Lost..

 

Morning run on a Sunday feels different from any other day.. the sun seems brighter.. the sky so blue and the people seemed friendlier.. So this morning.. i decided to go beyond Lower Seletar Reservoir, thinking that it will led me to Yio Chu Kang.. somewhere along Lentor. But nope... I found myself running along the Seletar runway.. after the Seletar Country Club. I've never been to this place before.. i simply followed some cyclist .. surely it will bring me to somewhere.. so there's nothing to worry about. The stretch of road was like endless .. , 2-lanes traffic and no safe pavement to run. I didn't know where i was really till i saw some road names and directions. No other souls along the road, except for the oncoming cars, lorries and motorist were travelling at fast speed. Felt a little frightened and lost. But i carried on running..
Finally i ended up at the entrance of Seletar Camp .. where i saw the familiar TransIsland bus no 858.
I could take the bus home.. but then.. i decided to continue .. ran towards Jalan Kayu, got myself 100 plus and continued..till I reached Yio Chu Kang Road- AMK industrial area..
I ended up at Yio Chu Kang Mrt, took train home. Enjoyed my Sunday morning run.. i hope to do it again..with Kevin. Don't want to venture alone.

The ward's full house and the night went smoothly except for the occassional call bells asking for bed pan. The men had their urinals by their bed side.. and there's this one patient whom we hate to attend, a 25yr old Mr Bed 57. He was admitted for tibia fracture after playing football, and ORIF done to his right tibia 2 days ago. Other body parts, especially his 2 upper limbs are fine and functional.. but strangely, whenever he wanted to pee, he would require our assistance to hold his penis into the urinal bottle!! So each time, he pressed the call bell ..our first guess was that he wanted us for that reason, and none of us wanted to go to him. But we got no choice and not let the call bell ring for very long.

Another call bell queen would be Aunty Bed 32, on diapers and constantly peeing every hour to 2 hours .. so we changed her at least 3 times.

The best patient for the night would be 60+ year old New Zealander MR Bed 48 who stayed up with us, playing somekind of strategic game on his laptop. Then, about 5am, found him already changed to clean pyjamas and reading his book.

I was not tired at all, had my meal with the rest of my colleagues. The SNs even managed to take half to one hr nap, but i didn't. Not tired or sleepy at all, surfed the internet.. drank lots of water, 2 cups of coffee and 1 cup of chocolate cereal drink.

Thought that i could go for a swim after work.. but while waiting for the doctor to see Kev for his URTI, my eyes cannot open .. dozed off.. wah.. sleepy to the max.

Reached home about 1030hrs, quickly bathed and zzzzzzzzzz

Phone call woke me up and and could not get back to zzzzz again.
Felt hungry. Got up, do some laundry and cooked myojo.

Lower Seletar Reservoir

jus returned from morning run... and the morning has been kind.. breezy and not too hot.

Set out after kev left for work.. did some stretching at the void deck, time checked 0745hrs .., and with Alannah Myles' Bad For You playing .. off i went. Ran the usual route towards Yishun Park. Instead of heading towards Safra Country Club, i decided to go left and head to Orchid Country Club and continue my way up to Lower Seletar.
The morning traffic wasn't busy at all, cool weather and quite breezy . Saw only 1 jogger and 2 walkers.. along the stretch of the OCC road.

Time checked: 0825hrs..i reached the reservior. No joggers seen but young boys fishing. Many cars and lorries passing by .. and got police patrolling the area too, and there's the road cleaners.. so i think it's safe to come here again..

I'm not too sure how far i have ran. I am jus glad that i reached somewhere. Satisfied.

While running, i took note of some songs which are good for running. Some songs from White Zombie, Drowning Pool, Alannah Myles, Angel Dust, Cinderalla, Alter Bridge, Creed and Taiwan's ShiN.. kept me going...

Took some time to appreciate my surroundings ... took some pics.. and jogged home.

Cinderalla's Coming Home gave a perfect ending to today's run. Best!!

starting night duty from tomorrow onwards for three nights.. then sleepday, PH and off day.. Yeah.. can play!!! But then, kev is not feeling well. His face was red when i met him this evening. He picked me up from YT Mrt to visit my parents. They returned from Umrah this afternoon.

Over at my parents', he had an episode of SOB.. thank god i got my ventolin in the car. After dinner and the puff, think he felt better and after our little nephews and niece with their parents left, Kevin fell asleep on my lap while watching the tv. My poor husband.. been working very hard for the past few weeks and mths . And not having enough sleep too. Whenever i had to got to work in the morning, he too had to wake up early .. as early as 0545hrs, to send me to work. Sometimes, i wanted to leave the house while he's sleeping. So tonight, sleep more.. no pc for u.. I love you. Pls get better, so that i won't worry abt u when i am at work. You know, I always need to be with you whenever u're not well.
Gave him muscle relaxant tabs.. hopefully he'll be able to sleep well and be ok tmr when he wakes up. ( i better finish this up to join him in bed)

it's audit day today and my ward failed again. not going to talk abt it cos i don't care and i don't give a damn.

been wanting to cut my hair.. and so i did today after work. still kept the length but had it layered... my head's so light now.. that i feel like going for a run...

so, run ... it will be..for me, tomorrow morning , to somewhere .. not too sure yet..

I want out..

Last week was one of the worst weeks i ever had at work. I almost broke down into tears while working on that very day.. after i told off the Nurse Clinician that she can extend my probation as long as she wants if she thinks i still need improvement or incompetent. My probation period supposed to end this month.. and,I actually told her that i am not looking forward to my confirmation day. I really don't care...

No point complaining so much abt work to these group of people who checks on our clinical skills.. it won't change anything.. they expects too much from us when they given us lousy training..

Last week, i was assessed on resuscitation. I failed to meet a few criteria.. they are: name the things i can find in the e-trolley.. drawer by drawer.. and the common drugs. The rest of it.. preparing/ assisting with ETT , bagging and AED - passed.

AED.. Automated External Defibrillator .. I am not trained to use this equipment at all. Even if not trained , we are expected to know it's functions and able to function it. No problem.. i can do.. i can answer to all the questions asked.. but there's no need for you people to say something like " oh.. u're the SMCP batch" and give me that look as if my batch cannot make it. At the end of it.. she added on and said " well u're ok but still need to be prompted".

Obviously i failed in that stupid assessment, and i had to face my ward clinician for another round of re-assessment. How to pass?? Nothing was given to us to read. U expect us to go to Route21 or the E-learning .. where got time? She told me that she was a bit disappointed with my performance.. that i was doing well as a student but now has slackened.. ..
She suggestted that i should stay back after work to go through the processess.. HELLO!! u pple been single all ur life.. and not having any life outside... think that i got a lot of time ,is it?!!! That was the day when I really wanted to give up !! The day when i told her that she can extend my probation as long as she like.. it doesn't really matter..
So what if i am confirmed? No extra pay .. still have to face the same shit every day.

On that same day.. the Pain Team was doing their round and questioning me patient's condition..and their pain medicine..all this questioning ..while i was serving medication and at that same time.. the doctors were haunting me for missing case files!!!! It was worst than a fish market!! They made me confused.. too much noise in my head!!! and the Inpatient Medical Records where so messy.. which caused me to make 1 medication error. I placed the wrong medicine to a wrong patient and worst part was that the Pain Team saw it and pointed it out to me.. kena from her left right centre.. in front of patient..and doctors.. make me name all the medication in that medicine cup which i had dispensed. I was so damn confused.. deep inside, i was crying for help.. These people should know better that I should not be disturbed while serving medicines..!!!! That morning, i took the longest time to finish with serving medicine. I went without food and drink on that day.. finish work at 4.30pm instead of the official 3pm. Thanks to all the health care professionals who took away my precious break time.

I don;t know what to feel after what had happened. I don;t really mind the work.. but it is the way how things are going at work, which i hate. Told my bestfriend abt it.. and the more she tried to comfort me..made me cry.. we both experienced the similar situation.. or even worst in her case.. we are very sad to be trapped in this organisation.. Not feeling that too well emotionally.. i skipped work the following day.

Movie cum Pool Day

Jus signed up for this yr's Mizuno Wave Run today. It will be held on 22 July, and no longer at Kovan Hub. This year's run will be starting from Tampines Polytechinic Sports Stadium - Bedok Reservoir Loop - North along TP Main Road - and ends at TP Sports Stadium. I would like to recce the route one day if i have the time to do so, but meantime.., i'll jus run around my usual neighbouring area. With the new 10-km route, I hope to do better than last yr's 1hr 13mins.

It's Movie Day today organised by Kevin's company, at discounted price.. we watched Fantastic 4.. better than Pirates of the Caribbean. But, Ocean 13 is better.

After movie, we headed to Marina Square.. where i registered for the run and the guys played a few rounds of pool. I did too but i wasn't good at all.. i don't even know how to hold the stick. Maybe it's not my kind of game, but i would love to learn..

Drove the guys home.. and washed our dirty car at the end of the day. Did a quick wash so that we can rest early tonight.. as we both got to work tomorrow morning..

So far, today has been good. Good movie, good food, and good pool session - as what kevin said. It would have been almost a "fantastic" day, if not for the constant phonecalls kevin received from his boss and colleaques, asking him about work!!

i honestly love you

Maybe i hang around here
A little more than i should
We both know i got somewhere else to go
But i got something to tell you
That i never thought i would
But i believe you really ought to know

I love you
I honestly love you

You don't have to answer
I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
This is pure and simple
And you should realize
That it's coming from my heart and not my head

I love you
I honestly love you

I'm not trying to make you feel uncomfortable
I'm not trying to make you anything at all
But this feeling doesn't come along everyday
And you shouldn't blow the chance
When you've got the chance to say

I love you
I honestly love you

If we both were born
In another place and time
This moment might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours
And here i am with mine
So i guess we'll just be leaving it at this

I love you
I honestly love you

I honestly love you
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Artist: Olivia Newton-john
Album: If You Love Me Let Me Know
Title: I Honestly Love You

A Good Morning.. and still is

This morning i decided to go for a short run after i was been told to rise and shine.. It was about 1115hr and the weather was good and windy.. but later on, the sun was just above my head and i could not take the heat.. but overall, it was a good late morning run..

After returning home from the run, had quick bite, shower and off for work.

Best part of today.. No Monday blues... I did not feel tired at work and even till now.. i am fully awake.
At work, everything went smoothly .. no hiccups.. Plus, i got to take my dinner .. and drank lots of water and able to go toilet, which i don't really get to do for the past few days/weeks..

And my colleaque, B.. who assists me.. came to me and said.. " I love U" for whatever reasons.. i replied to her, that i love her too, and we hugged. Awwww... Love is in the air..

Oh dear.. i don't know how am i going to cope tomorrow morning at work. I should be sleeping right now.. Kevin already sleeping.. while my eyes still wide open.. just like this morning..

Set my alarm at 0520hrs.. .. looking forward for Tuesday.. hopefully it will be jus as good as today..

Plans for tmr: Movie at GV plaza @ 8pm.

a friend told me that we can't possibly understand how others feel if we are not there to experience it..............and ............ we never thought that we will be paid that miserably and we were being over-worked, with only 1 rest day per week.

and............ it is not that we got to rest on the 7th day after 6 days of hard work.. on bad situations, we struggled 8 days then, scheduled for rest on 9th day.

morning shifts starts at 7. another friend of mine stayed somewhere far in the west.. has to get up as early as 0500hrs i think so that she can reach work by 0645hrs. She didn't usually have to do this.. but because lately, her car which she used to drive to work daily, which she parked at her usual Staff car park, was being clamped. Reason being that she is just a Staff Nurse. Staff Nurses not entitled for a lot. She was told not to drive to work since there's no lots for SNs.. by the security officers.

these are some of the things i hate about my work and workplace
1- unpredictable Off-days
2- miserable pay for the amount of work we do
3- no parking lots for SNs
4- only 2 set of scrubs given.. wear 2-3 times then wash.. where's the infection control..?
5- difficult to take leave

more to list down..

always looking for off days.. or whenever there's opportunity to play ..
but it seems so hard to comeby

work schedule is killing me..
something is not rite with the system..
or really shortage of staff..

can't stop pple from coming to the A&E
but sometimes.. these pple come for no reason
especially on mondays .. my fren told me..
they came...
complaining of chest pain ..
headache..
gastric pain
muscle spasm.. etc

things that are not to be taken lightly..
so .. got themselves admitted to be observed for a day or 2,
then discharge with mc for a couple more days..

already we got shortage of beds and space..

exhausting our resources...

why like that..

whatever we say, they, not related to us.. would listen
but whenever we tell it to our own family member, half of the time, they prefer to listen to others...
why is that so?

it's so difficult to be in this line ..
anything good done.. oh..no comment.. no suprise
but should anything go wrong... there'll be lots of queries.. pple start to talk..
why is that so too?

not getting involved would also mean .. like.. knowing it but ignoring , neglecting..
getting involved .. is the same as .. add-on commitment ..stress..

so how.. want to help but time so limited..

stress... time.. are just excuses..

so how now..

caring for the caregiver..

am getting tired ... too much to handle at work..
am not complaining , not that i am not competent ...
and pls don't tell me about time management...

still new in this line of work .. the past 2 yrs attachments did not exactly
prepare me or any of us for this...
taking on multiple roles at a time... can be very risky..
as everyone chipped in to help one another... it may help or even make things worst

i am lost..
no proper guidance on the work process , jus directions given to me..
jus following instructions .. learn day by day as I moved on...
don't tell me to open up the the work processes to read on it...
cos half of the pcs and cows..(cows on wheels) not functioning..
and no time in my hands to spare for such...

most of the time.. i nurse the papers than the patient..
only see them while serving medicines.. and at the same time do some inspection and PR ..
half of the time.. rushing to do things for each patient
whatever little portion of time i have left are to make calls.. and i hate finding telephone numbers from that one and only black folder.. and i don't know who i am calling for..
and in the end, i have very little or no time to hydrate,
constantly on my feet...
exhausted..
..past few days have not been eating well.. or not eating at all.. jus a bit of curry puff from polar,

one fainted ..
some already taking sick leave

at the end of the day... i take deep breath and stood in the center of the ward,
paused awhile.. relieved.. but i know nothing of what i have done after such hectic day..


staff strength stretched to the limit..
at times, there's a need to call back those on leave or having their off day

off days are precious as we work 6 days week.
so don't expect us to turn on our mobile and being called in

one said.. think for the patient is our priority.. got to care for patient first..
that's where she's wrong..
if only i could say this to her...
" care for the "care-giver"..." and that's us, " so that we can care for others"

with very few of us running the show..
and me .. being new ...
am trying very hard to cope..
doing my best,

hope not to get sick.. and that matters most ..

now.. i am exhausted..

Nothing much happening.. except that .. recently, i cleared my driving test on 6th March, after 40sessions of practical lessons. My 2nd attempt. Happy la of cos... don't have to step into SSDC anymore.. hated walking to the driving centre from Yio Chu Kang Mrt .. very far.. so very the lazy to walk in.. and i heard that SSDC will be shifting to Woodlands industrial park area... wah.. i can imagine that the place is going to be more ulu (faraway) ..

anyway... people say that at SSDC, it is easy to pass... or very fast can pass..
registered in late April but only started the practical lessons in May last yr.
Didn't go for any practices sometime in july for almost 2mths, and 1 mth in January this yr.. so basically, i took abt 7-8mths.

And now i got a driving license and started driving to work. But unfortunately, can't park at my work place as I am not entitled to have a parking space at all. Stupid rules says that only those ranks as the senior staff nurses and above have the privileges, while the parking lot stated clearly as " Staff Carpark " . Discriminating.. isn't it?

And it's none of their business ( the security officers ) .. that i have a car to drive to work. And they told me that i should take the public transport.. and they even questioned me why i need the car for.. I am totally angry with the whole hospital system now!!

So meantime, Kev took over after I reach the hospital..

Anyway.. i can't drive alone yet. Kevin needs to be beside me.. as i am not steady yet.

2nd Day CNY

Canceled trip to Sentosa as it was raining very heavily as we passed by the ECP Keppel.. We went visiting instead.. to Serene's and Kenji's place.

Managed to visit Mary's place at Hougang.. before heading home.. Very nice house.. i like it.. spacious, cozy and smells new too....

First Day Chinese New Year

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Phew..! I almost missed my usual 10am Korean drama on channel U , as i was busy mopping the floor and clearing the rice and soup bowls on the dish rack into the cabinets.

Immediately after the Korean drama ended at noon, went to cold storage to get some groceries to cook for dinner. Need not worry about lunch cos, papa decided to pack "sop kambing" from Jalan Besar Food Center.. very famous one.. nice.. i like..

Serene and Ak came with parents and grandma but left earlier.
Oh.. Gong Gong did not join us today..
Kev's cousins came with their partners.. and stayed till late afternoon. They like cats too..

Later in the evening, Mama rec'd call from Christine in NZ. Her time was close to midnight.. The family chatted over Google Chat .. including popo who has hearing problem..

Lastly, dinner was served.. Cooked Asam Fish Head, Water cres chicken soup, fried eggs with tomatoes and veggies..

My right hand a bit weak now... tired i think..
But i am not complaining..
i like receiving guests..
i enjoy cooking, even though i am not good at it and half of the time,
i got problem deciding on what to cook,
Overall... i like everything that i do for my family..
Everyone is happy today... and Kevin loves me, i know.. *wink wink * hehehe...

Me ...

Right now.. since yesterday.. kev been watching his chinese drama dvd.. trying to finish it and have it returned asap.

so i am actually a bit bored. i wouldn't know what to do, if we do not have wireless.

i have been reading about health matters, related to my patient's diagnosis.. but it's so difficult to remember what i have read... how ah... i think the grey matter in my brain a lot liao.. i am getting old i know... i got wrinkles .. so obvious that i don't want to smile too wide or laugh hilariously liao.. but if i don't smile and be like how i am, i looked troubled and sad.. and pple start to query.. i feel that i am looking so old and behaving like one too when i am with my new colleagues.. whom most of them are more than 7 yrs younger ..i am one of the oldest.. and i am older than my preceptor! Grey hair starting to be obvious too ... and..uhhh.. kev still looking so good... how ah...

lately, yf said that i am fat! OMG... i better do something... i have not been running since the ultra end last year.. better get back to running to shed some weight and start toning up .. got weights at home also never make use.. useless me.

Ok .. my resolution ... Don't be lazy !

A Quiet.. Chinese New Year Eve...

kevin said.. every time, on eve of CNY .. every where quiet... like ghost town..

The hospital is quiet too. My ward.. one room is closed.. no occupancy. But i bet, after CNY, there surely have a lot of admission.. diabetic patients especially.

tonight me and kev had our own reunion dinner... from left over food from the night before... a mini steamboat..

I am now thinking of what to cook for tomorrow... rice with dishes or fried bihun?

I think some of kev's relatives will be visit us.. since my inlaw will be at my place after church service.. and surely they gonna be having lunch over at my place... so what to cook ah? I have to be careful with my choice of food to cook.. as kev's dad is diabetic, type II. And lately his right big toe is injured.. so he has to be very cautious of his diet so as not to have his sugar level raised..

I hope i will be able to cope with my cooking and entertaining of guest come tomorrow.

Next year, i don't think i will be able to celebrate CNY like right now... away from work. Some of my chinese colleaques will be back at ward on 2nd day of CNY. My preceptor working night tmr, 1st day cny. In future, my work schedule will be so unpredictable.. i don't know how i am going to cope with the 3 shifts.

Reunion Dinner 2007

Steamboat cum BBQ for reunion dinner last night.

To all, Gong Xi Fai Cai!!! ... Wishing all a happy, healthy and prosperous New Year !!

High fever...

my sayang sick... spike fever few nites ago.. highest 37.9 deg- 2 nites ago. Tonight, 37.6 deg. Seen doctor 3x.. got mc for today and tmr.

Besides fever, he complaint of ache around his cheek bone and the doc mentioned that it cld be due to stuffy nose.. that created the pressure from within .. hmmm.. watever it is ..he is taking too much of different medication..from 3 different doctors. And i hate to see him taking those medications.. drug toxicity.. bad for the liver. To me, all he need is rest... good rest.

Life been stressful for him .. and for me.. ever since 2 yrs back.. when i started to go back to study full time nursing.. and followed by events... one by one, his family members were admitted to the hospital. First, it was papa with diabetic foot debridement at CGH, then.. Grandma ..in ICU for hypertension and Grandpa went for op for peptic ulcer at TTSH. At the same time... he had to juggle with his part time degree course.. All in all... he has been very occupied .. with work , family and other commitments and especially me! ON and Off, he will be down with common flu, persistent cough, fatigue and on top of all that ,stress has always been one of the contributing factor.

Today half of us were assigned to our respective ward for e-trolley and laerdal resuscitator skill competency assessment.. while some others at skills lab for resuscitation skills.

It is still too early to say how i feel abt this ward even though i have worked in this same ward during my PRCP. Though I blend in well with the ward staff, but i think they have some degree of expectation on me. Coming back to the same ward may not be a good thing .. i feel a bit pressured . .. i need to improve some skills, which may not been taught yet.. I need to be confident, they always mentioned abt having good critical thinking and patient management and stuff.. which is too broad and general.. which i don't think i can learn in one day.... and communication skills, especially. Cannot say anything nice.. don't say a word.. jUst be nice...

Be patient and do not panic.. and do not rush into doing things. Must think , think , think!!! Do things with rationale.. but must also work fast.. try not to be too helpful, else i can't finish my own things.. prioritize .. try to avoid silly mistakes .. and don't be clumsy..


At the end of the day.. must be able to smile and be happy with what i have done for the day.. get back to normal, enjoy the rest of the day with my love ones.. And start fresh the next morning.

oh yah.. surely got unpleasant things happening very day.. so what to do?

I hope my friends are doing fine with their new colleagues.. and things get better for those who are not comfortable and those who have not get accustomed to the ward style.. All the best to all and lets get through this together.. for next 3yrs and see how it goes from there...

Graduate Transition Program

Transition program, starting this month and will be ending around early May. Packed with lessons quite similar what we already had in school except that it includes the hospital's standard practices and work process. Just sitting to listen to the speakers can be a bit tiring and, at times .. i slept with my eyes open,staring blankly onto the powerpoint slides. We will be awake if someone asked questions.. awake because of their nonsensical question asked.. what a waste of time!

We will be tested throughout the program.. and truthfully, i am not prepared for it. My anxiety level is at the peak right now..i want to go to ward and start picking up things and learn at the same time, from the ward itself.. not in classroom or skills lab.

So meantime, right now.. I have nothing much to do .. except to read up certain things.. enjoy office hour schedule

Probation period is 6mths.. and will be required to do night shift by the 4th mth.

Again i have to say this.. the pay is miserable.

Since i'll be having some free time in the evenings, i will try to go for my driving practical lessons. Test date getting nearer and I don't have much time left, and financially not healthy too.. i can't afford to fail.


Update on past activities with friends..


We were at Sento on Sunday, 28th.. and we were there again the following day..
Went to the Airport in the morning.. Guessed it was monday.. and airport not busy.. not many planes taking off and landing.. Me and YF realised that we are not the indoor type.. cannot survive.. without the sun, sand and sea... And so, off to Sento again...



Then, the next day, Tuesday 30th... me, shiken and yf cycled at East Coast Park. Did not play with water.. jus cycle.


Then.... the following day..31 Jan,
Returning from Jurong East Swim Complex.. we took this pic at Lot 1, basement carpark lift lobby.



Then... the same evening .. Kev completed his ICT and, without any tickets, went down to the National stadium to the soccer! A kind couple saw us coming out for the ticketing booth, sold us 2 tickets for the same price.. but we gave him ten each. We were lucky. Sin 2: Thai 1.

27 January: Mum's place

Received sms early morning .. read as.." Raining here, got sore throat,hope to comeback to tonight to sleep..."

Oh yes, yes .. jus comeback .. late also comeback pls.. take cab!

And shortly after that, kev called. I have been alone at home most of the time, as he is away for reservist..(but almost everyday i also got go out hehehe..) the house is quiet and obviously got no one to talk to except, scolding the cats... or play "chak" with my cats.. other than that, self talk ..

It has been raining since yesterday afternoon while i was at my mum's. Spend half a day there, and the house noisy and out of control with my 3yr old nephew, Idris playing and screaming .. together with the rest of his sibling and cousins, while my eldest sister was having her computer lesson in another room taught by one of the SAVH (S'pore assoc for the visually handicapped) teacher, who is also blind. They had problems getting into the internet.. not able to dial up successfully, and they had been sitting and figuring why cannot log in... each time a window pops up, a voice will tell them what it is and instructions will be given to help in navigating. Actually it's not that simple. But these people are jus amazing... I realised that i've never nursed a sick and blind patient or came across any blind patient... (except for one who's at IMH.. this one different story)

Blame it on the weather or what.. everyone is falling sick.

I hope today's weather be fine.. no sun nevermind... but don't rain.. cos last night, me and YF decided to either go to the Zoo, cycling or swimming .... and it all require good weather... sunny would be best!

Well, see how it goes later......

28 January: Sentosa with YF





30 January : to the airport, sentosa again ..


Tomorrow : Cycle/Swim @ East Coast Beach

rain ? Not again....

Kevin sms-ed to tell me that the sky looks very dark over at Sentosa and it is windy over at his side of the island. Then, after that, followed by YF's sms saying that it's raining over at Hougang. I got up, looked out my kitchen window... could tell that it had rained earlier as the road was wet. But .. the sky is clear.. but when i went to look out from my living room window.. dark clouds passing over.. aiyah..
So how now? No plan B.. cos we thought the raining season has gone.. Yesterday weather was jus great.. each time we planned for something outdoor, the dark clouds want to be part of it.. what to do? We can only plan... the One decides...

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Anyhow... Plan B: Little India.

YF brought me to one of the beauty salon at Little India for eye brow threading..
told the lady .. that it's my first time.. so hopefully she'll be gentle with me.
YF stood closely to take photos... luckily,did the eyes only, not the whole face. I can't bear with the pain, maybe it was my first time... can't wait to get out of that chair.. But nevermind.. then YF said something like ... "want to look pretty, want to look nice.... tahan the pain lor!" Yeah.. she's right... so now.. as she said.. the face looks freshier, less bushy.... hmmm.. less bushy.. hahaha!!




Back to Plan A : Sento

About 1 pm, me and YF left India for Sentosa.. and met up with the rest, Shiken, Laila, Karen and Cheng Gek. Both K and CG, were there earlier for sight- seeing, visited the Images of Singapore and CG seemed to liked it after listening to how she described the place with full of facial expression and actions. So i guessed the admission price quite worth it.

It drizzzled a bit over at Sentosa.. but that didn't stop us from playing..
It was a perfect day for all as most were happy that there's no Sun! Oh.. except of YF, unfortunately she couldn't get into the water.. for some *reasons...
so we had her to be our camera-woman! She really did a good job.. as it all turned out perfect as well :) Tango Yankee... YF, next time u hold my camera while i poise.. hehe

here are some of the pics taken... the rest had to be censored*

Play water.. again and again

Last Monday, the day we have been waiting for.. Good weather no rain.. Cannot waste this day!
So, off to Jurong West Swim Complex, we went. We didn't check the operating hours, but fortunately it was opened. The complex closes on Tuesdays as stated in front of the lift entrance.

The weather was so hot that when we took photo.. our faces were darken by the bright background.. we were already so dark ourselves.. the picture turnout dark dark also..

We should have just bought the water camera.. There were like less that 10 customers there.. and we were the only 3 with the giant float.. enjoying the lazy river.. all for ourselves.. it was like a private pool.



After playing.. then next best thing to do is Eat!
Pizza Hut has improved greatly, so we took this chance to go Pizza Hut to eat since we can't possibly eat alone. Must have gang to eat one.. 2 not enough.. 3 people better.. can order bigger pan .. not personal pan.. and wow! this I must say.. the sauce called the cool mayo .. was the best.. !!! not so jelak.. got sour-ry taste and it blends so well with supper supreme toppings, as compared to the usual tomato sauce. And, the cool mayo with seafood tastes so mayo-deliciousssss........

Oh.. kevin came back late evening.. again.. like before.. dump dirty stuff into the washer, and left for Japanese movie, Ghost Tunnel at Cathy, causeway point. All japanese ghost looks the same, they crawl and wears long overflowing hair..with big dark eyes, super big white face and super slim body.. like Juon, The Grudge..

eerreee.. eerie... i forgotten that i'll be alone at home.. ceh.. this kevin ah.. make my heart beat so fast liao.. somemore tonight i still cannot sleep.. don't know how come i don;t feel tired.. infact again today (tuesday), i went out to play at Jurong East Swim complex. This time with YF and Laila..

Laila smsed early morning to ask about the swimming stuff..It was my mistake for not calling her to come along yesterday to JW swim complex.

So me and YF, morning morning.. breathed out the word sianz...and we really don't mind the sun and playing with water.. we decided to go out!!! Wah we suddenly became so alive! Eyes open big big... say the word play wah.. no need to think twice. Pack and go!

And so we went. Kev left for camp. Me and YF met up with Laila at KFC, JE swim complex. Good weather too.. with slight rain later part of the day.
After we got changed, we saw the wave pool was already been activated.. Me and YF left Laila behind (she eating her kfc), ran like small children like never been to the pool before.. started to swim into the center to enjoy the waves and the water being prayed from above.. like rain falling into us. . and jus as we start to get excited, it all stopped.. it was over!!! oh we were so embarrassed... no wonder, some swimmers already started to relax by the pool.

Again, like as if, we owned the lazy river, with our giant float, round and round we went.. the wave pool was activated every top of the hour. So we stoodby the pool 10 mins into the hour.. making sure that we won't miss it.

And oh,yes.. we daringly slide down the circular tubes.. if only there's lift to bring us up.. we would have played the slide over and over again...making full use of the rented giant float. Anyhow.. the 3 of us were so damn lazy to climb up the stairs.

We ended the day by going to the IMM for lunch cum dinner at the Banquet. Then walk-walk at Daiso.. and then bye bye.

Tmr, as in Wednesday, i planned to visit my mother in law.
On Thursday, we planned to go to Sentosa
On Friday, we hope to go to Ubin.
Next week, we planned to go swim at Chua Chu Kang complex.
And also to Little India to do eye threading,
and also.. if got time, to go treat and trim my long hair..
then after that...
Get my uniforms ready for work by 1st Feb.
Then, there's where my new journey will begin.

play play play... everyday .. and still not enuf

15 January : Vivocity

The zoo trip was cancelled as most of my frens couldn't make it. Me and Shiken didn't want to laze at home, and since the weather was good, we decided to go to East Coast to cycle. But unfortunately, every time we are together, the weather changed. It started to rain when we were on our way there, along the ECP, U-turn at Fort Road and Shiken drove toward Vivocity instead.

Well, there's nothing much we could do there ... we could only think of eating and then, took some pics, and played some games at the Arcade.

Die-die before we start work.. must go cycling! Must make sure!

On this day too, we got to know the ward we'll be going to work start 1st Feb. I will be returning to the same ward. But my friend, HP and YF won't be. They tried talking to the person in-charge but they did not get a pleasant response. Some got lucky where they got to go to the specialized ward of their choice.

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16 January: SIM and Sentosa

Kevin booked out early this morning, given a day's off and to report back by the next day by noon.

Met up at Clementi, went to SIM to collect his course materials, headed back home asap as Papa coming over to collect some things. And once the washer ended, hanged his army uniform and other stuffs to dry, and then, to Sentosa we went. The weather was suprisingly cloudy, no rain.

Reached home in time to watch BlogTv which featured our friend , Haznita with her child, D , "who says my mum doesn't blog?" , i think that was the title.

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17 January: SGH , Newton Food Centre

Left house with kevin. Bye bye.. he went back to camp.

I brought my mum to SGH for eye check-up. Very long wait at the clinic, about 2 hrs before she gets to see the doctor. We left the hospital at about 5:30pm and the train was so crowded, mum didn't get to sit. She complained her leg pain... must be after too much walking .. she really got no energy.. leg not strong also.. how to help her? Hmmm... i also don't know what to do.

then bye bye to mum at yew tee, i made my way to jurong east, meet up with Shiken for dinner. craved for chilli crab.. so we went to Newton Food Centre. YF joined us too after she had her spa session. So again.. eat eat eat... chit chat... chat abt what to do next.. ? Next activity: to the zoo, cycle at Ubin and swimming at the new swimming complex at Jurong West... Must do it before start work!!!

Shiken ordered gong gong... wah best!

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18 January : Juli's house

we spent the day at juli's beautiful baywater ...
supposed to make use of the facilities there,but we ended up eat, eat and eat... chat and chat ....
This photo taken in Juli's daughter's bedroom... princess's room.. so sweet and pink.




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19 January: TTSH and movie


Early morning went for medical checkup and collect our scrubs at TTSH together with YF.
Laila met up with us later part of the day too.

Purple scrubs looks nicer than the usual blue.. but to me, the scrubs look like pyjamas.. and kevin said we look no diff from the patients. The scrub looks so baggie and it definitely won't look good with the free girl-girl shoe.. i feel like i wanna get that Nike all-black coloured sports shoe... but it's so expensive.. $1o3. Hmm.. think i want to go scout for other brands... so long the shoe look a little rugged and to last for 3 yrs.

After all done and settled, bid farewell to YF who left for weekend cruise and be back by Sunday. And before she left, she already can't wait to be back again to go swimming or the zoo as planned.

In the evening, Kevin came back from camp. Quick wash his uniform and dirty stuff, then left for that Mel Gibson movie ... don't know how to spell the movie title... very good movie.. or was it Pan Labyrinth... can't recall when we watched that spanish (i think) movie.. another good movie.
Watched a few other movies lately.. but can't remember when and what.


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20 January : Sam's Wedding and Niece Khadijah 1 yr old Birthday

Attended Sam's church wedding with HP held at the catholic church opposite Mac at Toa Payoh Central. Simple and it was quite fast ah.. some guest came dressed up in retro as it was the theme for her special day. I came in my usual jeans and white top.

After the wedding, I called Gong Gong for lunch at Fork and Spoon, together with Papa since he wanted to come over to Toa Payoh, to fetch me home . i then, realized that .. Papa is Gong's son-in-law, and me, papa's daughter-in-law... and to grandpa, i'm his granddaughter-in-law... hmmm, it was like an "all-in-law' day ..

Late afternoon, i left home again to my bro's house at Bt Panjang to celebrate his 1yr old daughter birthday.



Reached home late and house so empty... couldn't sleep.. didn't feel tired at all. Been out for the whole week and yet still feeling restless.. i think i miss my sayang.
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21 January : Home whole day ...
Morning went breakfast with Elliot.. so long never see her.. and she is into her 8th mth pregnancy.. so happy for her. Congrats!

YF smsed after returning from the cruise, to confirm on tmr's activity.
To JUrong west swimming ctr.. rain or shine, must get out of the house.. die-die must play.. we got not much time liao!!!


Spend the rest of my Sunday at home.. alone & nothing much to do, jus laundry, bored. No one to talk to.. so silent at home. Waited and waited for kevin to call me.. so my mobile phone always with me 24/7, by my side or in my pocket .. my boredom was relieved when i received his phonecalls.

15 days left to go..

We are schduled to be back at ward by 1st Feb, but a lot of things not settled by ur HR dept. Initially, we were told to return to the hospital ion 2nd week of dec lastest, to collect our uniforms, our bagde, make payment for the nursing licence stuff and medical check up. So far no calls from them for such urgency.. Wonder if they got do their job!

Woke up early today about 0530hrs to see Kev off to Clementi Camp. Observed that, his cat, Alley itching all over.. scratching and licking.. bathed her, finally. After that,placed her collar so that she will not lick her body too much .. don't know why this cat has always got body itch... ( hmmm, wonder if there's piriton for pets?) Must remember to take the collar off, before i leave home.. so else,she will starve..

Going to the zoo with YF and Shiken. Last minute cancellation from Hankee as he's at the A&E- mum admitted for high fever. Hui Ping.. not coming.. So it's going to be the 3 of us again..

Anyways.. the weather is good today and hope that it will stay this way for the rest of the week..

Bring raincoat,jus in case!!! But ah.. do i have a raincoat?!? Hmmmm....

Kevin goes for 3weeks ICT ...

Yesterday, he left for ICT. Since he'll be away, I thought that it would be a good idea to follow adik and along with HP and YF to Malacca. The plan was to accompany Adik, drive to Malacca to send her grandma back to her hometown, and at the same time, to spend 1 nite there, sight-seeing and to play, of cos! And everyone was so excited for it.

Kevin was fine with it but my mum stopped me for going since Kev not around..and not to do extra-ordinary things... while he's gone.. aiyah, that's it.. cannot go lor..It was a bit difficult to break the bad news to her.. After explaining my situation.. that i felt 50-50 about going.. Thankfully Adik was understanding abt it even thought a bit disappointed.. but she has gotten over it when me and YF went to see her yesterday, for lunch at her place, followed by window shopping at Jurong Point and makan .. again ... at West Coast Hawker Centre. It was raining the whole of yesterday .. we didn't have much things to do but to walk indoors and eat.. which we felt that we don't really enjoy window shopping.. Nothing in the mall interest us.. well except for that stereo speakers fitted in a stuff toy found at Kiddy Palace.

So we talked about going to the Zoo anytime next week.. and if the weather gets better, we should go to Ubin as planed..

Time is running short.. with 2 weeks left .. there are still things needed to be done .. and a lot more places to go..activity to do..

Better write down what i really want to do .. in my iNote!!

Activity 090107: soakfeet cum bowling day

Last Tuesday, took my friends to gambas camp where the hot spring is to soak our feet.

It started to rain jus when we wanted to make our way to the camp from North Point Mac D. And that, did not stop us. We liked it anyway.. we didn't want too much sun cos we had enough of it already from the previous Sentosa trip.

It kept us cool and of cos, no sweat.. We had our umbrellas so, it was no problem at all.

No one was at the hot spring. Anyway.. who wants to come just to soak feet on such wet weather?.. only people like us who has got nothing better to do..

And so we had the whole place to ourselves.. we talked whatever we like and as loud as we want to .. relaxing in the open, having our feet soaked in that warm water, under the rain.. We spent about 2 hours there and, since the rain didn't stop, i invited my friends over to my place for lunch. We watched Scary Movies 4 and they were so OK with my cats.. Tabbie loves their attention..

Then, in the evening, unplanned.. our Adik, brought us all, to Marina South for bowling to relieve some stress. Kevin joined us too. My friends don't mind him coming along at all. They are comfortable with kevin around. and our conversations not limited to "girl talk" and there's a variety of other things to talk about not limited to school and work stuff.. And best when Kev and Adik meet face to face.. it will be like in the Arena.

Haven't been bowling for quite some time.. and i felt the strain on the whole part of my right hand, especially my wrist.. the ache felt like after the "pull-up patient" effect.

We had a great time and looking forward to ...what's next !

i-note or do nothing..

Supposed to have an ala- candle light dinner tonight but kev got to work till midnight.

While preparing for the lamp chop and stuff..., he called to tell me that. Not disappointed at all cos, tomorrow he's not required to be at work! So we have the whole day to do a lot of other things...

Need to do check list so that we will not miss out on anything. We can be very forgetful and then we "tai chi" each other for forgeting to remind each other of the things we need to do.

That's why i need an i-note!

I would write down what i plan to do the following day, the night before i go sleep.
Usually, before kev step out for work, he will ask what's on my list for today.. my agenda.. my activity .. quickly and sometimes excitedly, i tell him my itinery for the day..

I list down the things i need to do, places to go or things to get.. so as to get things going and done with.. if not, i would just laze, do nothing, roll on the bed from side to side, tv watch me, ... then the day wasted away. Things like : go somewhere, wash/iron clothes, wash toilet, tidy the kitchen, bathe the cats.. and then, i'll crossed out the things that i have done ...
Wah.. after that i will feel so satisfied.. and at the end of the day.. i update kev.

But so far, bathing cats... still not crossed yet and not even in the list already, .. they hate to bathe.. ah.. wait till they are really smelly...

Another thing on my list which i have to accomplish is to finish my oolong slimming tea... Difficult task!

To the Beach, Movies and Eat eat eat

Was at Siloso beach last Friday with some friends.. and we had lots for fun!
The photos tells it all...

Then, yesterday me and kev went for movie.. "The Last Dance".

Always feeling hungry.. .. so we went to Swensons' for apple crumble..to fill our stomach , before the movie.

Hmmm.. about the movie ..no too bad la.. but a bit messy.. confusing but ok lor..

My final verdict: Left the cinema.. no feeling of the movie .. but craved for chinese noodle.. cos, in one of the scene.. the officer ordered chinese noodle, wah.. the way he eat so shiok.. , and kevin felt the same way too.

So we headed to Far East Plaza for noodle.
Ordered Shredded chicken noodle for myself and Kev eat Fried Ee Mee...

chinese movies, i watched..

I am begining to like watching triad-themed Hong Kong/ chinese movies.
I have seen a few of such movies and other HK movies which kevin took me to but i cannot recall the titles..
Yesterday i watched Election and Election 2, loan them from Play!

Election” is the rather odd, but apparently true, story of how a Triad Society in Hong Kong chooses their new leader, or Chairman. Up for the job are Lok (Simon Yam), a seemingly mild-mannered, intelligent gangster and single parent to a young teen, and the explosive Big D (Tony Leung Ka Fai), who wants the job at all costs. Bribery, bullying, and other means of extorting votes from the elder Triads have commenced in full as the story begins. It isn’t long before Lok is elected Chairman, but to fully assume power and be recognized as the new chieftain, he must first take control of a token baton passed on from one Society chief to the next for over 100 years. To this end, both Lok and Big D send out their underlings and allies in search of the baton, even as the police, led by the stout Superintendent Hui (former kung fu star David Chiang) clamps down...

Lately we watched Confession of Pain.. good movie to catch too. Good acting by Tony Leung and Takeshi, and act-cute Shu Qi, made the movie fun to watch.



and also.. Curse of the Yellow Flower.. hmmm.. Not much artistic martial arts but has got pretty colours and sightingss...
Chow Yun Fatt.. good acting in this movie... i thought he is going to look awkward in this kind of old traditional movie..
GongLi is preeetty.. think she's the main attraction for pple to come watch the movie.. besides pop idol Jay Chou.. this guy got to take more acting lessons.. his facial expressions jus made the audience laugh... young modern looking man.. lost in the old time zone..

Liang cha

i think i better finish my oolong tea..
kev bought it for me late last year.. 25 sachets only and yet i couldn't finished it in a mth.
To encourage me drinking the tea daily, we went around different stores from orchard to chinatown, searching for a good tea pots and thermal drinking flask..

I brought a thermal flask to school and my friends watched me drink. I did offered them some, but they refused cos, the smell already made them go .. eeeee ...yucks. It was like drinking medicine.. bitter ..

In fact, it is a type of medicine..it has it's health benefits..

Oolong tea is good. Oolong (also spelt Wulong, or Wu Long) is literally 'black dragon' tea, but they say the name originally had nothing to do with dragons; rather, it was named after its discoverer Wu Liang.

Like other tea, Oolong is rich in antioxidants called polyphenols. These help prevent cancer, keep the heart healthy and aid general well-being.

Drinking good tea such as this, has other benefit like it helps to reduce the development of oxidized fatty materials in the bloodstream, such as low-density-lipoprotein (LDL) cholesterol, the bad cholesterol, which linked to the formation of artery-clogging plaque and heart attacks.

It also help people to shed some pounds, which my frens commented that there's nothing left in me to shed.. But actually, have ah !!.. only Kev knows..

Since i got 1 mth break, .. will make sure by end of this mth, this oolong tea no more in the drawer.. I am left about 10 more sachets..

Last day of the year..

31 Dec 2006 - Hari Raya Haji and ultramarathon.

Kev finished the 1st lap earlier than me and waited somewhere along the road, near the finish line to take pictures of me coming in minutes later.. Then, after the short break, we ran the 2nd lap together. This year's run was a bit tough . Maybe because i didn't prepare for it. In fact in all the running competition, i hardly train for any of it. I just whack only. The most important thing is to be able to finish the race. But last Sunday's run was really cialat. Wanted to give up after the 2nd lap, to follow kevin home.

The 3rd lap, I was still going strong until going into 4th lap, when i felt the presence of a girl,with a blue umbrella walking behind me. Looked back, noticed a familiar runner, so i decided to make friend. Her name is Joey, 23 yr old.
We ended up walking and talking throughtout the 10.5km ++ ( they say this distance is longer than what it is supposed to be, cos of the landslide.. the route has changed and i hate it. got to go thought the steps..No wonder, it felt like "cannot make it")
We took about 3hrs to reach the start point.. and by then we were so damn hungry.
We sat awhile, re-fuel and at time it was like about 4pm. We almost wanted to give up.. cos our legs could take it. We didn't even want to try to run a bit. Leg too painful liao.. killer.. cramp.. head also cramp.. felt sleepy.... stress..

After some encouragement from the committee, we set off for our final 5th lap around 415pm. Reached at 7km around 6, and we decided to run slowly starting from the water point along the road. No matter how painful.. die die must reach before 6-45pm.

We quessed that we were the last 2 to complete 5 laps, so we decided to hold hands to finish together in style. We finally did it. What a relieve!


in 2004, my first ultra timing was 11hrs 41 min
2005- 10 hrs 01min
this yr ... 11hrs 30 mins.
Next yr.. may not want to take part already..

Didn't have time to wait for my cert cos i need to rush to my parents' house for hari raya , and then to Juli's open house latest by 10pm.. and lastly for countdown at Sentosa. With muscle aching all over the body,especially the lower limb.. and was up since 5am , I was like so stoned when i finally got to rest! What a way to end 2006!

i am not making any new resolution come new year, but it is going to be a start of a new journey for me to practise nursing. not so encouraging now after i got to know of my salary package, which i didn't expect it to be that miserable.

Even though, my student days have come to an end yesterday, i don't feel absolute relieve. Even now.. no feeling at all.... don't have the mood for any celebration... why..?

Added to the above misery .. bad news of our adik who had to re-do her attachment, given the reason that she was not up to it or not ready for it (to perform as staff nurse).. which some of us think that .. it was all bull shit. They are making use of students as free labour, that's what we think. And what nonsense.. they were telling us that ..it's ok to repeat cos it won't affect our future. They think we are small kids.. cannot think one meh..

So how to have that good "last day" kind of feeling?

When kev smsed me that we shall celebrate .. i don't know what are we celebrating ..
only when i got home and he told me that he cleared his maths exam paper which he had no confidence in passing it..
only then, i realised what the celebration is for..

but we didn't go anywhere cos we suddenly fell asleep after the delivery guys for our new fridge and washer, left. in my 10 years of marriage,this is our 4th washing machine. pple use their washer like for life time, don't know why for me, washing machine don't seem to last very long.

We decided to check out the hot spring outside one of the army camps in yishun,along gambas road.. not sure what you call that protected place.

I enjoyed the walk there from our house as it rained on and off.. and we ate old chang kee along the way..

our friend said that there's no need to bring any pail for soaking our feet as there were plenty. Not only pails that we saw, there were at least 3 bath tubs.. and one malay family seen soaking in them.

People say that by soaking our feet into that hot water improves blood circulation, other than that ..don't really know what good it can do to our body. There's a slight pungent smell , and steam coming from the drain.

The water is really hot. Quite thereupeutic actually.. sittingthere, soaking our feet, surrounded by trees.. like so kampung-like..

the sun suddenly decided to come out.. so.., sitting under the hot sun was no difference from sun tanning at Sentosa. Luckily i had my umbrella..

On our way back, saw some old folks walking towards that place..and one came with at least 4 pails to fill them up with the hot water .. to bring home, i guess. Wonder how long can the hot water last?

After that, we decide to go a real thereupeutc full body massage.. so we try one at novena square. Kevin's first full body massage- combo of asian oil and shiatsu, while me jus asian oil massage. I hope it could get rid of my headache.. but no leh.. still headache.

After that.. we had dinner at toa payoh. Fork and Spoon halal food court was recommended since Banquet at Toa payoh has closed down.

And it was fantastic.. finally kev got to eat his beef noodle..

Yesterday's weather was the best for outdoor activity. No sun.. clear blue sky.. cool and refreshing. The trees all look so fresh and green..

i think, it is the best time to go to places like Bird park or the Zoo, where u need to walk a lot under the sun. And also, after the rain... usually most of the birds and other animals will come out from their hiding places for fresh air and play..

just like people... whenever rain.. stay home.. No rain.. go out.. hmmm..

Rain, pls don't add on to her sadness.. pls go away

dear adik

how i wish we could switch places so that u don't hv to deal with the nasty people.
it must have been very tough for u
stressful and demoralising..

knowing that u tried so hard to please others and have been doing what is needed to be done..
i say, u have done a fantastic job.

we hope that there's someone there who sees u and could stand up for u ..
we hope that there's someone there not only watched u but also watching the ones who is being unfair to u..

please, don't let urself feel miserable,
don't show them that u are giving up

When in doubt,
don't be afraid to express
be urself,
have confidence ,
u can do it!

and...if u are troubled,
talk to someone..
u can always come to us
we do not want u to face it alone
we need to hear from u

remember,
we are gonna walk this journey together.. for the next 3yrs....

January planned activities

We were told to take 1mth break with no pay, and so we have limited spending money to enjoy our break. my frens have suggested 2 activities which requires minimal spending and they are excited for it already.. and they are:

Rest and Relax by the beach at Sentosa Island

In touch with Nature at Ubin or Chek Jawa

As for me.. additional activity:

Camping at home... hybernate myself while kev goes for his In-camp training for 3 weeks in January..

Never ending rain...

i want to play in the rain!!!!

No more that Sunday feeling

now i know how it feels like working on shifts.. i don't know what day it is now.. after working throughout the weekend.. i don't know when sunday gonna come again!!!

But it's alright.. since kev works on sundays.. i don't mind but i must have friday or saturday off to spend time with him.. else he will be going to Sentosa by himself.. like last Saturday.. .. while i was working from 1 to 9pm.. he was at Sentosa. That place has become his playground .. our playground.. wah deep inside, I also want to be there too!!

Nevermind la.. too much sun is no good for me..

Anyways i'll be getting fri and sat off this week, which incidentally coincide with Kev's off days... yeah! and we have made plans to watch movie and dinner with kev's family to celebrate Mama's birthday on the Friday.. and most likely again... to our playground on Saturday. And not to forget, to buy x'mas gifts for the ward x'mas gift exchange party on the 26th.

Looking forward to year end.. gonna go for my 3rd ultrarun and hope to do at least 6 laps this time round. And hope that my leg will not give any problem cos, i got to go to Juli's BBQ at her new condo and then for countdown at Sentosa after the run.

And after that... I got 1 mth break with no pay = cannot enjoy... and Kev had to go for ICT for 3 week = home alone.

The rain like i never seen before

the feeling so different.. if only i could upload the personal video kev took of me last nite.

the rain was so super heavy.. we could actually hear the sound of the strong wind,

along the corridor, i stood facing against the wind direction.. spread my arms wide open ..

and i let myself be free.. letting the wind to blow me away............. so happy.. so alive .. like an

idiotic girl .. moving up and down the corridor outside my house unit..

... giggling and laughing away.. like i never see rain before..

" keep on smilling, no matter how much it hurts.."

think that's what she was trying to tell me..


thank you.

wah.. i like this slide.com
so easy to use.. found it from one of my multiply contacts.. and since i am at home doing nothing.. got something new to try ..
but actually got a lot of clothes to fold and iron.. just too lazy right now.

oh yes.. i got my exam results last week and i passed. Don't need to mention about grades la..jus average.
now waiting for kevin's exam results.. hopefully, he clear his math paper

and .. i failed my driving test. it was raining cats and dogs during test time.. could not see anything at all.. why must it rain!! It wasn't raining when i was doing my warm up.. it went smoothly.. but why..why must it rain !!! ?!! Panic seh.. don't know how to use the wiper !! Just my luck!


My next TP test will be in March next yr.. such a long wait.. sian.. but i am going to call up to have it changed to earlier date. The counter girl say that i must call 72hrs before the actual test date for changes and they will allocate one earlier not later than the actual test date. I will resume my driving lesson in January..

Meow... meow..

I created a Slide Show! Check it out!

It's not over..

My first marathon.. & got a good feel of what full marathon is all about... and i want to do it again next year.

started without doing much warming up, which is very bad, i know..

i did what i normally would do..that is, to start slow.. afterall i got a long way to go. But Kev and me decided to pace with 2 guys (wearing blue saucony singlet), steady pacing and quite comfortable. But, not for long, entering Marina Centre, i needed to pee. So Kev continued with his run..

Sure need to pee one! so inconvenient! Everytime like that! the urge is always there in the begining of the run. The first portable toilet, was locked, ran another 150m, then got one ..

Continued running.. at my own pace.. and slowly build up and maintained my speed. My target was : as long as i reach 20km mark in less that 3hrs, i should be doing fine.
I just want to reach the finishing line before 1pm, cos i want to eat lunch!! That was all i aimed for.. well of cos.. i also want the medal and finisher's t shirt!

Caught up with kev somewhere after the 10km mark.. he was complaining of pain.. cramps on calf and thigh muscles. It was the same pain as the one he had when we ran to Orchard the week before. He had to stop to stretch before he could go on furher.. and the cramps were really bad cos he had to stop quite frequently. I ran ahead .. but waited for him at 15km mark, and later on at 21km.

As there were no fixed medical stations along the running route, I was quite worried for him. Hmmm.. and worried for myself too, if i got an asthma attack.. they are no where to be seen. The ambulances a located at road junctions.. and the first aiders were juniors from secondary schools- St. Johns Amb Brigade, standing near at each drink station. I bet they don't have emergency equipment with them. Also, they don't seem to have enough -the need to have item: deep heat rub or spray with them.
Or they don't have it with them at all.. on their small wooden table, I saw a packet of food and a roll of Oreo biscuits on top of it.. wah.. so hungry already that time (almost 4hrs), I asked a member if he could spare one or two pieces of OREO biscuit, but no... the boy said that he couldn't give me cos the biscuits was part of their lunch package.. so sad.. i got no choice but to eat that yucky salty powergel. The rasberry flavour tasted like cough syrup.. yucks! I tried to refrained for eating banana.. but i got no choice, so got to eat to tahan my hunger.. i hate bananas.. thinking of it makes me want to puke..

and yes, i managed to keep up with my target time: 3hrs exactly reached 20km mark. So i thought i jus maintain the same speed. Then it started to rain..

Reunite again at 21km, he tried to run but again he was hit with the cramps. So he told me to go on... so i continued running. We met again after the turning point at the lagoon, at his 25km mark. I was still running till i reached 30km, when i decided to walk and refuel with that yucky powergel.


I thought i could pick myself up to run the next 10km. But it was so difficult, and heavy on the thighs. So i ran a bit, walked a lot. And in the end, i power walk all the way to the end, leaving the rest 300m or so to run in style , cos i just remembered that there'll be photographer waiting... the timing i clocked unofficially was 6:45 hahaha... yahooo!!! .

Now aching all over the lower limbs,but still able to walk and do some housework the next morning. No pain no gain la..uh.. kevin said that he cried and laugh altogether .. suffering from the pain and the way he struggled to run. Truely, we enjoyed this run no matter how long we took, and no regrets at all.

Alhamdullillah., Thank God, nothing extraordinary happened.. no asthma attacks, no major injuries..and the weather was fantastic!

Kevin took MC for 1 day, and I was lucky to have 2 days off from work.