Getting our life back..

Exactly at 6pm, i am out of the office.
No work on Saturdays and /Sundays.

To the movies almost everyday..
To the beach on sunny weekends,
Cycling on any other weekends
Run on every other day...

Cook more often, whenever possible.

And, to spend more time at the comfort of our home, sweet home.

Hoping to make all of the above possible.

Trying something ridiculous..

I want to shed some weight.. currently at 54kg..  but no matter how much i exercise , can't seem to cut down that extra pounds. Whatmore, almost every weekend there's always makan session which i don't want  to miss.. 

...  I think it's the age factor... it's difficult to get back into shape.. 

So i did what most aunties do....  I signed up for  3 trials of slimming sessions plus 1 free slimming massage.. Just to try it out.. let's see if it actually works on me , like how they advertised on the pamphlet..  

3 trials may not show much but i think i don't need 10 sessions.. as i am not that big like the ladies in their portfolio....  I have 10x less bulging tummy ...  no sagging thighs, underarms or breast..Not yet! .., 10x less fat !! 10 to 20kg lighter!!!!   Just wanting to see if they can get rid of the cellulites.. fat lines.. as they assureed  that i should feel the difference after 1 session.. so 3 sessions should be ok. 

 

Life after TTSH

life at ttsh .. have made me feel younger and energetic.. thanks to all my lovelies ashikin, fiona, aisya, aziza, juria, ida, maybelle ... kelly ..wendy.. azleen .. jus to name a few .. Besides just working for the organisation, keeping the standards as per JCI, and caring for the sick and those hard work  when some day we were treated like maids and sometimes a receptionist, a secretary, but most of the times running up and down the cubicle making sure the patients are alright..

Despite all that as we chose to become nurses,, we are human too..

never fail to make our lives interesting either by treating ourselves to good food, jokes, juicy gossips.. opps!  at the end of the day. Some party hard, karaoke.. bowling .. having good laughs at Minds' cafe...  

Putting our differences aside...   But, no matter what..  we are united, and we feel for one another whenever anyone of us are feeling down or faced with problems. We even cry together  when one is experiencing bad relationship. We cheer up those who are feeling down. Comfort those who in need for love.  We have feelings, afterall we are nurses..  we have sense of empathy..

But unfortunately, the HR and Payroll dept do not have such sense. 

I was informed that my last salary will be withheld and will be paid only in maybe next 14 days!  Woah.. that's too long a time to wait.  

I do not have that long time to wait so I have it checked with MOM under the Employments'  Act.  Which according to the Act, it says :-

If the employee terminates the contract by resigning and has served the required notice period, the employer must pay the employee all due salary on the last day of the employment.

If the employee terminates the contract by leaving employment without notice or without serving the required notice period, salary should be paid to the employee within seven days from the last day of the employment.

I have served my notice period of 1 mth, and even settled the liquidated damages of $8384.80 as per request and now, my pay was held up. Why?  

commitment?

Patients' interest first,
Do what's right for them..
that's all.. i care.

Leaving so soon..

Left with 14 mths remaining to my 3yr bond, and i chose to leave.

Exit interview tomorrow with the HR .. don't know what they are going to ask me.
No ugly stuff that i will say eventhough i got a lot to comment about. But even if i do, don't think they give a damn. All that they are interested in will be the 4-fig cheque amt which is due for payment tomorrow. The liquidated damages from breaking the 3yr bond.

I thought that they will offset against my salary .. so as to reduced the LD amt. But no, they insisted on full LD amt. My salary will be released on my exit day.

The most saddest thing now .. my exit day falls on my last Night shift (after offsetting my AL and Day off) .. as my dearest colleaque put it as " leave in peace " . Yah.. i am going to leave the ward like how my preceptor left us... he left in peace.. just broadcast " thanks and goodbye" sms.. and see how many pple return your sms.. and that's how u will know who and how many pple at work really cared about you.

To the one who already miss me and cried in the storeroom .. I am going to miss you to the MAX!

And i am already missing everyone of them at work... . I blamed it on the system that divides us.. but when I minus the pressure at work, and add a bit of smile and laughter among us all, we are a bunch of wonderful and fun people to be with. Remember the BBQ last december.. we played hard and had loads of fun.

it's really hard to leave when u know it is not the work that u hate but the system..
and as i write this.. can't stop the tears...
Today till the end of my working days, will have to try to hold back .. the sadness and tears..
but each time i talk and think about it , and while at work , it jus makes me sad
... ahhh.. i guess i will be next running to the storeroom..

finding a new hobby

to learn guitar or knitting?

whatever it's gonna be, got to think of a hobby fast!!!!

14 Sept : Swing KPE

14 Sept: Swing KPE Tunnel Fun Run

Last Sunday morning.

After sa’ur, we left for a 5km fun run which we signed up for free. The exciting part of this event which i was looking forward to was to walk in the tunnel in the dark with a lantern.

The event was to celebrate the completion of the longest underground vehicular tunnel in South East Asia and,

to break the guiness world record for the longest lantern parade.

The 10km run started off at 8am followed by the 5km fun run. Since we were fasting, we signed up for the 5km event. We didn’t even give an attempt to run.. just walk all the way to the end. The 12km Tunnel is the longest tunnel in Southeast Asia, the ventilation was quite bad. Perspiring so much and I wonder how the runners cope with it. I’ll definitely have an asthmatic attack.

Most of the participants for the 5km were in their mid 40s onwards. They came in groups representing their community clubs, the old-old generation that you will find in your neighbourhood exercising in the parks , doing their daily tai-chi.. the old and elderly with unsteady gaits.. holding hands, walking in the stuffy tunnel.

There wasn’t any mobile toilets and drinking stops to hydrate along the 5km route, not too sure about it 10km.

Towards the finishing line, an ambulance siren was heard.

It was told that a photographer collapsed!

So was it exciting after all?

:) with kevin with me and lantern in my hands, even with no food, no drink and no air! .. of cos, i enjoyed my day!

but running or worst, getting the older generation to participate in such an event, with hundreds of participants in that tunnel.. in a tunnel with poor ventilation+++ and with little air to breathe, can be health threatening, everybody SOB (shortness of breath) .. then major collapsed.. no enough oxyen tank to share.. not enough AED machines to resus.. luckily only one casualty reported.

This event was really not a good idea even for healthy walkers or runners.. !

Condolences

one of my best colleaque's mum passed away 2days back, and here i am sitting in for her night duty. my condolences goes to her and her family back home in KL.

tonight the ward is silent.. average 3 call bells every hour.

aunty took almost 3hrs of nap!!! I got no heart to wake her up.. but i want the couch! i want to to take nap too!!!

my juniors surfing the net... catching up with their net friends..upload and update.

best night so far.

Saturday.. my last night... and sad thing.. i won't be able to join kevin and family to a wedding invitation. And i won't be able to go for the SBR half marathon this sunday morning :(

Desaru Trip With Shikin

Weekend Getaway: Bali

In 3hrs time, we will be in Bali for the weekend :)

Almost didn't make it for this trip, but thanks to the good people at HolidayBagus.. they make it all possible!

Will be back by Monday early morning, eta 0300hrs. And i am already thinking about work!!! Stress!!! I hate, I hate, I hate...!!! But i kinda miss my colleagues though..

It was a really late minute planning.. kevin had to request for 2 days of his precious leave and miss his Saturday class ... all for me.

And for all that he has done for me .. I am very happy +++++++++++ LoVe U !!!

Got to check in right now... bye :)

Run..

Not been running for so long...

SBR Army Half Marathon is coming near, so got to start running again..
will try to run almost everyday.. short runs.. and longer distance EOD..
that's what i planned la.... but i got feeling can never actualize... heheehe.

Last year, kevin accompanied me throughout the whole 21km, even though he signed up for 10km. But this year, think i doing it on my own.
I must try to finish it in less than 3hrs.
But the rate i ran for 10km took me about 1hr 30mins, based on my last saucony passion run.. How possible??

This morning.. i started off slow, yet i felt breathless.. after 3km.. how?

My seretide is finishing..
My ventolin is somewhere around the house..

I hardly have asthma attack these days....
the last attack was 2yrs back, while running the SBR.. at 17km, and was told that i will be banned from running.. but who cares..
i still signed up the following year..
after that last attack, no more attacks, but experience episodes of shortness of breath . . hyperventilating.. which is no good, i know... but i really want to run.

So this morning, i leisurely ran my usual route, stopped by the supermarket.
Sick of the kopitiam food at the hospital. So this evening, we gonna feast on seafood pasta... as promised. Hoped Candy and Manru like it.

and a nice portion for kevin :)

Falls..

Received this mms of my chubby nephew, Idris and his cutie little sister, Khatijah aka Dora. Think they were at the Jurong Bird Park, during the last school break. This is the only way my brother update me of their kids.. how fast they have grown.. up and wide :)
Lately Idris, fell somewhere at his housing multi-storey carpark, and maybe sustained a closed fracture.. minor one, hairline maybe, but he was on full cast over his leg, left or right, i was not told. He already got it off sometime last week. But i am still wondering how he look like with the cast, and with no clutches ..wonder how he ambulate with the full cast from above his knees down to his below his ankle.

And last week, my 87 yr old ah gong fell on his way back home. He fell on grass patches next to the small long-kang. He tripped and lost balance. Think he fell side ways.. Thank God, there's a kind passer-by, a lady helped him up, walked him to his flat, a few doors away. My ah gong is quite heavy.. luckily he lives on the ground floor. By the time, she reached gong's doorstep, she has no strength, she dropped to the floor together with gong, only then she shouted for help. Whoever this lady was..big thank you!

He got minor laceration on his left shin and a slight blue-black on the left side of his head. He refused to seek medical attention, so we're not gonna force him too.

He is alright for now, walking with the aid of the walking frame. Have strongly advised my in-laws' family member who lives with him to take gong to the doctors if he complaints of giddiness, fainting, headache, vomits,etc..

me and my in-laws :)

We took his parents and grandparents out for dinner.. a once a month a thingy thing we try to do best. But most of the time, we took Gong out more often as he lives away from the rest. Took them to Toa Payoh Fork and Spoon for Stewed Beef Noodle, dry or soup or curry.. Very authentic. I recommend to all, must try.
Think it was one of the first dinner together after very long time.. after Gong discharged from TTSH recovering from intestinal obstruction and Papa's closed fractured wrist. See the bandage there. Mama on the other hand, having fever on that night. And, Popo.. well, she is cute as ever like Hello Kitty.. she's the healthiest among them all. Alhamdullillah.

hmm.. who is looking after who now that the younger ones are less healthier than the elderly.

9 June : Night Cycling

Immediately as he stepped into the house, got him changed into his t-shirt and berms, took our bikes out and to East Coast we went.
It took us almost half hour to load the bikes onto our new bicycle rack. Didn't expect it to be complicated, that I had to get the manual for instructions.
Perspiring.. !
Of all timing, why cycling at this time?? ~~ Kevin asked.
What more, he just finished work, tired and hungry..
Meantime, Ida and Shikin, were patiently waiting for us to fetch them up from home and Novena respectively.
It was almost 9pm when Shikin got into our car.
And we were thinking.. by the time we reach the bicycle rental booth at East Coast Park, it will be almost to closing time.

Yes, the bicycle operators are closing alright.. at 10pm, but they have this overnight rental for additional $2. We were given a lock to lock up the bicycles and then drop the key into the small hole provided on the front gate.

So happily, enjoying the night breeze..
Me, Kevin, Ida, Shikin and Bf..
cycled ..
stopped for dinner..
chit chat...
laugh..
and tease..
cycled again

The remains from the Saucony Passion Run, the tents, plastic chairs and barricades were still there.
Then there were army boys doing road match.. So good life.. marching along the East Coast beach!

mostly cycled for relaxation, de-stress..
or try to cut down some weight... :)

almost midnight, left East Coast.
everyone reached home safe.
i bet every one slept soundly..
And wake up feeling fresh, come morning!

29th May: Big Thank YOU

37th birthday to remember, always.

23 May : Kevin took me to Genting and shopping in KL :)
25 May : cycling with Kevin's good friends.
29 May : Birthday surprise at Fish & Co with good people from the ward.

BIG THANK YOU TO:
SHIKIN
IDA
CANDY
DEREK
HANNA
MAYBELLE
AZARI
AND ALL AT WORK

8 June: Saucony 100 Plus Passion Run

Last run was SCSM 2007.
Today, only 10km.. i felt like dying ..
felt so tired..
felt heavy too..
hyperventilate before reaching 5km.. very bad!

a little asthmatic

took 2puffs..

felt so draggy..
a few over-sized runners over took me..
can imagine how slow i ran..?

in this run, i only had my mobile and music .. and of cos, my inhaler with me.
no watch, no sunglasses, no sunblock.

Kevin and me started off together, then about 2km, he went on ahead of me..

i don't know what exact time i finish the race.
but surely i exceeded 1 hr,
which, of cos.. great disappointment!

But this 10km is less stressful than Mizuno's.

Next run.
Mizuno 10km?
should i?

tidy up that closet..

bye bye to kev, he drove off to work.. and i went for a quick jog..
my usual route..
my head felt so light..
it must be the hair!!

thought of going to safra for swim.. and relax at their jacuzz pool..
but the weather's turning dark..

taking a break from doing housework...
wah.. kev really got a lot of t-shirt.. but all worn out, the collar are out of shape and
they are all discoloured..
some still can be worn but they are not the in-thing right now.. so gonna give-away..
gonna dump into the salvation army container.. think they know what to do with it..

as for me.. i realised that i don't really have many to give away..
they all have to be thrown!!

a ReVamp is what i want now!!!
new sets of everything!!
REVaMP the whole of me!!!

search and shop... what a good timing...
GREAT SINGAPORE Sale!!!
hmmm.. GSS or not..
i see myself buying things..all the time..
sale or no sale..
cheap.. but how cheap is cheap?
so no diff.
got $$$, sure shop shop shop.. from nothing in mind to something..
btw, next on my list..
guitar,
clothes?
girls always seeing clothes..
so clothes are nothing special,
see nice , new stuff... buy..
but i want guitar..
for what?
learn for fun..
everything for fun
fun is getting expensive already..

cycling is serious hor.. not for fun
must cycle.. die die must

hand itch..
wants vs needs = > WAnts as always.. may need it next time,
buy first incase , next time cannot find..
then never use..
always the case.

back to basix

don't know yet whether i like it or not..
but i am comfortable with this short-not too short hair style..
had all the extensions cut off instead of opening the clips one by one..
so this is the result...



but i think it's gonna look nice with my new polo t's.
and..
no worries about hair being entangled..
so back to my basic stuff..
to sentosa
to the pool
running again ...

no need for hair clips and bands..
girlly stuff really not for me, i think.
but i tried ...

gonna listen to kev..

vain.. but too bad..it got to go

currently, i am on leave.. usually i will go for runs and swim.. but
this time, becos of the extensions.. i didn't do any of that.
this friday, going out with colleagues to Jurong Swimming pool to play..
i think about my extensions..
next 2 weeks, passion run.. i worry for the extensions again.

like kevin said.. why worry..? solve the problem!

i like the "now" me look!
but if i continue to have this..
i won't be able to enjoy what i have been doing..
then i have to spend time and $$ to deal with the confuse mess after each activity..

after so much thots and consultations with bestfriends..
i have decided...

will remove my "au-ta" hair right after i log out from here.. :(

confused mess

cycled from home to paya lebar airbase about 19km, took about 1.5hrs,
then did about 1 and quarter round at the runway , then cycled to marine parade hawker center, then home..

that how i spent my day on the 25th, my birthday :)

no leg pain.. no body aches..

interestingly .. only my left wrist in pain. felt lethargic, power 0-3.
my left thumb got no strength to press on that whatever u call it, to change gear from 2 to 3 .. or vice versa.. so i maintained at 2.


then my hair so messy..like in a a confused mess..
really had a hard time to single out the strands..

reached home, immediately wash up and straight to pamper our body..
kev went for body massage, while i went to deal with my hair-extensions.

spend 40bucks for scalp treatment.. sheishedo.. good stuff yet cheap, best!

"macam magic"

driving under this hot weather.. and after MacDonald's breakfast settling in..making me sleepy too, but i don't have the heart to drop her off at kranji station when she was already in LaLa land..
she did wake up briefly to tell me that she was feeling dizzy.. must the way i drove on that winding road along old woodlands road. At this point, think she had no idea that i have drove past kranji station.. and heading to teck whye....
the drive was a little bit stressful with big lorries and trucks driving along side with me.. ahh.. thinking of driving back home to yishun added more stress... i hate the road.. and i hate the weather! but thank god i got kev's shades on..

she finally opened her eyes.. as i was about to turn into her car park. and she said
"eh.. Macam magic..?"

the piriton and cough mixture must have really knocked her out!

she had a tough night last night. with that irritating runny nose of hers, and even though she had the mask on, she was tortured by the stench of strong smell coming from one of the cubicles. Besides having to deal with that unpleasant smell, she had to deal with the ugly sight of someone's etiquette which she finds it undesirable. And last but not least, i can't help but to eavesdrop... she had to deal with her unreasonable bf. poor girl.

back home. kev awaits for his breakfast. Mac Donald's breakfast not as nice as before. the muffin so hard to bite, dry and tasteless.
Tomorrow, will get burger king's egg croissant instead. Soft, buttery and tasty.

he'll be sitting for his exam tonight. all the best to you, babe.

the weather at home is just a hot.

nice :)

Marin Pioneer Trail

Specifications
Colour: Gloss Smoke
Sizes Available: 15”, 17”, 19”, 20.5”, 22”
Frame: 6061 Butted Aluminum with Edge 3 Top and Down Tubes
Fork: Spinner Grind OS 2, 100mm with Oversize 28.6mm Legs and Preload Adjustment
Rear Shock: N/A
Headset: Ritchey LB, 1 1/8” Threadless
Rear Hub: Alloy Double Sealed, 32 Hole with QR
Front Hub: Alloy Double Sealed, 32 Hole with QR
Spokes: WTB 15 Gauge Stainless
Rims: Alloy, 32 Hole with QR
Tire: Kenda Koyote, 26” x 1.95”, Knobby
Shift Levers: Shimano EF50 EZ-FIRE Plus, 8 Speed
Front Derailleur: Shimano Altus
Rear Derailleur: Shimano Altus
Cassette: Shimano HG30, 11-30, 8 Speed
Chain: Shimano HG40
Crankset: TruVativ X-Flow 3.0, 42/34/24
Bottom Bracket: TruVativ with Sealed Cartridge
Seatpost: Alloy Micro Adjust, 27.2mm x 350mm
Seat: Comfort Sport
Bar: Double Butted 6061 Alloy, OS-31.8mm, 25.4mm Rise
Stem: Marin OS Alloy Threadless, with 31.8mm Bar Clamp
Grips: Marin Comfort Dual Density
Brakes: Forged Alloy Linear Pull
Brakes Rear: Forged Alloy Linear Pull
Brake Levers: Shimano with Integrated Shifters
Pedals: Composite

What more do i want?

before i wanted for a bicycle, i wished for a guitar!
i already bought my "pick of destiny" long time ago but i have not gotten a proper guitar yet.
been eye-ing on it though.. but hmmm.. somehow.. i ended up getting a bicycle.. and way before that.. hair extension

What actually i want which i don't really need them? hmmm...

the bicycle...
i want to start cycling but first of all, i have to be brave.. brave enough to go on the road,
which i have done so.. but still afraid of the traffic,the vehicles coming from behind.. especially big vehicles .. buses and lorries.. and also, not forgetting.. some idiotic drivers...

i want to cut down on running.. as it is going to hurt my back eventually..
luckily i got some kind of benefit from working in the hospital.. i am scheduled for the costly MRI scan for my lower back sometime next month, after Passion Run week..
The recent xray showed some kind of degenation, wear and tear of my lower back. Can't tell exactly what's causing the pain..or,it could be the fluid/ gels in between the lumbar .. that's degenerating or worn out..
each time i bend forward, getting up from sitting to standing position.. and when pulling patients up .. the pain was so unbearable.. but funny thing is, it only happens at work. stress, i think. So painful that it makes me wanna cry.. but crying won't help, MC does.

Took MC for my lower back pain last week. Before that, I got terrible URTI that caused me to have high fever of 38.6 deg for 2 days.. Never had such a fever before.. as far as i can remember, that is. And i never thought that fever can be so much painful! I rather have asthma attack, than fever!

Now that i am well.. i want to be healthy and strong! so that i can play!
This month.. my special month

Check out the cute guy behind me!

hehe.. that's kevin, of cos!

have u notice my new hair do?
oh yes, it's all fake..
been checking out forums, asking friends, and reading on hair extensions, and finally i did it on 1st May.
Went to the nearest hair saloon, Snip Avenue, recommended by my neighbour. Coincidentally, it was on promotion and is still is .. hair extension for 80cents per pc!


At first, it was so troublesome. i got to blow dry my hair each time i have it washed. So basically it was like everyday! Cos almost everyday work.. at dirty hospital. And almost every day run.. and NO matter how well i comb, the hair still gets entangled. So frustrating..
In the beginning, it hurts when i lay my head down to sleep. Had to lie on soft cushion. And with the clips attaching the extensions to my real hair, it's hard for me comb my hair, always got caught by the clips.. and, it is making it difficult for kev to sweep my hair off my shoulder or to the back with his fingers..He has to carefully not to pull my hair. Almost wanting to take it all off. Taking it off, will cost me $20.

Then at work, i cannot let it down. Got to bun it up. I will definitely pull my hair extensions to some extent. Cannot tie too hard, too tight.. and must use the right type of hair bands ..preferably with no teeth. Simply too troublesome to maintain hair extensions.

Almost 20 days living with this 68pcs of hair extensions, i don't care much about it anymore. I stopped blow dry after washing. Let it dry naturally. Still it gets tangled though ..but i feel less frustrated, as i don't have to spend my time blow drying it and getting the same result. Tangled.
Somehow after a while.. i complained lesser of pain when sleeping.
Then after all these while.. i beginning to love this long hair.. not that long actually, i realized that long time ago, about 4 years back, i got quite very long hair.. but how come i never notice or even cherish it .. ? Now i itch to have long hair!

untraceable

Nagging power

oh yes! u got the right to nag..
but you nagged at the wrong time.

Once again, she did it!
one of her unnecessary and childish
acts during our previous 7am
roll-call.

the roll call was held up,
no one
can start passing down report,
until
someone answered if she has the right to nag!

time was lost.. brought everyone at a standstill.

doesn't it occur to her that she is wasting others' precious time,
and we are risking patients' life.

There are more productive and "valuable" which work can be done and achieved
than to listen to your nags.

please change if you want to see the change in us.

fail many times???

i don't agree we failed many many times in our internal audit,
as what was announced.

cleverly u assigned the seniors to do the checkings..

thanks to those who stayed after work to
check the case files, to ensure documentations are in order
and updated accordingly.

if u want us to pass well, why don't u be the one to check!
now that we have disappoint u, the seniors were to be blamed.
if u want us to pass well in our documentation..
i suggest u do the checking!!!

as far as i know and heard, we failed once only!

the Cold stares

feedback from some personnel claimed that we,nurses give cold stares to them!

what does he/she mean by giving them "cold stares"?

what makes he/she thinks that we are giving them that "cold stares"?
if this personnel(s) have issue with any one of us,
come straight up, confront!


we wouldn't give such stares,
if "that personnel(s)" do not do anything to us.

come and show yourself up!

u think we care..

attended that compulsory talk ... "xxx care"
now they realised that we are doing all the unnessessary work.. 90%
while 10% are real work .. valued services..

whatever..

One new AN come in, another AN leaving!
4 new SN just joined us, don't know how many will be leaving next!!

how i wish i am in one of those leaving...
especially in times like this .. audit season.
hate to pretend to like the system
so i told them so today.
i hate this "t-care" that we are doing
it's like useless cos pple jus do as how they like,
not lucky if get caught.
so when audit come.. we are told to do it properly and
accordingly but it may not be the truth..
whatever...so,
u need data .. we give u..
u want me to predict, i predict
why question me so much..?
but it's ok, i answered even though i had to strain my voice..
if i remained quiet and uninterested, u'll say i don't know my work..
i give u answers and argue a bit
then, u think i am agitated by ur questionaires?

actually.. i am not.. i am frustrated, with myself, my voice!
i have been saving my voice.. lost my voice a few days back..
i don't have that much energy to speak up.. just to answer to yr questions.
and it was 12noon, i have not had my break, i'm thirsty.. and my throat were dry,
can't u pple hear me coughing, till i want to puke!!!

the t-care...
if what i predicted, may not materialize..
then.. we just actualize accordingly..
what's the problem with that?
anyway, who is caring for the patient?
how much do u know about my patient?
i clean him 3x a day, u don't believe..

u come and work la..!!!
see whether u got time to enter those details in ur t-care, in the first place!

feels like crying..

spoke to a colleague today..
and we can sense that we are equally sad
for some reason or no reason at all..

on night, tonight

don't know which side i'll be taking, male or female.
who will be working with me..
how many patients,
any DILs or any PR problems..

what ever it is.. still have to work.
it doesnt mean the patients sleep at night
no, not most nights.
don't know why they wake up a more than a couple
of time to pee or even to BO in the middle of the night!
especially in the cold weather these days... i think
i will we expecting lots of call bells for urinals and bedpans.

miss a few pple in the ward.
hopefully everyone is doing fine and
the work load not too heavy..

hopefully, kev comes home early, that is, if he intend to skip class..
so that ..i can driveeeeeeeeee to work......yeahhoo....

been driving for the past 2 days..
and i am enjoying it..

no cure for sneezing

been sneezing too much.. till my back hurts.
seen the doctor on my off day yesterday and got 2 days mc to rest.
sneeze.. allergy to what?
had Todd next to me.. cuddled him cos he also needed some warmth
from the cold weather.. and i didn't sneeze ..
it must be the cold cold weather...
left the house, started to sneeze,
in the car also sneeze.. while driving.. sneeze,
in the coffeeshop also sneeze..

it's so tiring .. sneezing non-stop.
tearry eyes and
non-stop runny nose...
got my front t-shirt all wet from wiping off the mucus hehehe..
lazy to use the tissue paper..

the pple at home not well..
only the cats are fit.

why?

another 300 bucks gone to waste! that $$$ could have brought me to somewhere!!!
we, obviously, didn't make it..
we are going to give it a rest..
will re-take the paper again ... say.. 2 to 3 mths' time..
Save 100bucks/mth ..
make sure take leave for the paper,
L.O.C must be at super alert!
and must have the appetite to talk on speaking test day.

whatever it is, the next round must die2 pass!!!!!!

everyday go to work do the same thing.
getting sick of documentation.. especially.
another fren expressed the same thing while doing the beds..

to me , the ward is becoming like a childcare centre.
bathe and clean them, feed and change them, make them comfortable
at the end of the day.. call their family members to bring them home.

then we have the principal and vice principal.
and one of them loves to nag..nag.. nag..when no one listening
then got the HOD.. who checks on our work..
and these big shot people.. only know how to nag,
command, demand and shoot!
they can get sick but we can't
they can go for leave as and when they like..
and don't care.

tmr my off day.. don't know what to do.

i hate tues,wed, thursday....

working night shift on his school nights.
It's like 2 days and 3 nights, set as "away.."
So quiet at home.
So very quiet..
Just can't wait for my 3rd night to be over..
tonight, my second night.
tomorrow's last night.
will return on my sleep day, this friday morning ..
see u soon..

little missy-s of mine...

That's miss maybelle in the centre and miss shikin with the funny face!

they are the reasons i am still surviving in ward, though we don't really get to work on the same shift.

maybelle, she's independent and smart always in the process of beautifying herself.. she got her seasons of looks.. coloured hair, hair extensions, etc...
she never fail to surprise us or ..more like shock us!


then there's little miss shikin. she is so adorable. u jus wanna pinch her! every part of her is so pinch-able. she still have that baby face..so adorable and so love by her bf. And she's so very in love too, every second of her heartbeat.

another person that adds on the fun to our friendship is Idaaaaaaaaaaa.

Idaaaaaaaaaa, she is one brave little woman. she 's a good planner, too good, too precise and too neat. she's a nokia freak.
she's like a little secretary. no worries, she'll get things done in a jiff.
And she loves reading malay romance novels.. and she shares this passion with another little missy whom we adore.. miss nurima aka little mummy.


We will be expecting precious little princess in May.. and OMG.. month of May baby! Like me, like my best friend, YF!!!
Craziness never stops...
Little Mummy and me.. we work together quite closely cos we usually get to work on same shifts and ..somehow our childish behaviour are quite similar . And she is praying hard that her Precious will not be as hyper-active as me. hahaah!
Eh.. i don't have picure of us together, will update when available.

does my malay sound weird?

this is my colleague, S, who loves Harry Potter.
to me, she is one smart girl.
helpful,
humble
adorable.
speaks better malay than me.


today, a family member thought that she is siti, simply because she speaks better malay.
malay speaking = malay name.

the family confronted me to confirm my name. and i said yes, Siti is my name.
the next question: am i local?
i replied : yes, pure malay sg. why?
they thought that i am a thai and my malay sounded weird/funny.

i wanted to laugh. at the back of my mind... i was thinking of Idaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

Passion Run 2008

This morning's weather was great. The after the rain effect, cooling
and breeze. Ran to lower seletar reservoir and back home.
took time to relax at the fishing jetty.. fresh air and beautiful sky.

Yesterday, signed up for my first run for this year.
Early bird price $18 for 10 or 15km. Going for 10km.
Signed up for Kevin for the same distance too.

Will be held on Sunday, 8th June at East Coast Park.

Saw this brochure. Run Paradise!
Laguna Phuket International Marathon, 15 June..
Shall we go, kev ?

countdown to.. 10days, after 3pm

the test results we sat for, last weekend.
we have no confidence in passing.
we concluded that if we need to re-take,
it will have to wait.. maybe 2 to 3 mths later.
we can't afford to spend another 300 bucks.

Helloween Live!!

Last nite, best nite ever, but not enough!!!

They started out with Halloween..

You got to be there to feel it, man..
really got "magic in the air" from start to the end!!!
best concert so far for this year!
Played mostly from the older albums..
very few or little from their new one, Gambling with the Devil.
Though the crowd was unexpectedly not a huge turnout, they were.. which include me and kev...
WE were fantastic, singing, screaming, handbanging,body surfing..simply gerek!
and they, Helloween, were superb awesome!!
Best performance with great audience participation.
Everything and Everyone was GREAT!!!! But NOT ENOUGH!!!!!
And they ended off with I Want Out!

And that's what i feel about my life, right now! My work life, that is!

my ugly toe

really.. been lazy to pick up that running shoe.. no motivation.
things going slow-mo for myself, well apart from having fun...
for myself.. what do i want to achieve this yr..
well of cos.. i want to pass that paper and get myself out..
day in and day out, no feeling for work..
jus waiting for that day to come..
financial backing.. me and yf lacking .. if only we had that, we long gone liao.
hoping to leave during JCI time.,.. hehehe i think our sisters in green will scream at us!!
but then, u think we give a damn!

ok.. that's our main aim for the year.

now .. about everyday things.. what to do with me?
with kevin set as "Away" 3 out of 7 days.., got to load him with lots of vitamins and supplements so that he will not fall sick easily.
those 3 nites of classes, i wish to work on pm shift.
he's always been busy with work, day and nite.. phone call non-stop.. as times.. interrupts our sleep.. and our eca..
and on top of that, on every other days...
he has to entertain me! me and my friends, family and cats!
my husband wanted by everyone.

think, will go back to running again.. which i have not been doing for some time.
will start after i recover from this sore throat,
i lost my voice on the 3rd day of CNY.. been eating and talking too much..
Hah! more reason to start running... i feel heavy ..

but.. i also got problem with my toe nail. my right 4th toe-nail is coming off. i wanted to pull it out, but painful. Underneath that nail, there's a fresh new nail, soft and feels like flesh. So i decided to leave the outer older nail as it is, and let it come off naturally.
then the left 2nd super long toe of mine, blue black! no feeling. waiting for it to rot! haha.. i know underneath that black toe nail, lies a new nail. this happens all the time. each time i ran for some event, each toe takes its turn to turn blue black. Actually it was bleeding from within, and the nail did not get it's nutrients from the toe.. and it's called hematoma, not necrotic. i kinda get used to it. so ugly. as kev puts it as " fugly" heheehe

aiyah.. i made up my mind liao.. no matter wat
running it shall be.. starting.... i don't know when..

manhattan nd games

.. so happens that, these cheeky yet sweet and lovely girls were on morning shift and i was off on that day. it was a friday and i can't remember the date too. we planned for an evening of games.. but before that...

it was like 3 fridays back, i think. earlier that day, me and 2 others, evelyn and fellie went to check out jusco in jb.. well of cos, uncle faris drove us there. after sending these 2 lovely girls home somewhere near the hospital, we fetched the others, and suprised that derek came along. the 4 of us squeezed our butts on the back seats, while derek comfortably took the front passenger seat, and off we went to somewhere near boat quay.

we went to these seafood restuarant jus above the clark quay's station... oh my.. i am losing my memory.. i can't remember the name of that mall.... !!!! oh my god... signs of getting old, surely.. someone pls help me.

and so .. it was like a pig's out day.. eat and be merry. think derek enjoyed this get-together most. it was like a reunion dinner.

after that we, we went to Mind's Cafe, the main event of the day.

chunming's farewell

can't remember when this was.. it was sometime late January 08.. only know that it was a sunday early morning,left the house about 4am, fetched ida who leaves near to our place and dearest shikin from CCK.. reached the budget terminal almost 5am to bid farewell to chunming.

the rest of the girls had spent the night with her somewhere at geylang area.. and it seemed that they had quite an experience from that one night at hotel88 :)

wish chunming all the best and i hope to keep in touch with her, but the prob is that i don't have any of her contacts. but nevermind.. she will always be in my heart. she is one of the best coaches in ward.. always feel comfortable working with her. thanks for being my friend too.

did not see her off exactly as we had to leave for morning shift work ... me and shikin. kev send ida home and then straight to work.

"thanks for getting up super early, drove us to budget terminal and took all these beautiful pictures. we love u, uncle faris", says ida, shikin and me. heheehee..

Island Getaway part 2 : 15012008

and so, we went to Pulau Ubin.. with kevin. did not get to cover the whole island, as we had to leave at 2pm as our parking coupon expired at that time. plus, yf had to be home early to get some rest before reporting for night duty.
smsed some other friends to join us to ubin again to cover the balance of the island. and when it that be? well.. hmmm.. got to wait till everyone of us have the same off day!

results..

supposed to get the test results today, but the website doesn't seemed to be working. no emails too. so, jus have to wait for the results in my letter-box. whatever the result be, it doesn't matter anymore. pass or fail.. i still have to sit for similar but slightly tougher paper next month.

i really want this .. i do not want to waste much time... age is catching up..
thankful to have one good friend who is doing this with me...
glad to have met her.. never knew that we'd be best friends... (i think we are best friends now, are we?)

and knowing kev is and has always been by my side, loving me and caring for me.. given me all the attention i always wanted.. all the time..all these while..
i really want to make him happy .. very happy +++ ...
i have to make this happen.. just for us.
got to build back what i have destroyed..
the love, the happiness, the sunshine, the joy, the laughters...
God, pls help me achieve this.

i must say that i am still very sad, i regret,
there wouldn't be a second chance.. but u given me
.. the tears have not run dry.. and will never run dry for me..
it will never end..
and if i can't make things as good as before
as fun as before
as beautiful as before
.. then i see the end of me..

Island Getaway: Part 1

Drove up to Changi Village one sunday morning with none other than my one and only girlfriend, who loves the sun, the sea and the sand, Yf.

The day before that, we sat for the "test" , but only to find out, sadly that we had registered and therefore sat for the wrong paper! It was the most expensive mistake we made. How can we be so careless?!!! How to "make it" like this?? There was nothing we can do now, but only to pay $$$ again for the next correct test, and of course, enjoy the rest of our off days which we had planned for.

After the written test, we joined kev at sento.

then, the following day, went to changi village. actually, we wanted to go to Pulau Ubin but decide to wait for kev, to go with.

then, the following that day, after we sat for our oral/speech test, we went to sento again. Reached sento and it rained so heavily. Again nothing much we can do about it, so we played under the rain. We ignored the Red Flag, and got whistled away by the lifeguards, to stay out of the water.

And the next morning , Kev's day off and the 3 of us went for a short island getaway.. to Pulau Ubin, of course. Part 2 for pictures taken from Yf's digicam. We were not able to cover the whole island on that day, cos yf had to work nite that day. So, part 3 .. anytime soon.

So basically, nothing much was done over that weekend but just fun! fun! fun! And I love it!!! Well... except for having that thought of paying $$$ to re-do the test!

Sunrise at Desaru

The morning was cool and breezy, with the high waves crashing to its golden sandy beach. We were at the beach as early as 0630hrs.. took some photos by the beach while waiting for the sun to come out. The sun, eventually made its appearance from behind the clouds and gave that beautiful picture- perfect sun rays instead. Awesome.

Think we were the only guests at that resort. We had the beach all to ourselves.

After preparing the food stuff for the evening bbq, we quickly got changed and eager to hit the beach. Before crossing over a small wooden bridge, stood a red flag with a signboard stating that the beach is closed as it is not safe for swimming. But we chose to ignore it.

We held hands and ran straight towards the sea, and were ready to be swept away by the strong and high waves back to the shore.. Had great fun playing with great company of friends who loves the sun, the sea, and nature.

With the help of GPS, think we can safely visit Desaru again in the near future. And maybe, the next time, Kev will allow me to drive on Malaysia road.

nOise in my tummy..

blogging while my junoir sent one of my patient for an MRI brain/MRA, and while the other 2 either playing games or glued to you tube. not everytime i get to relax and do this.. most of the time, i would struggle with IVs around this time.. but not tonight. Tonight i can breathe eventhough, there's 4 new cases to attend to, still waiting for the 1 to be admitted.

Can't open my eyes .. so dead tired today. The 2 episodes of vomiting earlier this afternoon, is making me feel so weak and drowsy. Looking pale when stepped into the ward, noticed by some here. And if only i have not answered that phone call, maybe i would not be kept awake and having this abdominal discomfort and vomitted. Arrgh,.. i can hear my tummy juices churning...

Lots of food in the ward.. ordered pizza.. and a colleague brought some donuts, but just couldn't make myself enjoy eating it. Oh... there goes the sound in my tummy again! Am I hungry or what? But i am afraid to eat, afraid that i might jus throw up again.

Since the ward's a little less hectic, i think i better take a short nap. Been standing, in this utility room using the phlebo's laptop updating my long time never updated blog. Better get out before i faint in here..

Actually, my colleague, Shikin asking.. on my updates ,the previous night. Well girl, here it is.

Well actually, there's so much going on in my life.. all the past events, good and bad, happy and sad.. memories of it all, etched in my head.. everyday when i am alone, on a bus or mrt journey to/from work/home, for instance, i think about my life, my wrong doings, my ugly behaviour, what more can i do to improve on myself, thinking of some of the things i should focus on, people i love and must care for, ...and so on, which have it all reflected and probably blogged in my head instead :)