why is that so?

it's so difficult to be in this line ..
anything good done.. oh..no comment.. no suprise
but should anything go wrong... there'll be lots of queries.. pple start to talk..
why is that so too?

not getting involved would also mean .. like.. knowing it but ignoring , neglecting..
getting involved .. is the same as .. add-on commitment ..stress..

so how.. want to help but time so limited..

stress... time.. are just excuses..

so how now..

caring for the caregiver..

am getting tired ... too much to handle at work..
am not complaining , not that i am not competent ...
and pls don't tell me about time management...

still new in this line of work .. the past 2 yrs attachments did not exactly
prepare me or any of us for this...
taking on multiple roles at a time... can be very risky..
as everyone chipped in to help one another... it may help or even make things worst

i am lost..
no proper guidance on the work process , jus directions given to me..
jus following instructions .. learn day by day as I moved on...
don't tell me to open up the the work processes to read on it...
cos half of the pcs and cows..(cows on wheels) not functioning..
and no time in my hands to spare for such...

most of the time.. i nurse the papers than the patient..
only see them while serving medicines.. and at the same time do some inspection and PR ..
half of the time.. rushing to do things for each patient
whatever little portion of time i have left are to make calls.. and i hate finding telephone numbers from that one and only black folder.. and i don't know who i am calling for..
and in the end, i have very little or no time to hydrate,
constantly on my feet...
exhausted..
..past few days have not been eating well.. or not eating at all.. jus a bit of curry puff from polar,

one fainted ..
some already taking sick leave

at the end of the day... i take deep breath and stood in the center of the ward,
paused awhile.. relieved.. but i know nothing of what i have done after such hectic day..


staff strength stretched to the limit..
at times, there's a need to call back those on leave or having their off day

off days are precious as we work 6 days week.
so don't expect us to turn on our mobile and being called in

one said.. think for the patient is our priority.. got to care for patient first..
that's where she's wrong..
if only i could say this to her...
" care for the "care-giver"..." and that's us, " so that we can care for others"

with very few of us running the show..
and me .. being new ...
am trying very hard to cope..
doing my best,

hope not to get sick.. and that matters most ..

now.. i am exhausted..

Nothing much happening.. except that .. recently, i cleared my driving test on 6th March, after 40sessions of practical lessons. My 2nd attempt. Happy la of cos... don't have to step into SSDC anymore.. hated walking to the driving centre from Yio Chu Kang Mrt .. very far.. so very the lazy to walk in.. and i heard that SSDC will be shifting to Woodlands industrial park area... wah.. i can imagine that the place is going to be more ulu (faraway) ..

anyway... people say that at SSDC, it is easy to pass... or very fast can pass..
registered in late April but only started the practical lessons in May last yr.
Didn't go for any practices sometime in july for almost 2mths, and 1 mth in January this yr.. so basically, i took abt 7-8mths.

And now i got a driving license and started driving to work. But unfortunately, can't park at my work place as I am not entitled to have a parking space at all. Stupid rules says that only those ranks as the senior staff nurses and above have the privileges, while the parking lot stated clearly as " Staff Carpark " . Discriminating.. isn't it?

And it's none of their business ( the security officers ) .. that i have a car to drive to work. And they told me that i should take the public transport.. and they even questioned me why i need the car for.. I am totally angry with the whole hospital system now!!

So meantime, Kev took over after I reach the hospital..

Anyway.. i can't drive alone yet. Kevin needs to be beside me.. as i am not steady yet.

2nd Day CNY

Canceled trip to Sentosa as it was raining very heavily as we passed by the ECP Keppel.. We went visiting instead.. to Serene's and Kenji's place.

Managed to visit Mary's place at Hougang.. before heading home.. Very nice house.. i like it.. spacious, cozy and smells new too....

First Day Chinese New Year

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Phew..! I almost missed my usual 10am Korean drama on channel U , as i was busy mopping the floor and clearing the rice and soup bowls on the dish rack into the cabinets.

Immediately after the Korean drama ended at noon, went to cold storage to get some groceries to cook for dinner. Need not worry about lunch cos, papa decided to pack "sop kambing" from Jalan Besar Food Center.. very famous one.. nice.. i like..

Serene and Ak came with parents and grandma but left earlier.
Oh.. Gong Gong did not join us today..
Kev's cousins came with their partners.. and stayed till late afternoon. They like cats too..

Later in the evening, Mama rec'd call from Christine in NZ. Her time was close to midnight.. The family chatted over Google Chat .. including popo who has hearing problem..

Lastly, dinner was served.. Cooked Asam Fish Head, Water cres chicken soup, fried eggs with tomatoes and veggies..

My right hand a bit weak now... tired i think..
But i am not complaining..
i like receiving guests..
i enjoy cooking, even though i am not good at it and half of the time,
i got problem deciding on what to cook,
Overall... i like everything that i do for my family..
Everyone is happy today... and Kevin loves me, i know.. *wink wink * hehehe...

Me ...

Right now.. since yesterday.. kev been watching his chinese drama dvd.. trying to finish it and have it returned asap.

so i am actually a bit bored. i wouldn't know what to do, if we do not have wireless.

i have been reading about health matters, related to my patient's diagnosis.. but it's so difficult to remember what i have read... how ah... i think the grey matter in my brain a lot liao.. i am getting old i know... i got wrinkles .. so obvious that i don't want to smile too wide or laugh hilariously liao.. but if i don't smile and be like how i am, i looked troubled and sad.. and pple start to query.. i feel that i am looking so old and behaving like one too when i am with my new colleagues.. whom most of them are more than 7 yrs younger ..i am one of the oldest.. and i am older than my preceptor! Grey hair starting to be obvious too ... and..uhhh.. kev still looking so good... how ah...

lately, yf said that i am fat! OMG... i better do something... i have not been running since the ultra end last year.. better get back to running to shed some weight and start toning up .. got weights at home also never make use.. useless me.

Ok .. my resolution ... Don't be lazy !

A Quiet.. Chinese New Year Eve...

kevin said.. every time, on eve of CNY .. every where quiet... like ghost town..

The hospital is quiet too. My ward.. one room is closed.. no occupancy. But i bet, after CNY, there surely have a lot of admission.. diabetic patients especially.

tonight me and kev had our own reunion dinner... from left over food from the night before... a mini steamboat..

I am now thinking of what to cook for tomorrow... rice with dishes or fried bihun?

I think some of kev's relatives will be visit us.. since my inlaw will be at my place after church service.. and surely they gonna be having lunch over at my place... so what to cook ah? I have to be careful with my choice of food to cook.. as kev's dad is diabetic, type II. And lately his right big toe is injured.. so he has to be very cautious of his diet so as not to have his sugar level raised..

I hope i will be able to cope with my cooking and entertaining of guest come tomorrow.

Next year, i don't think i will be able to celebrate CNY like right now... away from work. Some of my chinese colleaques will be back at ward on 2nd day of CNY. My preceptor working night tmr, 1st day cny. In future, my work schedule will be so unpredictable.. i don't know how i am going to cope with the 3 shifts.

Reunion Dinner 2007

Steamboat cum BBQ for reunion dinner last night.

To all, Gong Xi Fai Cai!!! ... Wishing all a happy, healthy and prosperous New Year !!

High fever...

my sayang sick... spike fever few nites ago.. highest 37.9 deg- 2 nites ago. Tonight, 37.6 deg. Seen doctor 3x.. got mc for today and tmr.

Besides fever, he complaint of ache around his cheek bone and the doc mentioned that it cld be due to stuffy nose.. that created the pressure from within .. hmmm.. watever it is ..he is taking too much of different medication..from 3 different doctors. And i hate to see him taking those medications.. drug toxicity.. bad for the liver. To me, all he need is rest... good rest.

Life been stressful for him .. and for me.. ever since 2 yrs back.. when i started to go back to study full time nursing.. and followed by events... one by one, his family members were admitted to the hospital. First, it was papa with diabetic foot debridement at CGH, then.. Grandma ..in ICU for hypertension and Grandpa went for op for peptic ulcer at TTSH. At the same time... he had to juggle with his part time degree course.. All in all... he has been very occupied .. with work , family and other commitments and especially me! ON and Off, he will be down with common flu, persistent cough, fatigue and on top of all that ,stress has always been one of the contributing factor.

Today half of us were assigned to our respective ward for e-trolley and laerdal resuscitator skill competency assessment.. while some others at skills lab for resuscitation skills.

It is still too early to say how i feel abt this ward even though i have worked in this same ward during my PRCP. Though I blend in well with the ward staff, but i think they have some degree of expectation on me. Coming back to the same ward may not be a good thing .. i feel a bit pressured . .. i need to improve some skills, which may not been taught yet.. I need to be confident, they always mentioned abt having good critical thinking and patient management and stuff.. which is too broad and general.. which i don't think i can learn in one day.... and communication skills, especially. Cannot say anything nice.. don't say a word.. jUst be nice...

Be patient and do not panic.. and do not rush into doing things. Must think , think , think!!! Do things with rationale.. but must also work fast.. try not to be too helpful, else i can't finish my own things.. prioritize .. try to avoid silly mistakes .. and don't be clumsy..


At the end of the day.. must be able to smile and be happy with what i have done for the day.. get back to normal, enjoy the rest of the day with my love ones.. And start fresh the next morning.

oh yah.. surely got unpleasant things happening very day.. so what to do?

I hope my friends are doing fine with their new colleagues.. and things get better for those who are not comfortable and those who have not get accustomed to the ward style.. All the best to all and lets get through this together.. for next 3yrs and see how it goes from there...

Graduate Transition Program

Transition program, starting this month and will be ending around early May. Packed with lessons quite similar what we already had in school except that it includes the hospital's standard practices and work process. Just sitting to listen to the speakers can be a bit tiring and, at times .. i slept with my eyes open,staring blankly onto the powerpoint slides. We will be awake if someone asked questions.. awake because of their nonsensical question asked.. what a waste of time!

We will be tested throughout the program.. and truthfully, i am not prepared for it. My anxiety level is at the peak right now..i want to go to ward and start picking up things and learn at the same time, from the ward itself.. not in classroom or skills lab.

So meantime, right now.. I have nothing much to do .. except to read up certain things.. enjoy office hour schedule

Probation period is 6mths.. and will be required to do night shift by the 4th mth.

Again i have to say this.. the pay is miserable.

Since i'll be having some free time in the evenings, i will try to go for my driving practical lessons. Test date getting nearer and I don't have much time left, and financially not healthy too.. i can't afford to fail.


Update on past activities with friends..


We were at Sento on Sunday, 28th.. and we were there again the following day..
Went to the Airport in the morning.. Guessed it was monday.. and airport not busy.. not many planes taking off and landing.. Me and YF realised that we are not the indoor type.. cannot survive.. without the sun, sand and sea... And so, off to Sento again...



Then, the next day, Tuesday 30th... me, shiken and yf cycled at East Coast Park. Did not play with water.. jus cycle.


Then.... the following day..31 Jan,
Returning from Jurong East Swim Complex.. we took this pic at Lot 1, basement carpark lift lobby.



Then... the same evening .. Kev completed his ICT and, without any tickets, went down to the National stadium to the soccer! A kind couple saw us coming out for the ticketing booth, sold us 2 tickets for the same price.. but we gave him ten each. We were lucky. Sin 2: Thai 1.

27 January: Mum's place

Received sms early morning .. read as.." Raining here, got sore throat,hope to comeback to tonight to sleep..."

Oh yes, yes .. jus comeback .. late also comeback pls.. take cab!

And shortly after that, kev called. I have been alone at home most of the time, as he is away for reservist..(but almost everyday i also got go out hehehe..) the house is quiet and obviously got no one to talk to except, scolding the cats... or play "chak" with my cats.. other than that, self talk ..

It has been raining since yesterday afternoon while i was at my mum's. Spend half a day there, and the house noisy and out of control with my 3yr old nephew, Idris playing and screaming .. together with the rest of his sibling and cousins, while my eldest sister was having her computer lesson in another room taught by one of the SAVH (S'pore assoc for the visually handicapped) teacher, who is also blind. They had problems getting into the internet.. not able to dial up successfully, and they had been sitting and figuring why cannot log in... each time a window pops up, a voice will tell them what it is and instructions will be given to help in navigating. Actually it's not that simple. But these people are jus amazing... I realised that i've never nursed a sick and blind patient or came across any blind patient... (except for one who's at IMH.. this one different story)

Blame it on the weather or what.. everyone is falling sick.

I hope today's weather be fine.. no sun nevermind... but don't rain.. cos last night, me and YF decided to either go to the Zoo, cycling or swimming .... and it all require good weather... sunny would be best!

Well, see how it goes later......

28 January: Sentosa with YF





30 January : to the airport, sentosa again ..


Tomorrow : Cycle/Swim @ East Coast Beach

rain ? Not again....

Kevin sms-ed to tell me that the sky looks very dark over at Sentosa and it is windy over at his side of the island. Then, after that, followed by YF's sms saying that it's raining over at Hougang. I got up, looked out my kitchen window... could tell that it had rained earlier as the road was wet. But .. the sky is clear.. but when i went to look out from my living room window.. dark clouds passing over.. aiyah..
So how now? No plan B.. cos we thought the raining season has gone.. Yesterday weather was jus great.. each time we planned for something outdoor, the dark clouds want to be part of it.. what to do? We can only plan... the One decides...

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Anyhow... Plan B: Little India.

YF brought me to one of the beauty salon at Little India for eye brow threading..
told the lady .. that it's my first time.. so hopefully she'll be gentle with me.
YF stood closely to take photos... luckily,did the eyes only, not the whole face. I can't bear with the pain, maybe it was my first time... can't wait to get out of that chair.. But nevermind.. then YF said something like ... "want to look pretty, want to look nice.... tahan the pain lor!" Yeah.. she's right... so now.. as she said.. the face looks freshier, less bushy.... hmmm.. less bushy.. hahaha!!




Back to Plan A : Sento

About 1 pm, me and YF left India for Sentosa.. and met up with the rest, Shiken, Laila, Karen and Cheng Gek. Both K and CG, were there earlier for sight- seeing, visited the Images of Singapore and CG seemed to liked it after listening to how she described the place with full of facial expression and actions. So i guessed the admission price quite worth it.

It drizzzled a bit over at Sentosa.. but that didn't stop us from playing..
It was a perfect day for all as most were happy that there's no Sun! Oh.. except of YF, unfortunately she couldn't get into the water.. for some *reasons...
so we had her to be our camera-woman! She really did a good job.. as it all turned out perfect as well :) Tango Yankee... YF, next time u hold my camera while i poise.. hehe

here are some of the pics taken... the rest had to be censored*

Play water.. again and again

Last Monday, the day we have been waiting for.. Good weather no rain.. Cannot waste this day!
So, off to Jurong West Swim Complex, we went. We didn't check the operating hours, but fortunately it was opened. The complex closes on Tuesdays as stated in front of the lift entrance.

The weather was so hot that when we took photo.. our faces were darken by the bright background.. we were already so dark ourselves.. the picture turnout dark dark also..

We should have just bought the water camera.. There were like less that 10 customers there.. and we were the only 3 with the giant float.. enjoying the lazy river.. all for ourselves.. it was like a private pool.



After playing.. then next best thing to do is Eat!
Pizza Hut has improved greatly, so we took this chance to go Pizza Hut to eat since we can't possibly eat alone. Must have gang to eat one.. 2 not enough.. 3 people better.. can order bigger pan .. not personal pan.. and wow! this I must say.. the sauce called the cool mayo .. was the best.. !!! not so jelak.. got sour-ry taste and it blends so well with supper supreme toppings, as compared to the usual tomato sauce. And, the cool mayo with seafood tastes so mayo-deliciousssss........

Oh.. kevin came back late evening.. again.. like before.. dump dirty stuff into the washer, and left for Japanese movie, Ghost Tunnel at Cathy, causeway point. All japanese ghost looks the same, they crawl and wears long overflowing hair..with big dark eyes, super big white face and super slim body.. like Juon, The Grudge..

eerreee.. eerie... i forgotten that i'll be alone at home.. ceh.. this kevin ah.. make my heart beat so fast liao.. somemore tonight i still cannot sleep.. don't know how come i don;t feel tired.. infact again today (tuesday), i went out to play at Jurong East Swim complex. This time with YF and Laila..

Laila smsed early morning to ask about the swimming stuff..It was my mistake for not calling her to come along yesterday to JW swim complex.

So me and YF, morning morning.. breathed out the word sianz...and we really don't mind the sun and playing with water.. we decided to go out!!! Wah we suddenly became so alive! Eyes open big big... say the word play wah.. no need to think twice. Pack and go!

And so we went. Kev left for camp. Me and YF met up with Laila at KFC, JE swim complex. Good weather too.. with slight rain later part of the day.
After we got changed, we saw the wave pool was already been activated.. Me and YF left Laila behind (she eating her kfc), ran like small children like never been to the pool before.. started to swim into the center to enjoy the waves and the water being prayed from above.. like rain falling into us. . and jus as we start to get excited, it all stopped.. it was over!!! oh we were so embarrassed... no wonder, some swimmers already started to relax by the pool.

Again, like as if, we owned the lazy river, with our giant float, round and round we went.. the wave pool was activated every top of the hour. So we stoodby the pool 10 mins into the hour.. making sure that we won't miss it.

And oh,yes.. we daringly slide down the circular tubes.. if only there's lift to bring us up.. we would have played the slide over and over again...making full use of the rented giant float. Anyhow.. the 3 of us were so damn lazy to climb up the stairs.

We ended the day by going to the IMM for lunch cum dinner at the Banquet. Then walk-walk at Daiso.. and then bye bye.

Tmr, as in Wednesday, i planned to visit my mother in law.
On Thursday, we planned to go to Sentosa
On Friday, we hope to go to Ubin.
Next week, we planned to go swim at Chua Chu Kang complex.
And also to Little India to do eye threading,
and also.. if got time, to go treat and trim my long hair..
then after that...
Get my uniforms ready for work by 1st Feb.
Then, there's where my new journey will begin.

play play play... everyday .. and still not enuf

15 January : Vivocity

The zoo trip was cancelled as most of my frens couldn't make it. Me and Shiken didn't want to laze at home, and since the weather was good, we decided to go to East Coast to cycle. But unfortunately, every time we are together, the weather changed. It started to rain when we were on our way there, along the ECP, U-turn at Fort Road and Shiken drove toward Vivocity instead.

Well, there's nothing much we could do there ... we could only think of eating and then, took some pics, and played some games at the Arcade.

Die-die before we start work.. must go cycling! Must make sure!

On this day too, we got to know the ward we'll be going to work start 1st Feb. I will be returning to the same ward. But my friend, HP and YF won't be. They tried talking to the person in-charge but they did not get a pleasant response. Some got lucky where they got to go to the specialized ward of their choice.

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16 January: SIM and Sentosa

Kevin booked out early this morning, given a day's off and to report back by the next day by noon.

Met up at Clementi, went to SIM to collect his course materials, headed back home asap as Papa coming over to collect some things. And once the washer ended, hanged his army uniform and other stuffs to dry, and then, to Sentosa we went. The weather was suprisingly cloudy, no rain.

Reached home in time to watch BlogTv which featured our friend , Haznita with her child, D , "who says my mum doesn't blog?" , i think that was the title.

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17 January: SGH , Newton Food Centre

Left house with kevin. Bye bye.. he went back to camp.

I brought my mum to SGH for eye check-up. Very long wait at the clinic, about 2 hrs before she gets to see the doctor. We left the hospital at about 5:30pm and the train was so crowded, mum didn't get to sit. She complained her leg pain... must be after too much walking .. she really got no energy.. leg not strong also.. how to help her? Hmmm... i also don't know what to do.

then bye bye to mum at yew tee, i made my way to jurong east, meet up with Shiken for dinner. craved for chilli crab.. so we went to Newton Food Centre. YF joined us too after she had her spa session. So again.. eat eat eat... chit chat... chat abt what to do next.. ? Next activity: to the zoo, cycle at Ubin and swimming at the new swimming complex at Jurong West... Must do it before start work!!!

Shiken ordered gong gong... wah best!

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18 January : Juli's house

we spent the day at juli's beautiful baywater ...
supposed to make use of the facilities there,but we ended up eat, eat and eat... chat and chat ....
This photo taken in Juli's daughter's bedroom... princess's room.. so sweet and pink.




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19 January: TTSH and movie


Early morning went for medical checkup and collect our scrubs at TTSH together with YF.
Laila met up with us later part of the day too.

Purple scrubs looks nicer than the usual blue.. but to me, the scrubs look like pyjamas.. and kevin said we look no diff from the patients. The scrub looks so baggie and it definitely won't look good with the free girl-girl shoe.. i feel like i wanna get that Nike all-black coloured sports shoe... but it's so expensive.. $1o3. Hmm.. think i want to go scout for other brands... so long the shoe look a little rugged and to last for 3 yrs.

After all done and settled, bid farewell to YF who left for weekend cruise and be back by Sunday. And before she left, she already can't wait to be back again to go swimming or the zoo as planned.

In the evening, Kevin came back from camp. Quick wash his uniform and dirty stuff, then left for that Mel Gibson movie ... don't know how to spell the movie title... very good movie.. or was it Pan Labyrinth... can't recall when we watched that spanish (i think) movie.. another good movie.
Watched a few other movies lately.. but can't remember when and what.


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20 January : Sam's Wedding and Niece Khadijah 1 yr old Birthday

Attended Sam's church wedding with HP held at the catholic church opposite Mac at Toa Payoh Central. Simple and it was quite fast ah.. some guest came dressed up in retro as it was the theme for her special day. I came in my usual jeans and white top.

After the wedding, I called Gong Gong for lunch at Fork and Spoon, together with Papa since he wanted to come over to Toa Payoh, to fetch me home . i then, realized that .. Papa is Gong's son-in-law, and me, papa's daughter-in-law... and to grandpa, i'm his granddaughter-in-law... hmmm, it was like an "all-in-law' day ..

Late afternoon, i left home again to my bro's house at Bt Panjang to celebrate his 1yr old daughter birthday.



Reached home late and house so empty... couldn't sleep.. didn't feel tired at all. Been out for the whole week and yet still feeling restless.. i think i miss my sayang.
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21 January : Home whole day ...
Morning went breakfast with Elliot.. so long never see her.. and she is into her 8th mth pregnancy.. so happy for her. Congrats!

YF smsed after returning from the cruise, to confirm on tmr's activity.
To JUrong west swimming ctr.. rain or shine, must get out of the house.. die-die must play.. we got not much time liao!!!


Spend the rest of my Sunday at home.. alone & nothing much to do, jus laundry, bored. No one to talk to.. so silent at home. Waited and waited for kevin to call me.. so my mobile phone always with me 24/7, by my side or in my pocket .. my boredom was relieved when i received his phonecalls.

15 days left to go..

We are schduled to be back at ward by 1st Feb, but a lot of things not settled by ur HR dept. Initially, we were told to return to the hospital ion 2nd week of dec lastest, to collect our uniforms, our bagde, make payment for the nursing licence stuff and medical check up. So far no calls from them for such urgency.. Wonder if they got do their job!

Woke up early today about 0530hrs to see Kev off to Clementi Camp. Observed that, his cat, Alley itching all over.. scratching and licking.. bathed her, finally. After that,placed her collar so that she will not lick her body too much .. don't know why this cat has always got body itch... ( hmmm, wonder if there's piriton for pets?) Must remember to take the collar off, before i leave home.. so else,she will starve..

Going to the zoo with YF and Shiken. Last minute cancellation from Hankee as he's at the A&E- mum admitted for high fever. Hui Ping.. not coming.. So it's going to be the 3 of us again..

Anyways.. the weather is good today and hope that it will stay this way for the rest of the week..

Bring raincoat,jus in case!!! But ah.. do i have a raincoat?!? Hmmmm....

Kevin goes for 3weeks ICT ...

Yesterday, he left for ICT. Since he'll be away, I thought that it would be a good idea to follow adik and along with HP and YF to Malacca. The plan was to accompany Adik, drive to Malacca to send her grandma back to her hometown, and at the same time, to spend 1 nite there, sight-seeing and to play, of cos! And everyone was so excited for it.

Kevin was fine with it but my mum stopped me for going since Kev not around..and not to do extra-ordinary things... while he's gone.. aiyah, that's it.. cannot go lor..It was a bit difficult to break the bad news to her.. After explaining my situation.. that i felt 50-50 about going.. Thankfully Adik was understanding abt it even thought a bit disappointed.. but she has gotten over it when me and YF went to see her yesterday, for lunch at her place, followed by window shopping at Jurong Point and makan .. again ... at West Coast Hawker Centre. It was raining the whole of yesterday .. we didn't have much things to do but to walk indoors and eat.. which we felt that we don't really enjoy window shopping.. Nothing in the mall interest us.. well except for that stereo speakers fitted in a stuff toy found at Kiddy Palace.

So we talked about going to the Zoo anytime next week.. and if the weather gets better, we should go to Ubin as planed..

Time is running short.. with 2 weeks left .. there are still things needed to be done .. and a lot more places to go..activity to do..

Better write down what i really want to do .. in my iNote!!